#ocpd

i do not have the obsessive compulsive personality disorder and obsessive compulsive disorder I'm literally just a born philosopher, meant to ponder the morality of every small action

sometimes when I say I don't know I actually do know but I don't know what response people are expecting from me and I'm afraid I'll say something that'll make them violently stab me to death

The one thing worse than ocpd perfectionism making you compare yourself to others is when it makes you compare yourself to other autistic/neurodivergent people like what is so specially wrong with me that I can't be doing what everyone else is doing

That moment when someone might be slightly critical of you in their head so you just start feeling physically sick

the difference between me (ospd haver with obsessive features) and full-on ocpd havers seems to be that they actually succeed at being constantly productive whereas i do absolutely nothing of value and then judge myself for it

if i was normal it would be so over