#pridekills

GOD HAS A VERSE FOR THIS. “…WHEN I AM WEAK THEN I AM STRONG” HE KNOWS WE ARE NOT PERFECT, BUT ONCE WE REMIND OURSELVES WE CAN GAIN STRENGTH IN HIM, THAT’S HOW WE BEGIN TO UNDERSTAND ALL OVER AGAIN HOW HE CAN TURN OUR SORROWS INTO JOY. LEARN TO LOVE YOUR DIFFICULTIES BECAUSE YOU KNOW IN THE END IT MAKES YOU STRONGER, WISER, AND MORE CONFIDENT. :)

2 Corinthians 12:10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Matthew 16:24-25 Then Jesus said to His disciples, “If anyone wishes to come after Me, he must deny himself, and take up his cross and follow Me. “For whoever wishes to save his life will lose it; but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it.

John 3:30 He must increase, but I must decrease.”

Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make straight your paths.

“Why am I the most victimized? Why am I so easy to blame all the time? Why do the worst things happen to me? Why do I have such bad luck? Why do I always get taken advantage of? Am I such an easy target? Why the heck do I have to do it?? Why can’t she/he do it? Why is it always me? Why do they have to talk to me like that? Why do they have to treat me that way? What makes them so much better than me? Why do they act like they’re so perfect, like they’re not even!!? Who cares about them? Why is it when I say it I get treated differently? Why is this happening to me? Who do they think they are? Why am I so much better than them, but they just don’t know? Why am I still alive? Why can’t someone just shoot me?”

HAHAHA WOWOWOOW 

Meet the old me that no one here knows. I was so self-centered but at that time I seriously, honestly thought I was the most innocent that nothing was wrong with me and I deserved better treatment. I’m actually tempted to say I did deserve better treatment but ultimately it was for my own good.

I should have been asking myself “Why don’t I read my Bible more often? What makes me so special that no matter how much I complain, God’s love for me never changes? Why can’t I just shut up so He can answer me?” Man it was a long process but eventually I did get to asking those better questions and I believe it was the questions, “Why do I take things so personally?” or “Why am I the way I am?” and “What is my purpose?” that finally helped to lessen the noise in my head. 

It was when I started talking to Him more than I was talking to me. Ya, that’s when things started to change. Now I know that He wanted to teach me a big lesson on controlling my emotions and not making everything about me. I have times when I’m tempted to believe everyone is out to get me. I’m just glad I’m not a maniac anymore. My purpose is to serve Him and it’s impossible to do that selfishly.