May 17, 2023
could someone please throw me down a deep well shut the lid and forget me, thanks
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could someone please throw me down a deep well shut the lid and forget me, thanks
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if only god decided to take my soul, rip my heart out. why make it so hard? why this torture, why these years of pain getting worse and worse, with the hope of being able to heal, while I know there’s no real chance to do so? Why god ? Tell me, is there hope ? is there a chance of getting better ? Is this supposed to be a chance ? a test? or only realizing how miserable it is to live in this society, not being able to really do anything worthy
schfucklife {S}👑
I feel alone. But I know I am not. I am surrounded by my family. My life. My community. I will never be alone again because You are with me, guiding me to who You want me to be. I am so thankful. Thank you for surrounding me. For being there even when I felt alone. #homesweethome #livingonfaith #prayerstogod #truckee #tahoe #mytribe #myhome
ma's auntie just called and mom wouldn't even touch the phone. just hung up on her, even though auntie was probably crying, and gestured for me to take the phone downstairs. oh & started mouthing words to herself. not eating either. I think she's going to die. terrified.
trust that GOD's timing is perfect, and that He does things in His time.
"No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And GOD is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can endure it." 1 Corinthians 10:13
"she's my mom"
I'm posting a lot of personal stuff today. LOL, oh well
It's been almost two years now. this has changed and molded me the most. I miss her so much. don't get me wrong, I'm thankful she's still here. I'm thankful that GOD has pulled us through thus far, despite the fact that I doubted Him. GOD is good!
I used to think that we would wake up one day, and she wouldn't haven't depression anymore. maybe she would walk into my room, wake me up, and tell me she loved me, and that it was all over. all the pain, all the tears, all her screaming to herself. I was holding onto false hope, but I wanted her to be the exception.
it's not going to happen though. I mean, yes. GOD does the impossible. but ONLY through Him. I'm in so much pain for a reason. I can't loose hope. even if I am frustrated to the point that I'm terrified she'll die, and not know Christ because she's stopped believing. I'm terrified, when I wake up in the middle of the night to see her walking around in muttering to herself. I'm terrified.
but all I do is scream at her, throw my tantrums and loose my patience. I think I've lost almost all hope, but maybe there's still a spark inside of me. I'm so scared.
I hate that it's completely out of hands. I can't do anything to help. I'm a helpless blob.
note to self: Naomi, if you're reading this tomorrow or a year from now, don't loose hope. keep praying. keep loving her. be patience. don't scream. just remember that this woman raised you. she bore you for nine months. she comforted you when you thought you were at your breaking point and you couldn't go on. she gave you a premature boy talk, to keep you safe from heart break. she loved you.
I seriously need to let go and let GOD.
at the end of the day, she's still my mom.
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