Guys, I don’t know if you have similar problems, but no matter how much I believe in being recovered from Polytoxicomania, I always bounce back. I always find myself craving, and when I do d**** I just basically am starting to develop a new addiction every damn time. It actually doesn’t even matter which substance, I just cant stop. I have moments of self-control, but after their passing, it’s even worse than before. It just sucks because although I have so many moments where I am strong and proud about how far I have come; I suddenly bounce back and do stuff I always regret afterwards, but I just don’t have any control. I am just weak and it sucks because I’m somewhere between wanting to recover and never wantingstop doing drugs because at the end there’s just me and my time here is limited. I actually don’t know how to get over this, I feel pathetic, I need help.
