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Myself

My self

i dont know if love is worth it or not. from my perspective i think that the pain that ensued during and after outweighs the bit of love that we felt for each other. While I have this opinion, i find myself wanting it again for some odd reason. Its as if the hurt is so normal to me that i barely acknowledge it but the love was something so extraordinary that it outweighs the bad moments. I try to find the bad in the situation as soon as my longing for it comes back but i wont lie to you, its difficult. I miss waking up with her while the sun rises, or cooking for her while she teases me, or watching movies i dont like just to make her happy, or even just having someone there to comfort me in times like these but she's not coming back so I have to see the situation for what it was. I started self harming and developed an ed because of our daily fights and these are things I still struggle with. Its crazy how someone who made me so happy at moments made me so upset seconds later. I wont blame it all on her because it took two to upkeep our toxic tango, but I wish she could see how ive grown. Maybe its a selfish want for her to come back and love me as well as the good moments seemed. It hurts to be alone. Especially when she seems so happy without me. I hate to think that she's giving someone else the love we used to share, even with the amount of shit we used to talk about her (no offense ur a good person). I think it is so funny though, even after a year and a half apart, she still knows how to make me want to kill myself. and she does it unknowingly

Hello fellow STEMettes, I’m back! Not that I went away... Every day I had intended to sit down, write or post (those who know, my sister and I are always posting on IG of our adventures). It’s hard to think back now and look upon life during lockdown without me acknowledging the roller-coaster of emotions that I and in fact many of us have experienced. It’s been a tough and anxious one which in many ways has been perfect for my mood shifts. As I commence university which for most can be a wonderful and exciting experience, for me it can bring its own unique challenges. It's natural to feel nervous or overwhelmed and it will take a while before I feel like I've found my feet. I ask myself whether I will be good enough amongst everyone else. I have found that the anxieties for me in most things were of wanting a routine but not finding one. Wanting to make ‘the best of it’, as everyone kept telling me but feeling completely overwhelmed by it. Feeling half shut down. Any advice or top tips fellow STEMettes send them my way. Please don't get me wrong I am excited to start this new chapter in my life - missing my family. I feel a whole mixture of emotions, melted together like marshmallows in hot chocolate. I have missed my STEMettes. One of the amazing things that did emerge from this past year was how resilient we are as human beings, and I think that is worth holding onto. The good news is that the 'Corona' coaster will eventually stop and we will slowly be released from all the constraints of lockdown. Until then it’s important to acknowledge the ride, enjoy the freedoms, and also keep up with some of the things that might have surprised and sustained us. Thank you STEMettes for giving me that 'normal' for being part of my healing and recovery and you didn't even know it. Summer. #offshegoes #postlockdown #postlove #personalpost #appreciation @stemettes https://www.instagram.com/p/CTzgZjToyB6/?utm_medium=tumblr

# #nto número 30 de ser fit jajaja posdata solo fuimos a hacer picnic y comer takis 🥺 jajaja Y dejo una fotito random de Videl Fideos y Merlin Delfino Los amo muchooooo 💕💕 . . . #postlove #couple #couplesgoals #fitcouples #love #gatitos #parejasgoals #goals❤️ #goodvibes #goodvibes #caminantes #montañas #méxico #mexicomagico #montaña #sierradeguadalupe #amor #couplecat #bonito (en 𝓗𝓮𝓪𝓿𝓮𝓷.) https://www.instagram.com/p/CQZS2bojdkb/?utm_medium=tumblr