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After rolling her eyes at Seth’s words, Amalia sighed loudly. “And that’s exactly why not allowing yourself to love anyone or anything is the smartest way to live. It’s safer. Love just makes you... weak. I mean, it’s not exactly hard to figure out that loving someone that much is only going to leave you heartbroken at the end of the day. People always leave eventually.”

Oh, where to begin? Seth and Levi are a no-brainer, right? By now it seems pretty clear that they’re going to end up together and I’m on the edge of my seat for that. How is it that everyone knows they’re going to end up together and happy except those two? Then there’s Ama and Carter and that is an emotional roller-coaster itself. Two former enemies falling in love? It gets me every time. They look like they’re on the road to happiness and I’m hoping they’re going to keep going. I’ll just be over here with my tissues and pom-poms crying and cheering you guys on. When I need a break from all the emotions I stop to check in on what Chris and Angelo are doing. Honestly there’s nothing else I can say about them except that they might be too adorable for my heart to handle. But if you mean ones that don’t seem to be canon, I’ll admit that I’m secretly keeping an eye on Cecilia and Evan, mostly because I would just love to see the way her brother reacts to that. I know they haven’t interacted much, but this girl just loves her drama. Then again I ship everyone with everyone so no matter what happens, my heart will be happy.

Send “♪” for a song that reminds me of my muse.

Little By Little - Oasis

We dream our dreams alone with no resistanceFading like the stars we wish to beYou know I didn't mean what I just saidBut my God woke up on the wrong side of His bedAnd it just don't matter now

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I Want You Back - The Kooks

Take me back to the place where ILoved that girl for all timeWhy must life just take awayEvery good thing one at a time

Send “♫” for a song that reminds me of our muses relationship.

Mardy Bum - The Arctic Monkeys

Send “♪ reverse” for a song that reminds me of your muse.

story of my life by one direction.

Send “♫” for a song that reminds me of our muses relationship

gay boyfriend - garfunkel and oates

⁰ - Taking my muse out to do one of their favorite activities

It had been a week now. They spent nearly every single day together after school and yet now Levi was going home alone. His grandparents were relieved, but simultaneously unnerved by the way Levi’s attitude had shifted drastically. Such an usually upbeat attitude towards most everything and suddenly he was going directly to his bedroom, some days without even bothering to say hello. It was... potentially very childish of him. Seth was allowed to have other friends, of course. The problem was that it wasn’t just a friend. It was her. Seth had been with countless girls, but he was starting to realize that this one was different for him. But why? She certainly wasn’t anywhere near as attractive as Seth had been with before, nor was she all that great. At least Levi didn’t think so. He couldn’t think of a single positive thing about her... also potentially very childish of him.

He had moved from pouting to all out ignoring Seth the next week. He hoped that would be enough to get Seth’s attention, but not as quickly as it normally would have. Which only upset him further. By the end of that week Levi was ready to give up and find a new best friend. Even if he knew he’d fail miserably. There was no one that could ever compare to the friendship and connection he had with him. There was no replacement, and he definitely knew that there was no Helena.

Seth seemed to catch on to the problem, and by the end of the week he was forcing Levi to go out with him that Saturday to go bowling. Levi was never sure why he liked it so much, it was lame compared to other activities they did together... but it was potentially because it was always just the two of them, and every time they went he was forcing Seth to ‘teach him’ how. A cliche but always well-appreciated move in Levi’s book, and Seth only ever laughed obliviously before doing so. As upset as Levi was, he still found himself excited as ever to spend time with him and didn’t hesitate to agree.

Levi had taken his time getting ready and even had a little bounce in his step as he made his way towards the car once Seth had pulled up. That excitement slowly faded off when he saw Helena in the passenger seat, confusion taking over as he awkwardly made his way to the backseat. He hadn’t been there before. A completely new experience for him, but he was starting to think that it wouldn’t be the last time. 

℟ - Hug my muse from behind without saying a word.

He had really convinced himself that things were going well. Levi had grew up learning that he had to accept the negatives of things to get the positive. Being gay had come with a lot of complications, but he also knew that he could always be himself at school, and hidden away in his bedroom with Seth. Those were always his safe places, but his boyfriend seemed to think that the only safe place was upstairs and drunk at every party there were invited to. Levi was willing to accept that. 

His boyfriend’s friends and family were all homophobic. He didn’t have a Seth. A someone to protect his name and keep him safe from rumors and bullying. He had sat Levi down, telling him that it wasn’t personal. That he had to do it in order to keep his friends and a relationship with his parents. Levi didn’t want him to get kicked out of his home, did he? He had to look good in front of his friends. Levi was willing to accept that.

But he was tired. Levi knew there would be some bumps in the road with him having a relationship due to his grandparents. He wasn’t going to announce it to the world, but he also wouldn’t have to endure getting shoved into lockers each time he passed by him. He had the conversations with Seth time and time again, but for some reason, he couldn’t budge. He couldn’t even figure out why he stuck with it. Maybe it was just the fact that for once he had someone. A someone who liked him back. Levi could appreciate the small things from time to time.

The day had been particularly rough, though. Levi was surely showing it on his face, and the entire walk with Seth back to Levi’s house, normally full of chatter, was quiet. Levi couldn’t shake the feeling. He didn’t want to hide. He didn’t see anything wrong with the way that he was, even if so many people around him did. Levi was sure his reasoning was obvious, by now. Nothing ever put him in a foul mood like this unless it had to do with his parents. Even with Seth, he was merely pouting until he got over it. This was a different level. 

℠ - Slam my muse against a wall after my muse has been avoiding your muse to ask them what’s going on

Levi being passive aggressive wasn’t really abnormal. Whenever Seth upset him, he usually resolved to pouting and ignoring until Seth pressed the issue. Mostly Levi always liked seeing that Seth cared enough to try and make it better. Half the time he’d barely remember why he was upset in the first place, but he kept ignoring and pouting until Seth came waltzing over with flowers and chocolates and the most pitiful look on his face, and everything was forgotten.

This was different. This wasn’t something that he could fix with a grin and a bouquet of roses. Levi had done his best not to seem obvious when Seth had sat him down, bubbling with excitement that he had tried to mimic until the words fell past Seth’s lips. The way his heart sank in his chest was a feeling he couldn’t forget, nor could he get rid of it in a few hours.

It started with bailing on their usual plans, and then avoiding him in school altogether. It was silly, but Levi liked to think that maybe distancing himself would help him get rid of the aching in his chest every time he thought about Seth being happy with someone else. Anyone else. A girl. Jennifer. Levi had possibly, very purposely, shoved her with his shoulder in passing in the hall, and continued to walk by as she fell to the ground. Maybe. But Seth didn’t need to know that.

He could tell Seth was getting frustrated, and it gave him that same warm, butterfly-y feeling with each note handed to him in class, all mostly covered in question marks. Levi couldn’t explain himself. He was too embarrassed that he’d thought it’d be any different. He passed him in the halls, and looked anywhere but Seth. The problem was that he’d left his grandparents in the dark. Not the smartest plan since they were used to letting him in as they had to by now. And, as Levi was organizing his closet, his bedroom door was opened. Confusion took over his expression, though he didn’t have time to really say much before Seth was shoving him against the wall, his frustration with the shorter boy evident. They didn’t fight like this. They’d never gone this long without speaking to one another. It was a reasonable reaction, especially after hearing time after time how often friends fell apart in high school. They had always promised one another, but Levi hadn’t been keeping up his end, and it had all led up to this.