#prkchy

[ iN ] Tall dongsaeng! ＼(￣▽￣;)／

[ iN ] How have you been? Are your promotions going smoothly?

«iN» Jihoonnie!!! «iN» I believe.. my promotions are over, if you see some free time on BASTARZ promotions. Give me a call. «iN» You know I’m always up for hanging with you. Gotta remember the old times!

「❝」 “It’s like you sold your soul to them” He heard her say in a low tone, she was looking outside while the rain kept pouring onto the sidewalk, the streets and buildings and the sight looked more of a  dark winter day and a spring day. He knew that being part of SM wasn’t easy, he’d heard of it, seen how DBSK had gone from 5 to two and turned to TVXQ and JYJ. He even felt on his skin upon losing Kris and Luhan after the Overdose promotions had finished. 「ℭ」He looked at her, sadness in his eyes as he took in a deep breath and pursed his lips, looking at her and smiling softly. “Sometimes, when we wish something so hard, we cannot look at means to get it. I’ve reached my dream, I’m living it, but even if there’s hard moments, I embrace them as a form of getting stronger”, he speaks, looking down to his clenched fists. “My dream was to be in a band. but when I first came to SM, i saw it was hard to do promotions as one..” 「ℭ」There wasn’t a day Chanyeol would regret his life. He was an idol, he had been good enough to become one, and he really loved music. To him, there were two things he would be happy to have: music in his life, and make everyone around him smile. To him, only those two would matter in life if he had to name them. His dream, despite making him a doll in the SM hands, had come true, and he knew and still knows, that there’s nothing you want that hasn’t a dark side.

Mina isn’t sure why she’d even said the words out loud. It was  probably the rain, making her feel melancholic and lazy, as it poured hard, water splashing against the sidewalk non-stop. She liked when it rained, but it brought these kinds of thoughts out of her, and she didn’t even realise she was saying the words out loud until he suddenly responds. 

“I didn’t mean--” She knew it sounded bad, and maybe a little judgmental, the way she phrased the words. Mina felt off about it, especially since they were all the same in this business anyway; competitive and willing to do so much just to grab on to that dream they’re all striving for. She can only imagine how ruthless it was when it came to the big companies, the so-called Top 3. “I’m sorry,” she murmurs, finger lazily sliding around the rim of her coffee cup as she flashes an apologetic look at her friend. “I wonder sometimes,” she begins to admit, “how it would be if I was in a company like yours. Would I even have made it to stage?” 

She lets out awkward laughter, trying to place herself in a group like Red Velvet, or f(x), even--a group that she has looked up to ever since they had debuted. “Or!” Her face suddenly lights up when he talks about his love of music, and his former dreams of being a band--that was her company's forte, FNC’s pride and joy, and even though all she had originally dreamed of before debuting was to become a performer, she definitely takes pride in how she had learned and trained to become a bassist. “What if you’d come to our company instead--” She giggles, more natural now, because she can easily see it, he would have fit right in with all the friends she knew--trainees mostly focusing on learning and honing their skills in playing instruments. Even his visual would fit right in, she thinks, as she studies his features.

And why do you have to live up to their expectations? Why not live up to your expectations of yourself? [/he smiles softly, leaning down to face you as his smile turns to a grin ] Mina-shi, don’t let your inner demons take over. You’re great and you’d never disappoint people. Well I’d never be disappointed in you at least. [/he nods and hums, as if telling the whisest thing ever ] You know? Don’t worry so much about others. Think more of yourself.