The Waiting Game
It’s funny how two weeks can seem like an eternity. The only comparison of the time warp of the post IUI two week wait, is when my husband got shot and I was on double duty in the ICU, caring for him. Everything else I have ever done, or waited for, has never dragged on in such a slow motion, as the post IUI 2WW.
It is 5dpiui. At 3 and 4dpiui, I had some cramping. Today, I’ve started some serious fatigue. Great! Maybe I will be lucky again this time. But I feel like I am going completely crazy. Comparing symptoms from my last IUI, this cycle seems like a bust. What if this is all the Crinone’s doing? What if it’s faking me out? Another thought - what if my symptoms were so strong last time because my baby implanted on my ovary and not in my uterus? I didn’t have any symptoms with my first pregnancy until about 5 weeks into my pregnancy, but it was also my first and I had no thought of a possible pregnancy.
This time I have a lot invested emotionally. First pregnancy post ovarian ectopic, and first time I’ve had two follicles. It’s strange sometimes how the mind plays games on you. I went into this treatment with a positive, “let’s do this!” mentality. After the IUI was actually done, I almost cowered from those feelings and became so reserved in my excitement.
9 more days to go. My heart can’t handle another heartache.
