#pixie noises

I’ve been dealing with a whole list of mental health conditions since 2010 and while it isn’t like I’m “c u r e d” I definitely have learned to manage some of my symptoms very well. The key is to keep practicing skills and wellbeing even when you’re not at the worst. And when you are at your worst, IT IS OK to ask for help. Also focus on BABY STEPS. Too depressed to leave your bed? That’s ok. It happens. Step one us taking off the covers. Step two is putting your feet on the ground.

Recently I learned about physical triggers- well I knew about them but I didn’t understand how they happened where basically you don’t have an emotional feeling but you body has a physical reaction to a thing

Well yesterday I was in michaels smelling candles (through my mask).

(Keep in mind this is about 4 days after a wisdom tooth extraction in which I had laughing gas as well as valium as well as the twilight shit they put you under with and I hate the dentist. They let me pick the smell of the gas and I said “fuck yeah vanilla”)

So when I went to smell the vanilla candle (aka my favorite scent next to lavender) my knees BUCKLED under me and I almost fainted because apparently my body thought I was going under laughing gas again and said “wooo time to faint”