#psilocybae

A bit dizzy

I’m writing this from the 3rd because I was out of sorts yesterday, in a way I hadn’t been before.

Went to uni and had what felt like the longest lecture EVER, even tho it was a half day. There was a whole hour where a librarian taught us how to read a book :(

I was so bored I was messing with my scarf, started plaiting it, tying it up, rolling it up. After lecture was over the person who sat next me said she was impressed watching me do it. That made me happy. A friend gave me so psilocybin mushrooms she found, bit apprehensive about it, but I think as long as I don’t take them while anxious I’ll be okay.

Had a very clumsy lunch where I was tripping over myself and dropping my cane and kicking stuff by accident, really strange. I also ordered my food so weirdly, I couldn’t speak right.

Had a little meeting with my tutor where I told her about my multiple personalities, I’m glad I did but it made me feel so weird after. I guess the point of DID is to protect the brain and therefore I’m not supposed to know about it or tell people, but I did, for the better of my work. She’s gonna get a note taker for lectures for me :) I hate how mental health has you being emotionally vulnerable in professional settings :(

After that I spent a whole 2 hours trying and failing to print stuff, felt like I personally killed a tree, that’s like a whole £25 gone, absorbed by the printer.

When I finally got back, I felt so weird and dizzy. Like that feeling you get after standing up to quick, but it was constant and didn’t go away. I couldn’t type right, I kept walking into things. I wasn’t hungry or thirsty or low on sugar, and I know what a migraine feels like. I googled my symptoms and it told me I had a mini stroke so that’s awesome. She stroke my 🧠 still I get dizzy.

Beef stroganoff

Anyway

That lasted alllll day, I can still kinda feel it now.

Started sewing a thing with some scrap material and the patterns I printed.

I can’t remember much more.

Not a great day but also I’ve had much much worse, the feelings weren’t great but I had a really good dinner that night. I wrapped my wrap perfectly wrap shaped, it was great.

4/10, would rather not do any of that again. Thanks.