#poly tw

Polyamory is an extremely big trigger for me due to 2 horribly abusive poly relationships I used to be in and a third poly relationship I was coerced into which turned into them taking advantage of my mental health and both of them threatening to not only post my naked body, but also leak my home address, my credit card information, my families locations, etc. if I tried to leave the relationship. Due to that, seeing those types of dynamics, especially interacting with my personal posts, causes me really intense flashbacks and then I get extremely paranoid that it’s those abusive people coming back to hurt me. I was in therapy for it to try and deal with the paranoia, flashbacks, fear, anger, etc but was unable to continue affording therapy once my daughter was born, so it’s a trigger I’m extremely unable to cope with currently. I don’t hate poly people, but the dynamic itself is horribly terrifying to me and it’s not something I can cope around currently. That’s about as much detail as I can go into without triggering myself. I know a lot of people are curious about this and I may go into better detail one day but please accept that for now, this is all I can handle saying.

me, an intellectual: rad enid and red are all in a poly relationship

I was abused intensely in a poly relationship to the point where the dynamic became a trigger for ptsd flashbacks (ptsd which I’m prof diagnosed with) and it’s something I was working through in therapy but I can’t afford therapy anymore so the trigger isn’t gonna get better for a while.

It’s not really something I feel comfortable discussing online. I’ve only been talking to a therapist about it for a couple months and it’s still really hard for me to discuss. If it is a trigger for you, I hope things get better💕 it’s not easy to deal with but we can get through it

I hope things get better for you too!💕 polyamory is a trigger that’s kind of impossible to avoid but at least online you’ll have people who will respect it even if they don’t understand why it’s a trigger for you. Having respectful people online has honestly helped me with trying to get through this trigger.

I’m not against it. It’s a literal trigger for me. It’s something I’m working on but I’m still not ready for much interaction yet. I know it’s not a common trigger so it’s not exactly the easiest thing for my therapist to help me work through. It takes time.

❣️❣️ I’m glad you feel comfy on my blog! I don’t post much on here anymore but feel free to interact as much as you want! 😌

✨trauma✨ that has caused those dynamics to be extremely triggering to me, although a strange trigger I have no control over what triggers me lol so I just put that there to make my social media account on tumblr to be as much of a safe space for myself as I can. I know not everyone will care about my DNI and interact anyway which is why I don’t EVER check my notifs on here but I keep my DNI in hopes at least some people will respect it and leave my blog alone. My blog isn’t worth following much anyway anymore I don’t rly make my own posts on here much. ((I’m not saying u will disrespect my DNI I rly hope this doesn’t come across rude I just want to explain without having to tell my trauma story bc I’m just not comfy talking about that!!))