| safety | As much as I hate to admit it, I’ve taken it the wrong way in the 15.3 billion times I have been personally told that NYC is dangerous and a big city and blah. I know people care, but I can’t help but take it as a subtle “you can’t handle it” jab. Geez people. The neighborhood outside of my high school had regular shootings and prostitutes roaming about during the daytime. I have a solid don’t-talk-to-me face. I have handled hundreds of unhoused folks who ask for money. I am not from some small town. I am not oblivious. And I am cautious as fuck. But I will admit... (￢_￢;) Training...can’t hurt...I guess.

{ #1: train in beginner’s jujitsu}

price: $60.00 for 9 weeks schedule: tues&thurs the feels: i dunno what to wear

| rent&food money | I know it will irk me if I’m paying for rent but travelling 4 days a week. But it will also irk me if I’m local for 4 days and have to pay for food. Why?! WHY?!? because money. (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ We can get to a psychological breakdown of why money is always on my mind some other time but seriously...money. I WILL be prepared for this if it KILLS ME.

{ #2: work 6+ hours a week}

progress: submitted 2 applications // office assistant + music library

to do: apply to...

[   ] green library [   ] lathrop [   ] engineering library [   ] earth sciences library [   ] east asia library [   ] law library [   ] hoover mailroom // ask roomie for reference

| GPA boost | Apparently business schools care about undergrad GPA and I’m not doing so hot tbh (╥﹏╥) 

{#3: get 3+ A’s this quarter}

the feels: is that even possible ??

| swoll | So my man has abs. And killer thighs. And rockin arms. A great butt.  Hot damn. ٩(♡ε♡)۶ I am a fan. So I would like to, uh, keep his attention.  (￣▽￣*)ゞ The other part of course is just to feel pretty good about myself. (◡‿◡✿) Exercise stimulates endorphines and whatnot. Therefore, I should be good to my body.

{#4: work out 2+ times a week}

kick start routine:

[   ] jog for 8+ minutes [   ] 20+ regular pushups [   ] 20+ tricep pushups [   ] ab leg kicking thing for 2+ minutes [   ] eventual squats but plantar fasciitis so no 

the feels: don’t judge me pls this is the best i can do for now  ( ╥ω╥ ) the excuse: currently recovering from plantar fasciitis

| friends | Human connection feels pretty good sometimes tbh. I started to retreat and hide away again. Maybe it’s like interview season. It was really painful to try your best and fail; so I thought it would be less painful to fail on the excuse of not trying as hard as I could. But while Meghan Trainor’s song is tangentially related to this subject, it inspired me to change my attitude. I am giving this my best shot and if I fail then so be it.

{#5: connect with 2+ people a week}

the strategy: