Brian (our host) has been fronting a whole lot less recently than usual (usually its typically him that's in front and dealing with shit, but its been a lot more me, and also a lot more of other than it typically is)
And we've collectively been getting a bit concerned over it? Brian freaked out a bit earlier over it and then dissociated a lot over it, and also I've been finding that its a lot easier for me to just. Accidentally slip into front I guess is good phrasing?
And idk exactly what I'm asking here. Just, normal? Something to be concerned about? Host switch (please no please no please no)?
I don't think there's been anything much of additional stressors recently? Maybe? Idk. Anyways this post turned into me rambling so add tags hit post etc
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Suddenly remembered the Definitely-Not-Plural-Experience(tm) we had when we were younger of being far too obsessed with Left Brain, Right Brain by Bo Burnham
Not only do you put shit off, you look at the fact that there's other people in your head and think "yeah, one of them will get it done." And then all of them are thinking that exact same thing, naturally.
Turns out downloading simply plural was a great idea
I was getting ready for the day and realized I couldn't find the scrunchie I like to wear (its my favorite color)
So, I just scrolled down in the front history graph to see when I last fronted and BAM it was during work and lo and behold, the scrunchie was in our work pants
Finally got around to actually posting the new pinned post that I typed up awhile back, and then simply. Didn't ever post it lmao.
I'm hoping that maybe we can make more original posts about our experiences here? Maybe also make some plural comics, because I know that people love those on tumblr. I'm not quite sure what we would make for those, especially since we don't typically co-front with one another (at least not knowingly? Sometimes we may have some amounts of passive influence, but it's hard to tell, and we're still learning more about ourself as time moves on despite acknowledging our plurality for the previous few years now).
(Edit: Posted this, then realized it was pretty long, so I'm putting the rest of our general life updates under a read more.)
As is stated in our new pinned post, we're also hoping to make our own personal website at some point in the future! Unfortunately, we've been very busy with school, Pride month, and now Artfight is coming up, but I know that it was Anne specifically who wanted to have her own page to post a lot of blinkies on. In general, all of us who are public facing want to have our own pages that we can decorate ourselves! Plus, it can be used as a collective journal (that isn't hosted on tumblr), a place to store oc information, a place to post art, and more. While it's far from the top of our priority list, we've all been very excited for it!
As for any final life updates... I know that either I or Matt made a post a few months back about how Brian, our host, wasn't fronting nearly as much as he used to. That's still the case, but nowhere near the level it was before. Luckily Matt and I are here to help support him through all of this. In general we've been feeling a lot more dissociated this past week or two, so we've been carrying around one of our stuffed animals to help us stay more grounded.
Oh, and with Brian fronting less, as I just said, we've been feeling more dissociated, but also our memory hasn't been that great recently either. That, alongside the fact that we've been realizing that there's a lot of things from our childhood that Weren't Great, we're starting to question OSDD-1b rather than unlabeled plurality (at least whenever Brian isn't having anxiety over saying that we have disordered plurality when there's still the chance we might not /t). Ever since Brian hasn't been fronting as much, I've been handling all of our therapy sessions, and I have it down in our notes that I'd hopefully like to try talking to our therapist about how at the absolute least, viewing ourself as plural is a framework that makes sense for our mind. Currently we're not out to any of our irls as plural (though multiple strongly suspect), but at the beginning of the year, Brett decided that our New Year's resolution would be to try and be open about this, so... that's something that's going to hopefully happen before the year is through (even if we are have varying levels of anxiety about it, which is why we haven't done this earlier /lh).
Anyways... this ended up a lot more long-winded than I anticipated lmao. I guess tldr, life's been happening but we're slowly pushing through it, and are also hoping to be more active as a system online as well as come out as plural irl.
I'm going to main tag this, because while a lot of this is a personal update post, I guess I also just want more mutuals to become friends with. As a fair warning, we aren't good at remembering to respond to dms, so while our inbox and askbox are always open, don't be shy about sending multiple messages to get a response. This isn't our main, so any follows will come from a different account. I hope anyone who's reading this has (at the absolute minimum) an above average day :)
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it's fucked up having the hosts name be different from the bodys name. im out here tryna remember to go by the bodys name and going over the mental script but then my thoughts spit out brian and its like NO thats not what we actually go by on a day to day basis lmao
could be worse tho, i dont actually ever spit out the wrong name whenever talking with people
Being plural is fucked up, because the fuck you mean i decided to make a silly goofy character back in high school, now he lives in my head rent free, and is better at hitting the great throws in pokemon go than me
