These are the medications I have tried and my review of them.

Imipramine Effective antidepressant with no bad side effects (Tricyclic antidepressant)

Prothiaden  Effective antidepressant. Sedating at night but this wears off by the morning and is a good drug (Tricyclic )

Venlafaxine  Worked to begin with but after 16 years I have had enough of it. Very hard to withdraw from (SNRI) Currently still taking

Citalopram  Cannot remember much about this one (SSRI)

Lamotrigine  Very effective for bipolar depression but not so much for hypomania. Exacerbated my tic disorder greatly (anticonvulsant used as mood stabiliser). Currently still taking

Depakote  Caused BIG weight gain (anticonvulsant)

Carbamazepine  Cannot remember much about this one (anticonvulsant)

Quetiapine  Just starting out on this one so will report back later (anti psychotic but also used for bipolar depression)

The things I used to be on: - in the morning: Sertraline (antidepressant), Welbutrine (antidepressant) - at lunch: iron supplements - at dinner: Solian (antipsychotic) - at night: Clozapine (antipsychotic) - pnr medication was Seroquel (antipsychotic)

I was good with these meds. Yeah, I was actively suicidal and self harming but my depression and my anxiety got so much more manageable. Now I OD’d again and the doctor decided to complete change all my medication. All of it.

What I’m on now: - in the morning: Tranxene (benzodiapine), Fluvoxamine (antidepressant) - at lunch: iron supplements, Tranxene - at dinner: Solian, Tranxene - at night: Tranxene, Dosulepin (antidepressant) - pnr medication is Seroquel or Tranxene 

I don’t like it. I don’t want to take benzos. I’ve never ever ever wanted to take them. They’re highly addicting and they make your head all fuzzy. And now I have to take them four times a day. I can’t believe I’m back to taking 9/10 pills a day. Also, I was good on my previous medication! Yeah so I tried to kill myself but who cares, I felt a lot less depressed and my anxiety only popped up like once a week. Now it’s all gone to shit again. I’m tired all the time, my blood pressure is too low, I keep falling over and my head feels like it’s clogged with cotton balls.