#prideprejudce

overall - give yourself a break from this pressure and let life come naturally. you are still so young and its 100% OK to just peacefully live life for a while! and in the future you'll have plenty of opportunities to discover more about yourself and pave your way to a long and exciting life :)

hello i really wanted to save your words because honestly they’re so invaluable and i’m sure i’ll need to look back on them in the future

i feel like i’m just caught between realizing that 21 years of my life have passed and i haven’t done. much of anything in that time and feeling so ancient and tired and exhausted that i forget that in the gran scheme of things, i’ve only lived a fraction of that time. i want to tell myself that it’s fine and everyone moves at life at their own pace and “milestones of life” at given ages are just arbitrary and have nothing to do with the overall success and happiness of one’s life but sometimes that pressure of “holy shit i still haven’t done x, y, z, etc. yet what is wrong with me there’s something wrong with me” just hits me and i fall into a cycle of trying to understand why x, y, and z haven’t yet happened and if they haven’t is it a failure on my part? is it me and am i holding myself back? do i need to force myself to experience things for the sake of experiencing them?

but you’re right. you’re So right. there’s so much more life ahead of me it’s not “holy shit you’re 21″ it’s “you’re ONLY 21” and reminding myself to live peacefully is something i needed, but i think it feels nicer to hear from someone older. that reassurance that everything is okay and i’m not broken? it means the world i just get caught up in my thoughts and start spiraling so knowing that it’s okay i’m allowed to just Be and take things slowly or at my own pace? it means a lot