Hello friends! You know how most shows have a "Previously on.." segment at the beginning? Let's do that but in blog form since I haven't done a '7 things this week' for a couple weeks.
Previously in my psych rotation:
1) New patient assignment wooooo!! My first patient made me sad. Very sad. I realize my feelings are nothing compared to what they have to go through but still the feels persisted. New patient really taught me lessons in keep my composure and how important it is to build a rapport with your patients. \I think there's a fine line between being homies and a proper DPR and I'm not sure if I have crossed that line but at least my patient is talking to me now :D Progress!
2) All those nights where I was either too sad or too tired to study have caught up with me. Exams this week. Le sigh. OSCE's make me so nervous. I just feel like I'll nvr be adequate so I suck it up and try to feign confidence regardless. My rotation buddies have commended me on my interview skills so I guess faking it til I make it is a great plan :DÂ
3) A patient in A&E tried to hug/hold on to me until her family member came back to be with her and I kind of let her for like a minute and the resident looked at me like wtf are you doing? TRES EMBARASSING! T.T See this is why i'm reconsidering psych as a specialty. I'd get too emotionally attached/invested. There's empathy and then there's me letting this little ball of anxiety hug me cuz she thinks she's dying :/ Too many fine lines I don't feel equipped to navigate.
4) Group work is annoying. Nuff. said. My OCPD is showing.
5) I want to go home. Trying to repress these feelings because I really just have to suck it up. I don't even have a return date to look forward to. I hate this feeling like things are up in the air and I don't know what's going to happen. Yea.. my OCPD is showing. I know in reality that we never really know how things will turn out despite our plans but I don't even have a plan! I was content with this before when all my plans were blowing up in my face and I gave up. But now it's just like ahhhh what to do what to dooooo. My spirit needs to be rejuvved. I haven't found a good church yet so I think that's why I'm all over the place emotionally. And yes I know God is with me no matter where or how I worship. It just feels unsettling to not have that sense of community I feel at my home church. I did attend one service via skype a couple weeks ago. Almost but not quite the same. Wow this one ran long. I feel like this should count for 6 & 7 as well.
6) My diet/workout plan got a little derailed but I think I'm back on it.. I hope. NO LONGER WILL I BE A SLAVE TO CARBS!! The cravings for bread are so bad now I can almost taste it. The whole wheat bread here is just.. <3_<3
7) Two more weeks of psych left!Â
