Feeling myself today — just good vibes, soft light, and confidence.”

why :(

I was tagged by the beautiful and lovely, oregonfairy

Rule 1: Always post the rules Rule 2: Answer the 11 questions the person who tagged you asked, then make 11 new questions for those you tag. Rule 3: tag 11 people and link them to your post Rule 4: actually tell them they have been tagged

AND MY QUESTIONS ARE:

1) You’re forced to walk a mile in someone else’s shoes. Literally, someone else’s shoes. What type of shoes are they, and whose shoes? Where are you walking to?

if I could walk in someone else's shoes, it would probably be miley cyrus's heels to some awesome photoshoot. who wouldn't wanna be that hot for a mile?

2) Tell us about a moment when you were proud.

in my final moments at renfrew residential, I was proud. I was proud to be part of such a wonderful, supportive, beautiful, and inspiring community but more importantly, i was immensely proud of every single girl and woman there. they are my heroes, my support, and my inspiration, and i am so proud of every single one of them.

3) Close your eyes and describe every single thing you can hear. Listen hard!

ugh sorry about this one but ana is fierce this morning, telling me not to eat and i am weak and etc. other than that, i hear florence + the machine playing in my head, very loudly. i think that's it.

4) What are some personality traits that you just can’t stand? Are you guilty of any of them yourself?

I hate narcissistic personalities, people who always think they are right and better than everyone else, i'm not like that hahah

5) Go listen to The Letter by Xavier Rudd. This isn’t really a question, it’s just a really great song.

OKAY CH'NEY

6) If you can remember, what’s the last interaction you had with me?

besides your ask this morning telling me about this, we were giving each other ED related encouragement, you're an amazing person

7) Set three new goals for yourself, right now. Real goals, ones you want to achieve! What are they?

1) i want to accomplish at least 30 things on my bucket list this year

2) stop thinking everyone hates me all the time and make the most out of all the people who do love me

3) KICK ANOREXIA'S SKINNY ASS

8) Who are the important people in your life? Give us a short description of them.

wow okay this will be hard...

first, all of the girls at renfrew residential. like I said, they are my heroes, my support, my inspiration, and my sisters. every single one of them. they are the most important people in the world to me and i love them all so much.

second, the girls at renfrew day in mt laurel. i am so excited to continue getting to know them, i love them all so much already.

third, my older friend robin and my best friend amanda. miss robin is one of the pastor's wives at my church and she loves me like her own daughter. she struggled with an eating disorder for years and so i trust her so much and she understands me and prays for me and helps me out so much. amanda is the other pastors daughter and she is my best friend and has been since i was like three. i love her with all of my heart.

fourth, my family. my cousins fallon, shookie, and ashley who i am best friends with. my wonderful aunts and uncles, my grandparents, and my three brothers.. I love them all so much.

fifth, my best friends. i have the greatest best friends anyone could ever ask for.. allie ( vamp ), alexa ( electric-influence ), and carly ( chinupsweetheart ) and truly, all of my friends.

lastly, my parents. we have had a very hellish relationship my whole life. but now, i am so proud to be their daughter and so grateful for their love and support and help that past month and a half. i love them so much.

without all of these people, i wouldn't be who i am and i probably wouldn't be here

9) Write a poem, or share a poem you’ve written. Make it as crappy or extravagant as you wish.

sitting in my bed

i really have to pee

help i'm to lazy to move

someone take this pee from me

10) What wakes you up in the morning?

these days, recovery and my supports is what wakes me up. i'm not recovered, far from it to be honest. but i am working my ass off every single day. this is the hardest battle of my life but just the idea that maybe one day i will get there is enough motivation to keep trying (this is obviously a good day for me so far lol) and my supports. everyone who i mentioned who was important to me. they're the reasons i get out of bed. if i can't do it for me just yet, i am happy to do it for them.

11) Share a piece of advice.

remember that too forgive yourself is to release trapped energy that could be used for good in the world, remember that everything really does happen for a reason, and remember that you are loved and worthy of love, despite what an demon might try to convince you otherwise

I'M TAGGING:

va-mp

electric-influence

chinupsweetheart

historyhomework

fightthewhispers

un-familiarfaces

oregonfairy​

prettyenergy

rockandrollandgratitude

constantxxheadache

vegan-hippie

YOUR QUESTIONS ARE:

1) What is your favorite song? The first song you thought of is probably the answer.

2) If you could be any font, what font would it be?

3) After you die, where would you like to be buried if you could be buried anywhere in the world and why?

4) If you could be in one broadway musical, which one would it be?

5) Who is your hero?

6) Are you happy? Think hard about this one and try to remember that good always outweighs the bad.

7) Do you have any tattoos and what are they? If not, do you want any and what would you like them to be?

8) If a stranger walked into your room and never met you before, what would he or she learn about you?

9) What is your favorite fruit?

10) What is your horoscope alias and what about the personality description of that alias really suits you?

11) Share a piece of advice you think everyone should know.