#projectsupremethunder

Day 9 our boss decided to buy fast food two days in a row for the team. STRUGGLE IS REAL LOL meanwhile our country lead is super happy because he gets to eat my share of the fast food that i cannot consume KEK :P

Day 19 I weighed in again. nothing changed. I feel absolutely devastated. was it because of the damn “no sugar strawberry” fiasco the waiter did at the last resto I was? or was I failing to eat what I should? or my body is JUST THAT SHITTY that it wont lose weight UGH.

DAY 15

I hate myself, coz this is the first time I UNINTENTIONALLY CHEATED. UGHHH It was my first time eating out with friends since i started the project, and I was extra careful, brought only food permitted and weighed in everything and I specifically instructed the waiter for a NO SUGAR strawberry shake. so fast forward to us receiving our orders, I drank the strawberry shake and noticed it was still sweet to my taste. I kinda of was weirded out, and drank around just half of it, because at that point I seriously was convinced myself that it still contained so much sugar coz its reaaaally sweet.

HOURS later, my friend who ordered a Mocha frappe complained his drink HAD NO TASTE at all. tried it and TRUE ENOUGH, ITS JUST THAT, coffee with cream, no sugar at all, and he’s already near finishing it!

and then it dawned on me: The waiter might’ve made the mistake of mixing my instructions, no sugar on the mocha frappe instead of my strawberry shake I WEEP. I UNINTENTIONALLY ATE A CHEAT MEAL(DRINK YEA BUT STILL)

I feel like I messed up so bad IDK how much this will dent my progress. *sigh*

DAY 8

day 4

I decided to just reset this or i’ll continually be upset about my progress. so I kind of unofficially named this SUPREME THUNDER - reset 

coach gave me a different plan and its pretty extreme. i hope i lose weight now im so desperate. I have no idea why im not losing any despite all the measures ive taken and all the sacrifice ive done.

please please i pray this works. 

day 29

I knew it. I overlooked something. i messed up.

I consulted with coach, and turns out ive been missing a part of the meal plan and so my body when starvation mode. THE WHOLE MONTH.

I wasted a month thinking I was progressing, but I really wasn't. had I reallized sooner, I would've corrected myself.

But no use crying over spilled milk. I'll have to restart all over again, and this time I really hope it works.

once again, I think back to the episode in Sailor Moon S where Makoto hit a really bad slump. She must’ve felt the same. But as she learned, “there is no path that lets me live my life other than this path”

Day 25

THIS IS WHAT I HAVE TO PUT UP WITH EVERYDAY coz our bosses from australia came to the office bearing “gifts”

its been free fast food lunch and chocolates day after day, and I’ve turned them down time and time again, and have even skipped team dinners because i cant eat anything in there, to the point that my officemates think I’m a total killjoy to be with :(

i weighed myself again, and nothing changed :/ I don’t know why, am I doing something wrong, or is my body just THIS STUBBORN that even professional help doesn’t work :’( All these negative feedback i’m getting coupled with my seemingly non-existent weight loss is starting to make me feel hopeless. sigh

DAY 11

weighed in and was a bit disappointed that i was 150lbs, when the starting was 149lbs. like legit i kind of sulked for hours. then the next day i decided to compute my weight, because I remember I was 69kg at start, converted it to pounds and BOOM. My starting was 152lbs PHEEEEEEWWW

so I did lose weight no matter how small, its still something