I hate overthinking about stuff and I want to be honest but I feel like I would be weird and I can but I rather not be honest and I want to smile but it's kinda hard sometimes life isn't beautiful and it fucking sucks it really does but I try to distract myself with music and the anxiety is way worse and people I still care about but they still hurt me but not one person or two you don't know and I don't know I want to be honest with the people I talk to and it isn't a lot of people and that's fine I like being alone to its peaceful at some points but having people is good for some things like if you need someone to talk to or hangout or do stuff like going to someone's house and chill but I sadly don't really have that option if i did I would and the true question is do I actually make someone happy? Do I actually make someone feel better? That's hard to ask hell i can't even ask that question again I don't know I can't stop thinking about it...
