hi! iâm looking for a fic in which tony and pepper think peter has been injured/killed because the news report an accident with a 15 year old that has matching features and peter isnât answering the phone. meanwhile it turns out that peter lost his phone because a pigeon attacked him or something like that.
here you go! Enjoy!
Alive and Healing by Watermeloness
â...bank robbery gone wrong in Queens. Weâre receiving live footage from the crime site, where a 15 year-old teenager has been severely injured. Witnesses report a young boy getting shot after trying to stop the perpetrators. The last weâve heard, his state is critical and heâs being rushed toâŚâ
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Statistically there are a lot of 15 year-old teenagers in Queens. The city is filled with 15 year-old teenagers that are all brave in their own ways. This doesnât have to be their teenager.
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But Peter is not picking up his phone.
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Author:Â fallenstar88
Rating:Â PGÂ
Word Count: 747
Genre(s): drama
Film-specific:Â post-avengers infinity war
Tropes: Pregnancy, Morgan Stark, Protective!Pepper
Summary:Â Pepper has some happy news for Tony in all the chaos caused by the snap.
Characters: Tony Stark, Pepper Potts, Steve Rogers, Bruce Banner, Clint Barton, Natasha Romanov
Summary
Omega Tony is freaked out. Alpha Pepper is homicidal. Alpha Steve doesn't understand the fuss. To quote Bruce, "Who else can put two and two together?â
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Tagging: @tokky231, @catonmylapbutineedtopee
Fandom: Marvel, Avengers
Characters: Tony Stark/Steve Rogers, James Rhodes, Pepper Potts, Bruce Barton, Steve Rogers
Chapters: 4/?, Words: 25.469
Summary:
Tony meets his soulmate under the worst possible circumstances. It is not just a kidnapping gone wrong. It turns out Steve and his gang picked him on purpose and they want some personal revenge. If only he had managed to say the words written on his soulmate's arm before they threw him back out into the streets.
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âSir,â JARVIS speaks up just when Tony has decided that another hour of sleep might do him some good. Better, in any case, than rushing into his problems head on. âMr. Stane has called several times now while you were otherwise occupied.â
Despite not wanting to talk to anyone else for the moment, Tonyâs first instinct is to call back immediately. Then he pauses, though, and thinks first.
It is not that Tony does not trust Obadiah. If he told him about Steveâs claim that someone is selling their weapons to the enemy, he has no doubt that the matter would be dealt with quietly and efficiently. Obadiah has fixed enough of Tonyâs mistakes to leave any doubt about that.
This is personal, though. Stark Industries is Tonyâs company, if mostly in name only, but this is about his weapons, his designs. Therefore, it is his responsibility to clean this up. A small part of him also wants to know who sold him out and ask them why. Tony is not a good person, not by far. He is callous and careless and quick to replace one disaster with another. He is sure Pepper could add a lot more unpleasant adjectives, he is well aware of his failings. Â
Also, and that is much harder to admit, he does not want Obadiah to think bad about him for this. Over the years, Tony has caused a number of scandals, leaving everyone scrambling to clean up after him, but this might just take the cake. Beat up by his soulmate and his friends on top of finding out that Tony does not have his own company under control enough to avoid his weapons ending up in the wrong hands. Â
It always feels like he is constantly balancing on the edge of disapproval with Obadiah. They are family, and not just in terms of Obadiah being Tonyâs godfather. Obadiah has always been a part of Tonyâs life, has always been his ally, offering encouraging words or sneaking him materials to build things that Howard had disapproved of. Without Obadiahâs presence, Stark Industries might have just fallen to ruins after Howard and Mariaâs death. Even now, Tony is not sure he could keep the company afloat on his own. He has always kept out of the business end as much as possible.
Before Obadiah had been Tonyâs godfather, though, he was Howardâs friend. At some point, Obadiah might realize that Howard was right about Tony after all. That he is lazy and stupid and the worst kind of Stark. Every mistake Tony makes, every stupid question he asks, every project he does not finish on time because his mind got stuck on other things might be the one that puts an end to Obadiahâs patience with him.
Tony does not have enough people in his life who he trusts, so he cannot risk upsetting Obadiah with this. He will deal with it. It is certainly time he learns how to.
âWrite him a message,â Tony tells JARVIS, âsay that I had an idea and didnât get out of the workshop all day.â
On most days, that would be the truth, so Tony does not fear that Obadiah will see through the lie.
âIf he calls again, send him through to Pepper.â
Pepper does not know yet what happened, but she is well versed in running interference for him. She will feed Obadiah some story that will give Tony some time to come up with one of his own.
It must have been something business-related anyway for Obadiah does not usually call to inquire about Tonyâs well-being. That is not a bad thing either. Tony knows Obadiah will be there for him when it matters, he always has been before. For now, it is better not to make him worry.
Once he has talked this through with Rhodey and Pepper, he will know whether he needs to bother his godfather with this. Until then, he will manage on his own.
When Pepper comes in, ten minutes after seven, she clings to a bottle of wine as if she instinctively knew she would need alcohol for this conversation. Tony studies her closely, almost involuntarily on guard. She knew about the USB drive. She is involved in everything at Stark Industries, has the highest security clearance, and is probably better at signing Tonyâs name than he is himself. He has to see her reaction, has to be as sure as he can be â without outright accusing her of anything â that she had nothing to do with selling him out.
Tony does not believe Pepper would betray him, but he has trusted the wrong people before.
Once Pepper sees him, her eyes widen and her mouth opens for a gasp. Only years of training help her keep her composure enough to not let the bottle fall. Tony sees her hand twitch nonetheless.
Air floods into his lungs as he sighs in relief. There is no way of being certain, but Pepper looks like she is feeling every visible bruise of his herself. The worry in her eyes is not faked, and neither is the fury rising in them only moments later. He cannot afford to distrust her beyond that.
âWhat happened?â she asks with more venom than Rhodey had but with as much conviction to do something about it.
âWe have a mole,â Tony says simply.
He has hoped that would draw her attention, to keep both her and Rhodey from focusing on the blaringly obvious wreck that is his face. He needs them to make sense of this for him.
Pepper opens her mouth and Tony is almost ready for the barrage of questions, but then she closes it again. With determined steps, she walks to the couch, sets the bottle down on the glass table heard enough that Tony half expects it to leave a crack, then sits down beside him and takes his face into her hands.
She turns his face to the light, studies the motley pattern of bruises and swelling. Gentler than her expression promises, she lifts the lid of his left eye to get a better look at it underneath the bruise.
Her gaze is burning in its intensity when she lets her hands drop. âWhat happened?â she then asks again in that tone of voice that regularly has the board of directors cowering before her.
She looks at Rhodey, who is sitting opposite them, arms spread out over the back of the couch, even though that does not hide the tension in his body. It will be easier to get answers from him than from Tony himself â which is part of the reason Tony has not told Rhodey anything substantial yet, insisting to wait until Pepperâs arrival. Going through it once will be hard enough, and he needs to keep this under his control as much as he can.
âTony got himself kidnapped,â Rhodey says, aiming for a dry tone but is unable to hide the angry tremor in his voice.
Ever since Rhodey arrived half an hour earlier, he has been glaring, looking Tony over for every twinge of pain he is not sharing, and demanding answers. It has been near impossible to keep him from storming off to look for the people who did this to Tony.
âBy whom?â Pepper asks, voice icy. It is a tone that is impossible to ignore. Â
Rhodey shrugs. The motions is distinctly dangerous. âHe doesnât want to tell.â
âThen you must not have asked often enough.â
They are in their own little world right now, intent on solving another problem labelled Tony. When Tony first introduced them, he had been anxious whether they would get along, these two most important people in his life. These days, they team up against him far too often for comfort.
âI was getting there,â Rhodey says, and his impatience is not directed at Pepper. âYou know how he is.â
âHe is right here.â Tony should have kept his mouth shut, because as soon as the words are out, both his friendsâ attention is on him. They are wearing twin-unamused expressions of impatient concern. It is nice to have them looking out for him, but right now, he needs them to concentrate on the bigger picture.
âWhy?â Pepper demands. One word is enough to convey she will not let this go, not until Tony has given her a satisfactory answer.
Tony stares at the bottle Pepper brought, at his own glass on the table, still containing about an inch of whiskey. He could reach for any of those, offer his friends a drink, stall for time. If he does not stark talking now, though, he might just never manage to.
âThey wanted information about my personal projects. My USB drive?â Again, Tony looks closely at Pepper, gauging her reaction. When she nods, impatiently but without guilt, he continues. âSomeone hired them to get it for them.â
Steve and his gang have not yet tried to open the files on it â JARVIS would have gotten a signal and alerted him. Tony is afraid that means they will not look at it at all. Almost a whole day has passed since they got the drive. If only they put it in a computer, Tony would know where they are, JARVIS could integrate himself into their system without them ever being the wiser.
It is also entirely possible, that they are going to hand it over to the buyer without ever touching it themselves at all. From a strategic point of view, that would be the better way, since it would lead Tony straight to the person who sold them out.
He wants that connection to Steve, though. He tells himself that is only because he wants to keep an eye on them, to make sure he will know beforehand if they come after him again. There is no denying the sheer demand in the throbbing of the soul bond, though. Perhaps Tony is just too weak to try.
âAnd you couldnât just hand it over,â Rhodey says with the kind of accusation that was borne from years of trying to keep Tony safe from himself, âso they beat you up over it.â
The easiest thing would be to say yes. Tony hesitates too long for it to still be believable, though. Immediately, Pepper narrows her eyes at him.
âThey took it first thing. That wasnât the issue.â Tony grimaces, remembering how he thought the kidnapping was the most civil one he ever had. Thoughts like this just have to be punished. âItâs just that they have a personal grudge against ââ He shrugs, swallows against the tightness of his throat. âWell, itâs complicated.â
This was a bad idea. He should have done what he always does and hidden away in the workshop until the bruises are faded and took care of this himself. It would have been much easier to not say anything than to fumble through an explanation, especially since he knows he will not be able to satisfy his friends. They will look right through him, and then all the things he wants to keep secret will come out anyway.
For once, he wanted to do the responsible thing and get help, if only because it will be easier like this to deal with the lost weapons. It was stupid to believe they could keep the personal part of the problem out of it.
âYouâre obviously deflecting so we donât have the whole story, but I donât see what could be complicated about this,â Pepper says, steel in her voice. She shifts her position so she sits farther away from him to make her glare more effective. âSomeone kidnapped you, stole your private data, and beat you up. Have you already informed the police?â
âNo,â Tony exclaims hastily, the same kneejerk reaction he gave JARVIS. âAnd weâre not going to.â
Thoroughly unimpressed glances bear into him from both Rhodey and Pepper. Tony feels like withering under it. The disapproval of one of them is hard to shoulder. Both of them at the same time leave him no room to wiggle free.
âPray tell,â Pepper drawls, ferocious in her worry, âwhy are we not doing that?â
Tony takes a deep breath and ignores the pain in his ribs. âBecause,â he says slowly, silently begging them to listen, âwe have bigger problems.â
They do not listen.
âBigger than someone beating you up?â Pepper asks, staring at the visible bruises before her eyes wander down, attempting to look through his clothes to see the rest of the damage. âHave you been to the hospital?â
Not once in his life has Tony gone willingly to a hospital. They all know that. âJARVIS checked me,â Tony says, making a show of shrugging as if the motion does not hurt. âIâm all right.â
Not taking her eyes off him, Pepper says, âJARVIS?â
The AI answers before Tony can protest. He has probably waited for his cue. âSir has several broken ribs, a mild concussion ââ
Rhodey sits up abruptly, his tension growing tenfold. âYou told me you donât have a concussion,â he calls, cutting JARVIS off. âYouâve been running around all day. You should rest. No screens, no excitement.â
Tony knows how to deal with a concussion. He also knows how to ignore the symptoms. So what if his head starts hurting easier than usual? So what if his vision swims? That is what painkillers and speech output systems are for.
âIâve slept,â Tony says with all the petulance of someone tired of getting reprimanded for the way he takes care of himself.
âSir has indeed had a nap for one hour and twenty-seven minutes,â JARVIS speaks up. His tone is too pleased to hide that he let Tony look bad on purpose. They really have to talk about what that whole Protect Anthony E. Stark thing means again.
âThatâs like a whole nightâs sleep for me,â Tony adds, although there is no saving this blunder.
âWeâre not in the mood for jokes,â Rhodey snaps, glaring but not surprised. âJARVIS, get me everything you know about this. Where Tony was kidnapped, who was in the vicinity when it happened, where he turned up again. Weâre going to find these bastards.â
Before JARVIS can make things worse by volunteering all his data on the Avengers, Tony says, âWe donât. You donât.â There is enough authority in his tone that Rhodey, begrudgingly, turns to him, not insisting on his order. âLook, Iâll handle them,â Tony continues, sounding weary. He has to fight the urge to scratch his itching arm. âI didnât call you here for that.â
With carefully constructed calm, Rhodey asks, âWhat could be more important than that?â
He shares a look with Pepper, and Tony knows they will not be getting anywhere if he lets them continue this line of questioning. His bruises will fade. He will not do anything about Steve and his gang for now as long as they leave him alone. He will not advertise the fact that he has found his soulmate.
âWe have a mole,â Tony repeats his earlier words as firmly as he can manage.
âWhat does that even mean?â Pepper asks in a high voice, looking ready to throw her hands in the air to show her frustration at how little sense he is making. âWeâre not a spy organization, weâre a normal company. Is someone doing inside dealing?â
Now they are getting somewhere, although Pepper does not sound half as concerned about that as she should be.
âSomeoneâs selling my weapons under the table,â Tony says into the expectant silence. The words weigh heavy on his tongue. âTo the enemy. To terrorists. To anyone willing to buy. They turn up where they shouldnât be and people die.â He exhales slowly, watching his friendsâ faces for the same urgent need to fix this as he feels. âSomeoneâs doing that and we need to find them.â
The first thing Tony notices is the doubt. It might be the way he looks or the fact that they now know he has a concussion or simply that he has just returned home after having been kidnapped. It is not that they do not believe him, but they obviously think there are more important things to deal with.
It makes Tony irrationally angry with them. He is tired and in pain and constantly battling a stream of emotions from the soul bond that he did not ask for. All he wants is for his friends to believe him so that they can do something against this. He does not need to be kept safe right now, he needs to fight.
âHow do you know that?â Pepper asks, looking like she has ten arguments ready why this cannot be true.
She does know more about Stark Industriesâ inner workings, that is why Tony needs her help. Her constant scepticism, on the other hand, is mostly a hindrance right now. Of course, Tony wants this to be false information. If they go digging and do not find anything, he will be more than happy with that. The do need to look, though.
âThe guys who took me told me,â Tony replies. He knows how that sounds. Telling them that the gang leader is his soulmate will not make them trust his word any more â and push them even farther off topic.
âOf course,â Rhodey snaps. He sounds decidedly done with this. âBecause kidnappers are a reliable source of information.â
âThe leader said ââ Tony tries to argue, but does not get any farther.
âBefore or after he beat you into a pulp?â
Tension fills the air like static, crackling, ready to detonate at the tiniest spark. Rhodey is trembling with a mixture of anger and worry and the need to find this gang to teach them to never touch Tony again. Tony has seen all of that on his face before, several times even over their friendship. Pepper, too, looks ready to snap. She is pale but her posture is flawless, her back straight to the point where it looks ready to break.
All of that because of Tony, because of some bruises, because someone always has it out for him. A part of him wishes he could give in to them, could allow them to wrap him up in a blanket and hide him away until the world is safe for him. He could give them Steveâs name and watch from afar while they take care of it. No matter how good the Avengers are, they are no match for Colonel Rhodes and Virginia Potts on a mission.
It would feel good even. Probably. He would not have to worry anymore about what to do with Steve, with this bond he does not want. At the same time, though, it would be cheap, heaping the responsibility for this on his friends. He does not want to drag them into another personal drama of his.
âListen,â Tony says. It should not be this hard to keep his voice calm. âI donât like this situation either. Youâre right. Anyone could have ordered that hit and the information could be false, but now that I have it, I canât not act on it.â
Tony feels breathless, more so when he sees that Rhodey and Pepper are still hesitating. With a desperation that he hopes does not show, he reaches for his glass and drains it in one go. Feeling restless, he jumps to his feet and walks over to the liquor cabinet where he remains standing, his back to his friends. That gives him the chance to collect himself, although he feels their stares on him, hears their silent conversation.
âI believe that you believe this,â Pepper says slowly, cautiously as if anything could soften the blow of them questioning him still when they could already be acting, âbut you hit your head ââ
âYes,â Tony whirls around, alit with frustration, âI hit my head. Repeatedly. Against two guysâ feet. Because they have been out there fighting against terrorists with my weapons.â He forces himself to make a pause, to calm himself. âI donât like them, and I donât trust them, but I believe them when they say that someoneâs putting my weapons where they donât belong, and that someone told them that was my doing.â
At least that gets their attention in a not completely doubtful way.
âWhen did they have time telling you that?â Rhodey asks, still hung up on Tonyâs wounds,
Tony closes his eyes, briefly. He remembers the shift on Steveâs face from disgusted to incredulous to concerned, remembers his own dislike decreasing paradoxically every time they looked at each other afterwards, with every touch they shared that did not hurt.
âThe leader made sure I did not actually die, because thatâs apparently not something theyâre doing,â Tony says, his tone as neutral as he can manage. âWe had a little chat. He didnât want me thinking they werenât justified in what they did.â
Bitterness coats his tongue, but he swallows it. This is not the time to think about Steve. Â
âAnd now youâre all chummy?â Rhodey raises his eyebrows, staring at Tony in the way that makes it clear he knows Tony is hiding something. âHe believes you didnât do it, and you believe theyâre not coming after you again?â
Put like that, it really does not make sense. Tony cannot explain it to them, though, cannot open himself up to that misery. âThey are passionate enough about this to look for proof before they do anything further.â
âHow did you get out?â
Everything in Tony wants to turn around, grab a bottle, and just vanish. Perhaps it was naĂŻve of him to think this would be easier, that they would not ask questions. He keeps his eyes steadily on Rhodey, not even blinking.
âThat sounds suspiciously like youâre thinking Iâm working with them,â he says, harsher than intended. It does not bring him any satisfaction when Rhodey winces. âThis wasnât my first kidnapping. They beat me up and threw me out. Their job was the USB drive. The punching was just a little extra.â
Where Rhodey looks ready to back down, Pepper is not yet done. âWhy wonât you let the police deal with them?â she asks, easily sprinkling more salt into his wounds.
âBecause theyâre looking into the weapon deals from their end.â That answer will not satisfy her. It would not satisfy him if their roles were reversed, but he is done with this. âNow, could you please stop the interrogation? I asked you here to help. Youâre not helping.â
To give them credit, they look ashamed. That does not mean they are giving up or that they are done worrying about him, but perhaps they can finally get to the business at hand.
She pats the couch next to her to get him to come back, to sit down. Both of them must see the way Tony is leaning against the cabinet to take some of the weight of his legs. The nap earlier had helped but he still feels the aftershocks of the kidnapping in every movement. Stubbornly, Tony remains where he is.
âGood,â he says with the kind of authority he seldom uses on them. âThen let me handle the kidnappers and concentrate on finding out whoâs selling my weapons.â
Pepper nods, although it looks like she is biting her cheek to keep herself from saying something.
Leaning forward, Rhodey studies Tony. âAre you really all right?â
A smile spreads on Tonyâs lips, holding no humour, tugging at the bruises. âOf course not,â he replies dryly. âBut I will be. I always am.â
Rhodey and Pepper share a look and are not even subtle about it. There is no mistaking their worry, and Tony knows he can trust them. He just needs them to trust him on this too. This is not the time to rest. He can do that afterwards, when this matter is dealt with. And he will get there much faster with their help.
âOf course weâre going to help,â Rhodey says. For a moment, Tony is afraid he has said all of his thoughts out loud. His head is hurting and the concussion might be more noticeable than he told them. âWhat do you need us to do?â
Tony exhales in relief. This is not over. By showing them that he is hurt, he has doomed himself to constant questions about his well-being, but he could not delay this any longer nor is this a topic that could be talked about on the phone.
âThere has to be evidence. A paper trail, communication.â Tony trails off, thinking.
If his weapons are truly spread through the wrong hands, there are a thousand possible perpetrators. It could be someone at Stark Industries, although it would have to be someone high-ranked enough to tamper with the books without it being too obvious. Otherwise, the profits would hardly be worth the risks.
It could also be one of the buyers, which really only leaves someone in the military, and that is a hornetâs nest he does not want to poke unprepared.
The people who could have reasonably ordered the hit on Tony are even more numerous. Business opponents, women he has spurned, fired contractors, former employees. If Tony is good at something, it is at making enemies.
Stark Industries is the sensible place to start. That is where the most damage can be done, both to their future business opportunities and to himself. It is also a matter of pride.
âPep, I need you to dig into accounting to look for irregularities. Iâve had JARVIS going through anything he can without uploading him to SIâs servers.â Pointing at his face, Tony adds, "I canât go in to work looking like I do, but Iâll give you something to make it easier to get to the sensitive data. Itâs a ââ Tony interrupts himself. Pepper does not need to know about the technicalities, the algorithm. She just needs to put the USB drive into a computer at Stark Industries. âItâll help me get in.â
He waits for her nod, then turns to Rhodey âYouâre my ears within the military. We need to know where my weapons wind up. Maybe someoneâs just selling them on. I donât ââ
Tony shrugs. A thousand different starting points and possible solutions race through his head, but he does not know which step to take first. He is so tired but there is no rest in sight.
âWeâll take care of it,â Pepper says, as resolute as he had hoped for her to be from the very beginning. Once she sees Tony bearing up to protests, she amends, âWeâll take care of our end.â
Rhodey nods his head in affirmation. âShow us what youâve got already.â
This time, when Pepper beckons him back to the couch, he goes to her, glad to sink back into the cushions. Nothing is solved yet, nothing makes sense, but with his two friends at his side, he has come so much closer to it already.
For the rest of the night, they strategize, speculate, and if they try to send him off to bed several times or to keep him from looking at a screen to long, Tony can live with that. It is good, even, to let them take some of the control.
They never get around to drinking that bottle of wine after all.
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Pepper leaves at some point, citing the need to get some sleep if she is to go to Stark Industries in the morning without raising suspicion. She has a reputation to uphold of being constantly perfect, unflappable. Pepper Potts is never too tired or too distracted to do her job and to do it well.
Rhodey stays, though. It will be only for one night and that is too much of an unauthorized leave already, but Tony does not have it in him to send his best friend away tonight. He is in need of comfort, even if he does not outright say it. Rhodey understands him well enough without words, and he does not need to know the exact reason.
They stay on the couch, cuddled up together like they have done a thousand times before. Tony does not say anything when Rhodey pushes the wine bottle out of his reach. The one glass of whiskey he had sits heavily inside his stomach already. Getting drunk might have been his universal response to any problem at one point, but his head feels messed up already without adding alcohol into the mix. If Rhodey thinks that means Tony is slowly learning something like common sense, Tony does not correct him.
Tony pulls a blanket up around them as he settles more comfortably against Rhodey, using Rhodeyâs breathing as a template for his own. He is calmer now, having lifted a huge part of the weight off his chest. His arm is itching, but he has taken care all evening to not reach for it to not tip off his friends about it.
He knows that Rhodey has not yet met his soulmate, and he supposes Pepper has not either, although they have never specifically talked about it. If not for the complicated mess surrounding the whole matter, Tony would have told them. He would have never even hesitated. They are family, the people he trusts most in the world.
âAre you all right?â Rhodey asks, disrupting the comfortable silence with more concern.
âAsked and answered, platypus,â Tony replies briskly, closing his eyes as if Rhodey would believe him if he pretended to fall asleep. âItâs time to move on.â
A silent chuckle reverberates through Rhodeyâs body. âThat was several hours ago,â he argues, âwhen we had a problem to solve.â
Tonyâs answer to that will never change. He is fine, and if he is not he will act like it until the situation has either blown over or he has fixed things. With this, of course, only one of these is an actual option.
âWe havenât solved anything,â Tony says, attempting to change the topic, no matter that he would prefer to not talk anymore at all.
âI know. But weâre getting there,â Rhodey says, sounding like he is rolling his eyes, but Tony is too tired to lift his head and look. âSo, how are you really doing?â
Of course, Rhodey would not let himself be distracted this easily. Tony is silent for a long moment, burrowing his face closer into Rhodeyâs warmth. He is not going to lie, Rhodey would see through him anyway. The question is just how much of the truth he is going to offer. Â
âIâm tired and in pain and not as angry as I should be,â he finally says, quiet and disheartened, perhaps too honest.
Rhodey raises his arm and puts it around Tony to hold him closer. Inside his own mind, Tony can admit that he missed this, intimacy without any demands. There is no price to pay for Rhodeyâs closeness other than opening himself up enough to accept it.
âYouâll get there,â Rhodey says, not a trace of doubt in his voice. âIâll give you until tomorrow morning to snap out of feeling betrayed right into doing something about it.â
Part of Tony fears that moment. He can never be sure he will make the right decisions.
âI thought we were already doing something,â he answers somewhat flippant, then softens. âBut I hope youâre right. It feels wrong to be so passive about this.â
âAs long as Iâve known you, youâve never been passive,â Rhodey says, clicking his tongue. âSometimes, your brain is pulling you into too many directions at once, but Iâve never seen you pass by a problem or a wrong without doing something about it.â
It is nice to have someone believing in him, even though Tony obviously does not deserve that kind of trust. If he did, he would not have been so blind, he would not have a soulmate who hates what he is, what he stands for
âSo that is how my weapons are ending up in terroristsâ hands. Because I always fix whatâs wrong.â Tonyâs voice is sharp, but he only cuts himself with it. He has practice doing that.
Rhodey sits up a bit straighter, looking down at Tony even when Tony avoids his eyes. âYou didnât know,â he intones firmly, leaving no room for discussion. âAnd now that you do, you are immediately acting to make up for it.â
Glancing up, Tony is overwhelmed by the sheer conviction in his best friendâs eyes. âI should have known,â he says nonetheless, not allowing his guilt to be taken from him so easily.
âNo sense in dwelling on thatâ Rhodey insists, unwilling to move even one bit. âWeâll make it right.â
It would be easy to give into the ease with which Rhodey promises something that is not actually in his control to offer. Tony will still wake up tomorrow, and none of his problems will have gotten any smaller. On the contrary, time and distance do not seem to make the heaviness in his arm go away, nor the nonsensical longing. Â Over the course of this day, it had periodically risen and fallen, even. There is no ignoring the fact that Steve and he are now connected. Â
âCan we?â Tony asks, concentrating back on the topic at hand. âI mean, so much bad stuff has happened because of this. People are dead or hurt, the fighting never comes to an end.â
For all that it is a big part of Tonyâs life, war has always been an abstract thing, captured in statistics and equations, not in actual human lives. Tony is familiar with the recoil of a gun, but not with the force of impact in a body. He knows about the blast radius of bombs but not about the wreckage they leave behind. His best friend is part of the military, but he has never allowed himself to think about Rhodey not coming home.
âThey arenât fighting because they have your weapons,â Rhodey argues with a ferocity that soothes Tony a bit. Not enough to keep him from loading more blame onto his plate, but it is a beginning.
âBut they do it so much more effectively with them,â Tony replies, self-loathing dripping from his tongue.
He has had so many ideas not involving weapons. He should have ignored his board of directors, should have ignored Obadiah even, and done something good for the world for once. How hard could it be? They are afraid of losing money, but not all profit has to be paid for in blood. Â
âTones ââ Rhodey says slowly, gearing up for another argument.
âI know, I know,â Tony cuts him off quickly. He even manages to paste a smile on his face. âMoving on.â
In response, Rhodey holds him tighter for a minute, another promise of safety that could not possibly be upheld. It almost seems like this is it, that Rhodey will let it go now. Then, however, with grating nonchalance, Rhodey asks, âWhy are you protecting the kidnappers?â
âWhat? I donât â why would I?â
Rhodey knows him too well. Tony could bury him under a never-ending flood of arguments, all of them solid and logical, and Rhodey would still zero in on the fact that Tony is hiding something.
âThen why donât you tell me their names,â Rhodey continues casually, as if he does not care for the answer either way. âIâm sure JARVIS has found something out already.â
The knowledge of all the information about the Avengers is weighing heavily on Tony. He sends a silent plea to his AI to not mess this up by unwanted autonomy for once. Miraculously, JARVIS remains silent.
âI canât,â Tony then says as firmly as he can. He almost wants to disentangle from Rhodey but does not, knowing it would seem too defensive. âI â I know one of them.â
It is not even a complete lie. Bruce, as it turns out, is the one and only Dr. Bruce Banner. Tony has read all of his papers, has gushed over them really. It had been a hard hit for the scientific community when Bruce disappeared several years ago, running from a military contract he had apparently taken offense to. Colleagues had declared him another brilliant mind lost to scruples. Â Considering the company Bruce is keeping now, something more sinister must have happened.
Bruce might not be the reason Tony is so tight-lipped about the kidnapping, but he will serve for now. He is a better alternative than making up some story about Steve without mentioning that they are soulmates.
âYou know them?â Rhodey asks, leaning back to look at Tony with open incredulity. His eyes are turning just a shade more furious.
âOne of them,â Tony corrects, keeping his tone even as if his heart is not beating wildly. âAnd he didnât harm me. On the contrary, he helped me get out. He promised that they wonât come after me again.â
Rhodey does not believe him. Not fully. There are too many holes in Tonyâs story. âAnd you ââ
âPlease, Rhodey,â Tony interrupts him, shoulders dropping. âI canât fight all these battles at once.â
They are at an impasse, neither of them willing to back down. In the end, though, Rhodey will always care for Tonyâs well-being.
âAll right,â he says, although nothing is. âAs long as you promise me you wonât fight them alone.â
Tony opens his mouth, mindless agreement lying on his tongue. He thinks better of it, though. Despite all their years of friendship, it is still incredibly hard to reach out for help.
âI called you as soon as I came home, right?â he then says, skirting the topic graciously enough that Rhodey lets it drop.
âRight,â Rhodey says, drawing out the word, then relaxes back into the cushions. âNow, do you want to go sleep in an actual bed, or are you condemning us both to hurting backs tomorrow morning?â
Smiling, Tony wonders for the umpteenth time how he deserves a friend like this. âIâm comfortable where I am.â
Rhodey sighs but does not seem surprised. âI knew youâd say that,â he mutters, but already adjusts his position to make it more comfortable for the both of them on the couch. âSleep, you maniac. I have to catch an early flight tomorrow.â
When Tony shifts his head a bit, he can hear Rhodeyâs heartbeat, a steady, familiar sound. Like that, he knows he will be able to sleep, perhaps even dreamlessly. This is the soundtrack of his MIT years, which were perhaps the happiest of his life. Like this, with Rhodey at his side, Tony knows he is safe. Â
@feelingsinwinter did it. Brought up The Letter⢠again. This is all your fault. Bitterness ahead, guys. Bitter, bitter, non-Team-Cap-friendly bitterness.
James Rhodes had greeted them with a perfectly pleasant expression and possibly even a smile. Steve struggles to tell because he was a little distracted by-- well. The wheelchair.
âIâm sorry, Colonel,â he blurts out, unable to help himself, unwilling to keep them inside. Seeing this man -- an old friend, a team mate -- like this, knowing exactly how he got the injury, what consequences it had-- for the hundredth time Steve wishes that things hadnât gone so out-of-control.
James blinks, looking taken aback for a moment, before he tilts his head to the side. âWhy the fancy titles, Mister Rogers?â he asks flatly. âAfter all, you never fit in with the army, didnât you? Or are you still bothering to keep up the pretense?â
*
âGod damn it, Iron Man!â Steve snaps furiously into his comms. âFor once in your life can you just stick to the plan?â
âThe plan,â Tony bites back, sounding out-of-breath and all the more enraged for it, âwent out of the window twenty minutes ago, Rogers. Catch up!â
The line cracks, and then it goes dead.
âFuck!â Steve snaps. Recalls the blueprints of the office building theyâre currently trying to gain access to. âAlright, Iron Manâs off-comms. Weâre gonna have to do this without him. Hulk, Scarlet Witch, you keep these things contained any way you have to. Black Widow, Hawkeye, weâre gonna have to-â
Steve wonât admit it, but when Spiderman literally drops out of the sky from nowhere, he almost slams his shield into the kidâs face.
Spiderman doesnât even twitch.
âMr. Stark said to give him fifteen minutes,â he says in that awfully young voice that always makes Steve want to send him straight back to school where he should undoubtedly be.
âWe donât have fifteen minutes,â Steve replies through gritted teeth because that at least he knows for sure.
Spiderman doesnât move a muscle, but Steve gets the sense that he is being judged. And coming up short.
âYou place your faith in people, individuals, right?â Spiderman asks suddenly and although he hasnât tensed in any way, he certainly sounds angry. âHow about you put your money where your mouth is and put some of that faith in Mr. Stark for once? He might surprise you.â
Spiderman is gone before Steve has formulated a response to that.
*
âAre you fucking kidding me?â Clint yells, furious or terrified or maybe both.
Steve rubs his temples where heâs starting to feel an upcoming headache. He doesnât blame Clint for his reaction, but itâs not helping alleviate the rising tension. The last team meeting almost ended in body bags, Steve isnât too eager to repeat the experience.
But.
âWhat the hell were you thinking?â Steve canât help but ask. Canât help but look at Tony as he speaks, who of course glares right back, refuses to so much as give an inch.
âIf that bastard sets one foot into this building, Iâm gone,â Clint hisses viciously.
âThis isnât a prison, Barton. Youâre free to go whenever you want,â Tony says and of course there is an ironic smile on his lips, an unsaid ânowâ and âbecause of meâ hanging in the air between them.
Steve takes a hold of Clintâs shoulder, both to calm him and, if necessary, keep him from launching himself at Tony. He really doesnât want to get involved in this, god knows his relationship with Tony is strained enough as it is, but itâs not like Tony is leaving him much of a choice here.
âLoki,â Steve says, and, no, he still canât believe it. âYou decided to recruit Loki.â
Tony opens his mouth, no doubt a bone-cutting retort already on the tip of his tongue, but itâs Darcy Lewis, their social media manager, who speaks up without looking up from where sheâs typing away on her Starkphone.
âWell, obviously. Dangerous times, you know how it is, Steve.â She drawls his name, and, try as he might, Steve can never quite shake the impression that she is insulting him somehow. âBesides locks can be replaced -- or well, wards erected, as the case may be -- but maybe they shouldnât.â
Darcy locks eyes with Steve then, and thereâs the girl who tasered a god looking staring at him challengingly.
*
At the end of the day, there are twelve dead civilians, five completely or partially destroyed buildings and one very dead body.Â
âMiss Potts?â Steve asks carefully. On the few occasions he has run into the CEI of Stark Industries, the woman has been cooly polite, but Steve has no illusions on where she stands.
But right now that happens to be above a body that has been pretty much torn apart and with Tony out of commission, Steve feels obligated to make sure sheâll get home safely.
Pepper Potts still hasnât looked away from the bloody carnage and Steve is just considering calling one of the field meds over when she finally speaks up.
âThey were just kids.â
Steve winces. There are parts that never get any easier. Looking in the glazed eyes of the survivors -- and the ones that didnât -- is one of them.
âHe did what he believed in, and nine children died.â Her hands are shaking, but her voice is cold, and when Steve reaches out to steady her, she recoils from his touch.Â
âDoes that make it alright? Does that make it better?â she snaps suddenly at him and when Steve says the only thing he can say --Â âNo.â -- she slaps him.
*
[Itâs an honest to god accident. Pepper doesnât go snooping around through Tonyâs things, she really doesnât. For one thing, thereâs just too many things she doesnât want to know -- like how deep Tony was in SHIELDâs servers before it all went up in smoke -- for her own peace of mind, mostly. Although plausible deniability is a very real thing.
But that morning, Tony hasnât come up from the workshop -- which is nothing new, granted -- heâs been down there a lot. Pepper hesitates to call him âobsessedâ, but heâs heading there, there is no doubt about that. Still. Itâs only been three weeks since--
Since whatever happened, happened.Â
Pepper had promised Tony five weeks to get his head straight again and five weeks heâs going to get. Which means she is hesitant to barge into his workshop, especially when the blueprints she needed four days ago, damn it, Tony, wonât be down there anyways.Â
So she goes through his desk, just cursory, Â Pepper knows what sheâs looking for after all. Only what she finds in one of the drawers is something entirely unexpected. Something so un-Tony Stark as to make Pepper pause in the middle of her search.
A flip phone.
And a letter. And well, maybe Pepper has spent too many years with a man ready and willing to hack national databanks at a momentâs notice because her curiosity gets the best of her.
Ten minutes later Pepper Potts strides out of Tony Starkâs office with a blank face that gives nothing away. The unfortunate security detail on duty shudders and sensibly stays out of her way.]
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How about Pepper and Rhodey hunting down the ex-Avengers like, "Damnit! We just got Tony in a good mental place! You caused him to backslide!"
Rhodey has a lot of free time on his hands in between physical therapy and therapy sessions and trying to convince Tony to attend his damn therapy sessions. So he does things like:
tracking down the ex-Avengersâ current locations (with FRIDAYâs enthusiastic help) and giving the local law enforcement anonymous tips
spreading very un-ex-Avengers-friendly rumours on the internet
posting unflattering pictures from his time of living at the compound because thereâs no such thing as being too petty
re-designing wanted posters for all the ex-Avengers because, again, there is no such thing as being too petty
sabotaging Clintâs attempts to negotiate a deal just to draw it out
sending Clintâs kids Iron Man franchise (which they actually wear, go tiny Bartons!)
convincing Vision to set their ever-changing burner phones on appropriate ringtones (True Friends and We Used To Be Friends immediately spring to mind...)
designing and selling Team Iron Man T-shirts
and other stuff that probably shouldnât be mentioned here, just in case
Pepper meanwhile has far less time at her hands, but that just means she has to use hers more efficiently. Itâs a good thing that efficiency is Pepperâs trademark superpower. So, just to ensure everyone understands her position on the matters of the so-called Civil War she:
Cancels any and all Captain America franchise because memorabilia of an internationally wanted fugitive is hardly child-appropriate and sues any knock-off producers
Gives exactly one interview on the matter (the interview is declared inappropriate to be shown on national TV, which of course ensures that everyone and their cat has seen it by the end of the day)
Shows up unannounced exactly once in a rundown hostel off-civilisation somewhere near the Hungarian border
(Nobody ever talks about said meeting-that-wasnât. Steve still winces every time he catches sight of Pepper Potts anywhere.)
No-one, and I repeat no-one, tells my little brother what happened at school okay! They've had enough shit this week and if I hear anyone told them I will go absolutely mental!