#pt 12

Klaus suddenly scrunches his eyes closed and whimpers. You attempt to get his attention but all it results in is more crying out, and eventually he abruptly sits up, gasping. "Klaus? What happened?" He splashes some of the water in frustration. "A few damn ghosts got past your little trick. They've been trying to harass me for the last few minutes now." You rub his back and furrow your brows in concern. "I'm sorry. I wish I knew what this was, or even how to control it. I want to make sure this doesn't keep happening." Klaus looks behind and grins tiredly at you. "You simply being here is enough for me. Without you these past couple months, I would have been neck deep in...I dunno... some kind of mind altering substance that's insanely bad for me." "Still though..." You feel bad that Klaus has to go through this pain at all. If you knew what it is exactly you could do, you could try and find a way to control it. "Still nothing!" He retorts, "Listen, this power you have, you'll either get it or you won't. Forcing it does nothing but cause a lifetime of pain and misery, trust me. Now come on, time we really relax." Klaus grabs a joint and lights it and you grab the earbuds you had splurged on a few weeks ago. It was a far better sight than his old walkman at any rate. He takes a long drag and passes it to you as the sounds of "We're through" By The Hollies plays in your ear. This was going to be a long night... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Eventually the two of you left the sanctity of the bathtub, decked out in towels, when you heard shots coming from downstairs. You both instinctively duck to avoid the non-existent gunfire. "Christ on a cracker!" Klaus shouts, "The hell was that?!" "Hazel and Cha-Cha." You whisper. Fuck. This is it. This is the moment you've been dreading for so long. Your hands begin to shake and you can feel the tears begin to form. Moving is an impossibility at this point. Klaus has to cradle your face with his hands to get your attention. "Hey, hey, hey, hey. hey! Now is not the time for a mental breakdown!" He begins to look around frantically, making sure nobody else is there. "Listen, we talked about this. Whatever happens, happens. But my feelings are going to stay the same no matter what."

“I’d rather not relive it… but his brother, Ben, was just really rude when I first met him, and so instead of going back to see them Luke had me hang with Cal. And when Luke got back he was like sold on what Ben thought and it really fuckin sucked. I almost left. I almost broke up with him. Now things are a little weird, it’s like strained ya know? Because it feels like part of him still thinks what Ben said was true.”

“Ok, what did Ben say babe?” She asks, finally sitting next to you on her bed.

“He implied I was just using Luke. Like I’m around for his name and his money…”

“Furthest thing from the truth!” Kate exclaims.

“It’s why I told Luke something came up and I couldn’t go with him just yet.” You drop your phone and cross your arms and rest your head on them. “I miss him so much… all the fucking time and it’s like it doesn’t matter. He just hears Ben in his head.”

“I’m sure that’s not true.” Kate reassures, rubbing your back.

“Oh just wait… you’ll see.” You groan.

When you board the plane the next morning, there are no less than 15 dm’s from girls talking about how flirty Luke had been lately, you could see it in the way he was holding himself and the way he dressed since he left for tour as well. It didn’t help that every time you spoke to him, he seemed to only be half interested, like he already had one foot out the door. Talking to Kate was the closest you’d come to expressing that, but you were glad she’d be with you.

You meet the guys at the venue. You come across Ash and Calum first, which results in 2 big hugs for you and one for Kate. You also lose Kate in the process as your directed toward Luke in the dressing room.

He’s texting away on his phone as you stand in the doorway and you can’t help the overwhelming sadness that seems to consume you. He doesn’t look up until you’ve just made up your mind to back out of the room.

“Hey!” He grins, your phone buzzes in your pocket and you pull it out, “I was just texting you to see where you were.” He gets up and crosses the space between the two of you. “It’s good to see you.” He engulfs you in his arms. He pushes your bag off your shoulder and you let go of your suitcase, “now, C’mere so I can kiss you properly.” His hands slip down to your thighs and he hoists you up, pressing his lips firmly to yours. “Missed you.” He assures. You wrap your legs around him, knowing that’s what he wants. “Hi.” He whispers, now that you’re closer to eye level.

“Hi.” You give him a half smile. “Missed you.” Your fingers move up to intertwine into his curls.

“I’m glad you made it, finally.” He kisses you again, long and hard, a touch out of character for Luke. He sets you down. “Did you get everything taken care of? Everything ok?” He asks.

“Mmhmm” You nod and bite your lip.

“Good. Now I wanna take you to this restaurant I love here, so we gotta get moving.” He grabs your hand and then stops, he looks at your suitcase in the doorway and he moves it.

“Is anyone else going?” You ask.

“I don’t think so. I’d like to spend time with just you, if that’s ok?” He asks, coming back over to you to wrap his hand around yours.

“F’course Luke.” You nod. Luke leads you around to find his security guy and to figure out who was going to get him where he wanted ago, but quickly, you were sat in the back of an SUV together. He doesn’t say much and he doesn’t look at his phone. He stares out the window for a while and looks at you a bit, and he always has a hand on you.

“You ok? You’re quiet.” He mentions.

“Uh-huh… it was just a long flight. And Kate stayed last night so it was just girl talk all night… and hearing more than I ever needed to know about Calum.” You roll your eyes.

“Did you talk about me?” He asks.

“A little bit. I mostly just let Kate ramble. You know how I am when it comes to you… so little of us is truly private so I like to hold on to what I can.” You shrug.

A small smile graces Luke’s lips, “that right there is one of the many things I love about you.” He leans over slightly and kisses your cheek.

He’s out of the car before you and holds your hand tightly as you walk into the restaurant together. You’re quickly sat in an empty section of the restaurant which was fine because Luke wanted alone time with you. You get drinks ordered and are looking over the menu when Luke gently puts his hand on your cheek. You look up at him, and also kind of lean into his touch a bit. “You sure you’re just tired babe? You’ve been different since we got back from Aus.” He mentions quietly.

“Yeah, I’m ok. We can talk more after the show.” You nod.

He sighs, “I’m gonna be thinking about what you could possibly need to talk about the whole show.”

“No you won’t. You’ll get on stage and get in the zone.” You smile.

His thumb caresses your cheek, “but everything’s ok?” He asks before pulling his hand away.

“Everything’s ok Luke.” You assure him, hopefully convincingly, because you weren’t sold on it yourself. “So what’s good here, what’s so special about this place?”

“This is the place… I had lunch with Cal and Ash here, and it’s where I concluded that I loved you and that’s why I wanted to bring you here.” The waitress comes and you both order and once she leaves Luke wants to keep talking. He reaches for your hands across the small table and you easily slip your hands into his. “We’ve had a tough few months babe. I know I’m definitely to blame since you went home with me… I know Ben wasn’t fair to you and I know I let him get in my head. I know the fans haven’t been the nicest lately and you don’t complain about it at all, and I know you don’t need me at all... But you’ve been distant, pulling away, and I just wanna know why? I wanna know what’s going on?”

You nod your head, agreeing with what he’s saying, “you’re right. We’ve had a rough go of it lately… I’m tired. I’m so tired. This is tough… I’m doing my best, Luke, but it’s hard when I’m getting messages every day about how you’re acting single and I just don’t know what to think about that, and you always seem 1000 miles away and like anything else is more important than me.”

“I hear all of that. And I haven’t been my best to you, I know that. But I wanna turn this around. I love you, you know that. I know that. I want this, I want you. I want you to want this too.”

You nod your head, “I do want this too.”

Luke starts to panic when he sees tears forming in your eyes. You haven’t been much of a crier. “What… what’s wrong?”

“No… nothing. It’s just really nice to hear you still want this.” You pull one of your hands away so you can wipe at your eyes.

“Of course I do baby.” He says quietly. “I’m sorry you’ve ever had to doubt it. I’m sorry I’ve made you feel this way.” Luke notices that that tears don’t seem to be slowing down. He gets up and comes around the table and gently pulls you out of your seat so he can hold you. The food comes and Luke just has them wrap it up to go.

“M’sorry, I don’t know why I’m so emotional.” You mumble into his chest, tears still falling from your eyes. “I mean… I actually thought we were gonna break up.”

“Wait… what? Really? You thought I was gonna break up with you?” He asks, pulling away from you a little to see your face.

“Uh-huh. I was so sure of it. That’s why I didn’t really want to have lunch with you alone.” You let out a little laugh.

“Oh no… we’re not breaking up. It’s not a joke when I say you’re my better half. I have to be better to be good enough for you. So… I mean, I guess if I got tired of it… but I’m not.” He rambles. The food comes all bagged up and Luke pays for it quickly so you can get back to the venue.

You walk in, hand in hand with a tear stained face and Kate is immediately up in arms and trying to steal you away from Luke. “It’s… were ok.” You assure her. She gives Luke massive side eye and goes so far as to refuse a hug from him.

He laughs it off, “she’ll tell ya what she wants later and you’ll see you have no reason to be mad.”

Luke stays back a little and lets you talk to Calum alone, walks past and gently touches your hand, motioning toward the dressing room. “When you’re done.” He nods and walks away with the food in hand.

“You good? You seem…” Cal thinks on a word.

“Less stressed? Because I am.” You chuckle. “I really thought we were gonna break up.” You admit.

“I obviously can’t say it never crossed his mind, but he never vocalized that.” Cal reassures. “He loves you. That’s all he really focused on as far as I know.”

“Thanks Cal.” You grin and then lean in for a brief hug.

“Anytime.” He rubs your back and let’s you go.

You go to join Luke in the dressing room. “Is it hotel or bus tonight, babe?” You ask, entering the room.

“I’d only have you come out, first night on a hotel night, sweet girl. You know I need ya after a while away.” He says, patting the spot next to him, and opening your box of food. You sit down and he wraps his arm around your shoulder and kisses the side of your head.

“I can’t believe you thought we were gonna break up.” He chuckles.

“I didn’t know what to think!” You defend.

“That’s honestly fair.” He decides. “So, I was gonna put your sister on the list for the Seattle  show, do you know if she already has tickets, is she going in a group?” He asks as the two of you finally get started on your food.

“Um, I have no idea, but I can ask her.” You shrug.

“Can I call her?” He asks, a little excitement in his eyes.

“Sure.” You chuckle, handing your phone over to him.

“You’re so trusting.” He smiles.

“I don’t have anything to hide and we’ve been together for two and a half years.” You laugh.

Luke finds your sisters number and puts it on speaker.

“Hello dear sister of mine!” She sing songs.

“Hey, it’s Luke.” He greets, smiling wide.

“Oh… OH…. oh, ok, hey Luke what’s up, I’m assuming you didn’t break up with my sister then?” She asks.

He looks over at you, “I may have told her I felt that way.” You shrug.

“Nope, didn’t break up. But I did wanna check with you… are you coming to the show when we come through town?” He asks.

“Uhh… yeah actually, I’ve got tickets with a couple friends.” She confirms.

“How many?”

“It’s me and 2 other girls.”

“Ok… I’m gonna put you on the list with a plus 2, cool?” He asks.

“HOLYYYY SHIT LUKE ARE YOU SERIOUS?!” She exclaims. At this point, she’d met Luke numerous times but still hadn’t met any of the others. “Wait, don’t be fucking with me Luke.” She exclaims.

“I’m not. I’m gonna put you on the list.” He laughs.

“Ok… hey is my sister around?”

“I’m right here.” You laugh.

“Great take me off speaker please.” You did as she asked and held the phone to your ear, she launched into a full on fan girl moment, complete with ‘Luke Hemmings just called me.’

“Ok kiddo, I’m glad you’re excited but I gotta go. I just got here so I’d like to spend some time with Luke. I love you though.”

“I’m texting you about this oh my god. LOVE YOU.” And she hangs up.

“Well that was fun.” You laugh, looking at Luke. At this point the boys start pouring into the dressing room to get ready for the show. “Ok that’s my queue to leave.” You laugh as Ashton either doesn’t notice or doesn’t care and just starts taking

clothes off. You close your box of food and grab your bag

“you gonna watch the show tonight?” Luke asks.

“Yeah.. Kate’s never seen you all play live.” You say. Luke smiles and kisses you, “have a good show babe.”

“Thanks Love.” He gently pats your ass as you head out to the green room.

“Ok what the fuck happened? Because my best friend disappeared for over an hour and left me all alone with her boyfriends band mates and she returns IN TEARS and I didn’t even get an explanation.” She demands the second you walk in the room.

“Luke wanted to talk and he wanted to make sure we’d be alone. Things are fine.” You shrug.

“Your nonchalance is disturbing sometimes.” She laughs. “But you’re ok?”

“I’m ok.” You promise with a nod.

Kate watches the show in complete awe, she can’t take her eyes off of Calum and she squeezes your hand every time he grins at her from the stage.

“He’s getting the best blow job of his life tonight.” She declares.

“Kate! I don’t need to know! Cal’s a really good friend of mine.” You laugh.

“Oh come on! Doesn’t it turn you on even a slight bit to see Luke just so in love with what he’s doing and just completely owning it?”she exclaims.

You roll your eyes but go back to watching Luke, and yeah, it turns you on, but it’s not worth talking about.

Kate couldn’t keep her hands off of Cal when he got off stage. Luke slung his arm around your shoulders. “Do you wanna grab your bags and go back to the hotel, or do you wanna hang around here till we’re done?” He asks.

“You tryna go out tonight?” You ask. “It’s ok if you are, it just changes my answer.” You smirk.

“Are you kidding me? All I’m tryna do is get you outta them jeans.” He grins and gives you a wink.

“Then I’ll stay.”

“Ok, good, let’s get you a drink and are you hungry, I think we're ordering food?” He leads you into the dressing room to get a drink.

“No Luke, I’m not.” You laugh. “Unlike you, what I ate before the show is still working for me, but I didn’t get up and play a show…” You grin.

“Ok... but you’re gonna have a long night.” He hands you two mixed drinks. “You sure you don’t want me to order you something?” He quickly presses his lips to yours, he seems to let the world fall away, his grip tightens on you and he deepens the kiss, though you are acutely aware of other people pouring into the room now. Luke pulls back. “I was getting a little annoyed you weren’t trying to touch me back but then I remembered I handed you the cups.” He laughs. “Anyway, I’m gonna order you something,” he says as if he hadn’t just been kissing you. “Ok, you know the drill.” He says, “2 hours.”

“2 hours.” You nod and then turn toward the door, you wait for Kate as Cal gives her a drink and kisses her and you both head back to the green room.

“This is gonna be the longest two hours of my life.” Kate complains. “I mean, did you see them? Did you see Cal like he’s just fucking sex.” She gushes.

You laugh, “is this what you’re going to be like the whole time you’re here?” You laugh.

“Maybe… I can’t believe you don’t want to talk about how hot Luke is on stage, like I was watching him and I just wanted to rip his clothes off. For fucks sake… you internalize way too much when it comes to him.”

“I just… I like keeping some stuff between him and I… our relationship is a lot more public than you and Cal’s.” You shrug.

“I mean you’ve never even told me what he’s like in bed and we always talk about that… I told you about Cal.”

“You volunteered the info about Cal! I didn’t ask.” You exclaim.

“Can you give me something? Please???!” She asks, latching onto your arm. “I tell you everything! I’m just asking for one detail.”

You sigh and look at her. “He’s the best I’ve ever had.” You shrug.

“Oh yeah! Way to sell it. Shrug and all.” She laughs, finishing off her drink. “Hey why do you have two drinks? I only got one.”

“Luke knows me, I’m a two drink kinda girl when waiting for him.” You laugh. She grabs your second cup and takes a sip, “oh nevermind, he does know you…” she turns her face up at the mixed drink Luke had made for you. “Did he get you food? Cal said he was gonna get me something.”

“Yeah, I told him I was fine, but Luke’s got plans for us tonight and I will apparently need energy…”

“Ok girl, this is the kind of dirt I wanted!... when will it be here?”

“Any minute now.” You say, checking your phone.

-still thinking about you in those jeans… and taking them off of you ;)

You grin to yourself, reading Luke’s message. As if on queue the assistant comes by with food and additional drinks for you and Kate. Luke of course nailed it for you and Cal did for Kate with a little help from you.

The two of you are tired and sat on the couch, Kate’s head in your lap, the final 45 minute stretch before the guys were typically ready to leave.

“I wanna tell you…” Kate mumbles, “I want what you and Luke have and that scares me because Cal is the first guy I’ve wanted that with… of course I also always thought it was gonna be me and you, always on the edge of single, if not… and somehow, Luke swept you off your feet… and man Calum just, he gets me… I’m afraid of him, and that.” she mentions.

At first you aren’t sure if she even means for you to hear it, she’s a little drunk, but she looks at you. “It’s not the worst thing in the world Kate… to have someone else to rely on.” You admit. “I can’t hold the weight of the world, and Luke always assures me I don’t have to.”

“But… you deal with so much shit for being his girl… the fans, the pictures. Like, I couldn’t do it. And I think what pisses me off the most is like, you are the sweetest person and you wanna take care of everyone and people just shit on you all the time and you just take it, I never hear you really complain about it, Cal says you never bring it up to him and I don’t know how you do it.”

“It was just something i realized very early on that I’d need to learn to deal with if I wanted to be with Luke and on a whim, basically, I decided to try. And it hasn’t been easy, and it probably never will be, but it kind of fades away, especially when I get to see him or spend time with him.” You have a slight grin on your face.

Your eyes drift up to the doorway and you see Luke with a big grin on his face, Cal’s smirking at you too. “You pretty girls ready to go?” Cal asks.

Kate hops up from laying on the couch and agrees. You watch her run over to the guys and Cal slings an arm around her. “I’m ready!”

Luke waits, very patiently, while you make sure all of you and Kate’s things have been gathered and then he holds out his hand for you to grab as you come over to him. “You played a good show tonight babe.” You mention quietly as the two of you follow Cal and Kate.

“Thanks, it felt good.” He grins down at you.

“Hey, you two going out tonight?” Cal asks.

“Nope, gotta keep this one to myself.” Luke mentions, squeezing your hand slightly.

“Hmmm good point.” Cal says, helping Kate into the SUV.

“Kate did already promise me she was going to give you the best blow job of your life tonight.” You chuckle, knowing Kate is a little more drunk than anyone would have expected.

“Hey! You weren’t supposed to tell him.” She says.

“Just letting him know what he’s going to miss because you clearly aren’t in any shape to give the best bj ever, my friend.” You pat her on the shoulder.

Luke’s nose grazes along your cheek, and his lips stop next to your ear, “you might be though.” He whispers.

Your turn your face toward him and he rubs his nose gently against yours before pressing his lips to yours. “Hmmm.” You hum against his mouth. “You’re right, I kinda am.”

“You’re getting it good tonight baby girl.” He promises.

“Ugh thank god because I might have to go find Ash if not.” You tease.

Luke squeezes your thigh tight, “don’t think so baby girl… when’s the last time I let you down?” He asks quietly.

“It’s been a while… but there was that one time.” You raise an eyebrow with a slight grin.

“And I’ll never live it down, gonna spend the rest of my life making it up to you.” He laughs.

Cal makes a strange noise and it draws you and Luke out of your own world. “Y’all ok back there?” You ask, beginning to turn around.

“Don’t look back here…” Cal warns, a little strain in his voice. “Didn’t realize she’d start this with you guys in the car.” He murmurs.

“For fucks sake, Kate.” You laugh, Luke’s looking at you a little confused until he hears the slurping sound from behind you both. “And this is Kate making up for lack of sobriety with spontienty.” You confirm to Luke.

“Got it, get Kate drunk, then ask for blow job.” He jokes.

You get back to the hotel and you and Luke exit the SUV, Cal has him drive around a bit more so Kate can finish him off. You’re able to skip the crowd by the lobby by going in the back door, but you run into a few fans as you’re waiting for the elevator to take you upstairs. Luke wants to keep you close but you end up taking pictures and standing by while he signs autographs. It takes longer than he expected and he looks up at you, he can see the day has totally worn you down, your shoulders were slumped and you had dropped your bags to the floor. Luke looks at the group, “just one minute guys.” He says excusing himself. “You ok? You wanna go up?” He asks, gently grabbing your hand.

“I’m ok, just been a long day. Take care of your fans, baby.” You nod.

“Can you be needy for me for like 2 seconds?” He chuckles.

“Your job is your first love, you’ve been telling me that since day one.” Your eyes meet his. “I just accept it.” You shrug.

Luke gently grabs your chin and he taps your nose. “I’ll finish this quick.” He promises.

You are waiting another 5 minutes and the group had pretty much dissipated after seeing the moment the two of you shared in front of them. You were downstairs long enough for Cal and Kate to come in, except you and Luke were alone now, no fans. Luke was holding your bags and had you tucked right against his side.

“We dropped you off like 20 minutes ago.” Cal mentions, coming to stand next to you.

“There were pictures to take and autographs to sign. So you’re welcome.” Luke says, slightly annoyed.

“Sorry mate, took longer than I’d thought.” He says.

The four of you pile onto the elevator, there’s a lot of tension between Luke and Cal, but Luke decides to ignore it. “I feel like I’m losing more of you by the second.”

“Just gotta get in the room and put this stuff down. And probably lose some clothes and I’m good to go.” You look up at him, “not to mention, you know what to do anymore.” You wink at him.

The elevator stops and Luke pulls you along. You wish a quick goodnight to Cal and Kate, trying not to let Luke’s attitude with them affect you.

You immediately drop the one bag you’re carrying and Luke sets your other two bags next to his. He eyes you as you pull your t-shirt over your head and then set your sights on him. He raises an eyebrow at you and you cross the space. Luke prepares to catch you and does when you jump up on him. “Hi baby.” He grins.

“Hey handsome.” You grin back. “You made some big promises to me for tonight.” You remind him.

“And it looks like you’re committing to it.” He squeezes your ass.

“I’ve been committed to this... since you said you still wanted to be together this afternoon.” You flip your hair and go in for the kiss. Luke is super receptive and moves to press you against the wall.

“Let’s get you out of these pants then.” He whispers. He sets you down and his lips work at your neck as his fingers work to undo your jeans. You push his shirt up and he lets go of you long enough to pull it off. Luke’s lips work down your body as he pulls your jeans down, you’re hands grip in his hair as he drops to his knees and you step out of your jeans. Luke looks up at you and you down at him as he presses kisses into your thigh, you craved this kind of touch.

There’s a knock on the door and he groans, lips still pressing against your skin.

“Luke, mate.” You both hear Cal call through the door.

“You gotta be fuckin kidding me.” Luke groans again, pressing his face against your lower stomach as he holds you tight. He finally lets you go and stands up to answer the door but not without kissing you first. He watches as you head to the bed to cover yourself and smacks your ass before you’re out of reach. He goes to open the door, “this better be fuckin good Calum.”

“I need a condom.” He says.

“You’re fucking kidding me right? After everything, you’re coming to me and not Ash or Mike?” Luke asks, leading Cal into the room.

“I know. But Ash went out and Mike is like already asleep I think. Neither of them answered.” He defends. He sees you wrapped in the blankets and gives a small wave while Luke digs through his bag.

He pulls out a box and pops it open. “I only have one left and I’ll be fucking damned if I’m giving it to you right now.” He groans, looking over his shoulder at you.

“Please mate? I’ll replace it with 2 boxes tomorrow, she’s gonna be with us awhile, can’t you just pick it up later?” Cal whines.

“Baby just give him the condom.” You mention quietly.  Luke’s face immediately falls. “Baby, I can take care of you without a condom. We’re fine.” You assure.

“Whatever,” He hands the condom to Cal, “two boxes tomorrow and no fucking complaints from you regarding us.”

“Deal, thank you.” Cal smiles and leaves the room.

Luke comes and crawls on the bed, laying his head against your stomach and his body between your legs. He pouts, “can’t believe you gave away our condom.”

You giggle and Luke looks at you like he could kill you. You rub your hands over his shoulders, “I brought condoms babe. I knew the box you grabbed only had one left.” He looks up at you and you shake your head, “can’t believe you think I’d give away our condom without a backup plan. I mean there is definitely plenty we could do without one but…”

Luke pushes himself up and kisses you, “What bag are they in?” You point to your suitcase and he immediately gets in it and finds the condoms. He grabs a box and comes to sit on the bed. “So quick question. You said there was plenty we could do without a condom and I do agree with that, but let’s talk about something else real quick… consequences if we’d had sex without a condom?”

“I could end up pregnant.”

“Would it be the worst thing in the world to have a kid with me?” Luke asks, his eyes meeting yours.

“Right now? I don’t feel like right now is good timing. I want to finish school and I’d like for you to be able to be around and not on tour all the time… and what if… what if this isn’t it for us? and then we have to figure out how to work around each other to get a kid back and forth. And every time we look at that kid, well think of each other. I just…” Lukes giving you that look that says you aren’t answering what he asked. “No Luke, it wouldn’t be the worst thing.”

“I’m not saying I want a kid right now, I’m just saying that if it did happen, I understand there’s a commitment to you and the child and I understand that if we broke up that’s not the end of it, but I would be there for ya babe, you know that right? I wouldn’t just leave.”

“I’ve honestly never given it much thought, but it is good to hear you say that.” You shrug.

“Well, now that we’ve cleared that up, C’mere.” You immediately crawl out from underneath the blankets and into Luke’s lap. “There’s my girl.” He whispers before kissing you deeply.

The next morning as you’re all loading on the bus, everyone watches Ash send a girl off in an Uber and Cal hands a bag to Luke, presumably of the promised condoms.

It was a short week when the Seattle show came up. It was Kate’s last night on the tour and you were so excited to see your sister.

You and Kate were sat at brunch while the guys were off doing promo. Your sister had classes so you weren’t going to see her until she showed up for the show. Kate couldn’t stop gushing about Cal and how great the sex was, and you were about done with it, so it was good that it was the last night with her.

“So Cal mentioned you made Luke give up his last condom the other night…”

“Like let’s be clear, after the whole blow job with us in the car thing, I wouldn’t have agreed to it if I didn’t know I had more. I purposely packed some because I knew when Luke grabbed that box it only had one in it.” You laugh. “But Kate, y’all got so wild this week. Like I didn’t expect this from either of you.”

“I dunno, I really like Cal. I think… we’re gonna talk about it tonight, but I think we’re gonna be like… together.” She cocks an eyebrow, trying to gauge you.

“I think, that’d be good for you both… but I have to warn you, it’s tough and I know you, out of sight out of mind and he’s gonna be out of sight a lot.” You say quietly, hoping the quiet tone is less offensive.

She nods, acknowledging what you’ve said. “We both know we’ve got things to work on, but we wanna try for each other. Even knowing you and Luke struggle, we both think you guys make this whole thing look effortless.” She explains.

You let out a humorless laugh, “I’ve struggled more in this relationship than any other.”

“No, I know that. But you and Luke both come back at the end of the day and say that the other is worth it… isn’t that what people want? You want the person who you’re pissed at… but they are still worth it.”

“You know there are days that I’d walk 1000 miles for Luke if I had to, but you also know there are days I’d walk 1000 to push him off a cliff and that is intensified when you are together so little. I’m not trying to discourage you at all, Kate, I just want you to be realistic.”

“I know babe… just want your support. And when I have questions or I’m upset, I’d just like you to be there.”

“Of course, you’re my girl, we’ve been friends since we were kids. I’m not going to let you down now.” You shrug.

“How was brunch?” Luke asks when you meet them back at the venue.

“It was good! I’m so excited to see my sister tonight though. I think her and her friends will be here soon.” You say, checking your phone and noting that the day had really gotten away from you.

“I think we’ve got a few minutes at least… I know Kate’s leaving the tour today. And I know you waited to come out with her, would you be more comfortable leaving with her too?” He asks, grabbing your hand and looking you over.

“You’ve got a few days off coming up and I’d like to spend them with you and not her.” You mention. “Like at all.” You laugh.

Luke grins wide and laughs, “I’m just making sure, baby.” He stops the two of you and presses you against the wall, placing one arm to the side of your head against the wall and the other on your hip. It was meant to be a brief kiss, but Luke couldn’t help himself, he pulled you closer, sliding his hand from your hip to your ass. His other hand comes off the wall and holds the back of your head. You’re not sure how long it lasts because these moments never seem long enough for you.

“Hey, get a… ya know what?  Nevermind at least it’s not Calum and Kate.” Ash says walking by.  “but question, who’s that group of girls? They told security you put em on the list.”

Luke pulls out of the kiss and presses his forehead to yours, savoring the moment. He finally turns his attention towards Ash, “what?”

“Those three girls,” He points, “said they were with you, who are they?” Ash asks again. “That little one is hot.”

You both look, Luke smirks, “good luck with that one.”

“Why?” He asks.

“That’s my sister Ash… HANDS OFF.” You say,

“Hey, I’ll keep my hands off her, but I can’t promise she’ll keep her hands off me.” He grins, and then winks as he turns to go introduce himself.

“She has a father she loves and respects…” you mention.

“Doesn’t mean she doesn’t wanna call someone ‘Daddy.” He immediately leaves after smirking at you.

You turn to Luke, “I’ll actually kill him, you’ll have to find a new drummer.”

“He’s messing with you.” Luke laughs.

“I’m not messing with either of you right now.” You assure. You pull away from Luke and follow behind Ash to facilitate the meeting.

Your sister and her friends hold it together very well, but knowing your sister, you knew she was freaking out inside when she got to meet Cal, Ash and Michael.

“Umm… I can’t believe I get to watch the show from side stage!” She squeals when you’re left in the green room with her friends and Kate. “How did you pull this off?” She asks.

“I had no hand in this other than Luke borrowing my phone to call you.” You shrug.

“You never told me how hot Ash was in person…”

“That’s a big no. You cannot hook up with Ash. Don’t even look at him…” you warn, you follow it up with a light laugh, but you definitely meant it.

“Ok but if he takes his shirt off tonight I’m not promising anything.” She laughs.

“I feel like I don’t know you anymore… you go off to college, you loved Luke and now you’re here talking about Ashton…”

“He’s just… such a man… and I’m not gonna sit here and pine over Luke! I’m all in on the two of you.” She wraps her arms around you. “I mean Ash and the chest hair and the dimples and…”

“That’s really enough.”

Kate laughs, “you should ask her his kinks. That’s a fun conversation.” She says to your sister.

“I don’t know why you think I sit around and ask the guys about what they like in the bedroom, Kate.” You throw a side glance her way, hinting at a conversation she’d tried to have with you earlier in the week.

Your sister rolls her eyes at Kate, “everyone knows Ashton has a daddy kink… and I’d call him Daddy.”

“I’m leaving… I never heard this.” You declare, getting up and walking out, listening to all the girls giggle.

“Hey!” Luke’s big smile and bright eyes almost immediately greet you.

“Hey handsome. What are are you doing out here?” You ask, fitting yourself right against him.

“I was actually coming to see you, I just felt like I couldn’t go on stage without saying I love you.”

“Ehh who’s the lucky lady tonight? Ashton? Because my sister just said she’d call him daddy.”

Luke lets out a loud laugh, “oh no… he’s gonna love that… but I thought I’d tell you I love you tonight.”

“I love you too luke.” You grin.

“Hey… so I was thinking, for that week off in a week and a half, what if we took a little trip? Any place you wanna go?”

“Yeah, babe, I thought you’d wanna go home and see Ms. P.” You mention.

“Yeah, but it’s just three weeks after that and I need the time with you, away from everything.”