tumblr has been soured for me so it's sad that this fandom is what it is <3 the beginning of my year was rough, i lost a family member, i was going through some stuff and had a friend on here who i loved who hurt me and had decided to become friends with someone who had abused a mutual friend which brought up a lot of things for me.
safe to say, abuse is sinister and creeps into different parts of your life and after going through it, you will never be the same. when i was abused a few years ago, and i had friends who remained friends with my abuser i was sick. even with all the evidence, everything this person admitted to doing, there was like two people who decided to remain friends and therefore became unsafe to me. at the end of it, anyone who is an abuser to anyone i cannot and will not associate with anymore. to be friends and at one point romantically involved with someone who would do that makes me feel gross and weird for a number of reasons i can't get into mow.
more than that, the vitriol i had received around that time, the things going on and the weird web between writers really made the whole experience weird. there were a lot of times i was wrong and should not have gotten involved or even engaged seeing as at the end of it, it really had nothing to do with me. but i will always stick my neck out for anyone i feel is being mistreated in anyway.
there were so many weird things going on at the time, and this is just an overall message. please be cautious on the internet, if you are a writer, stick to writing. not everyone has to be your friend, you don't have to be involved wirh everyone. create your art, let people admire that art and be aware of who is around you and what they are saying.
my life is different as of now, i have a lot going on and can't write which is a blessing and a curse.
my writing will stay up, i dont know if i will ever return fully as coming on here is triggering a bit to me, but if i do, know that it comes from a different place.
