#phdiary

i have now submitted (first drafts of) TWO CHAPTERS OF THE PHD THESIS!!!!

back in august (the 8th to be precise) i submitted what i thought was a shitty rough draft of the introduction. and my supervisors said it was good enough to start writing another chapter!!

my director of studies (Occult Dad*) specifically said “i find myself nitpicking” which is his adorably wizardly way of saying “it’s good to go”

and now today i have submitted the first rough poopy first draft to my supervisors!!!! so now we know it takes me (roughly) three months including recuperation time to write a chapter!!

do i know how many chapters there will be yet? no! did my supervisors also ask about the total number of chapters? yes! idfk jiggle a magic 8 ball about it!!!! nobody knows!!!! i gotta go back into the data and that will tell me the THEMES and the THEMES will determine the chapters

so if you are a juicy nerd who likes interview snippets and meme data analysis, you are about to be eating so good!!!!!

( @staff I Am Once Again Asking You To send me official numbers on number of users posting to tags relating to Ghost (Sweden Band) so I can know the size of my sample set comparative to the fandom as a whole PLEASE)

the previous two times I went through my data I did it in numerical order (so, starting with Nameless Ghoul 1’s interview and ending at Nameless Ghoul 99) but today I’m trying both line-by-line coding (before, I did incident-to-incident) AND working backwards (from 99-1) to try and see the same data in a new way.

working with the Bible Constructing Grounded Theory by Kathy Charmaz by my side as well as a libguide on using NVIVO from the University of South Florida.

these numbers have been driving me batty and it’s kinda my fault but also kind of not

120 people signed up to interview, but 5 people didn’t show up to their interview and I had to destroy 2 people’s data (one withdrew from the study and one never signed a consent form, which I didn’t notice until coding).

so I have 113 interviews’ worth of data, but the Nameless Ghoul numbers end at 120. this makes things super complex when i’m trying to figure out where i am in the coding process. to add to this confusion, the program i’m using to code (NVIVO) lists numbers annoyingly - see screenshot. i know why it does this but like can a bitch get a break

- Judith Butler, Gender Trouble p. 8

I feel like this is a crux of my argument - that “tomboy,” “enby,” “goth,” “lesbian,” “slut,” or “trans guy” are all, from the perspective of a Christian cultural compulsion, effectively failed woman-states, and Ghost is a unifier for these failed women to celebrate being failed women.

I think I actually ended up interviewing 115 people, but the numbers go up to 120 bc some people were assigned numbers before they withdrew (there's no Nameless Ghoul 63, for example).

I have finished initial coding up to NG65!

if I manage to code 2 a day, on business days only, I'll be done with initial coding Feb 7th.

religious trauma is coming up as a theme WAY more than I originally expected, which is super cool! it also means I need to read more theory loollllll that's a problem for February Rose

the plan as it stands now is to complete initial coding, go back to writing my methodology and lit review chapters, then come back to coding in the spring with "fresh" eyes and do second-round coding. writing my methodology chapter will help prep me for that, I've been reading methodology stuff sort of piecemeal as it comes up.

hi everyone! ^^

to date, 67 queer ghesties have submitted consent forms to be interviewed. holy shit. I had a goal of 100, so we're over halfway, this rules!!!!!

here is some info if you are interested in interviewing or know someone who might be.

I book 10 interviews a month - I have 3 spaces left for July. you have to be 18 to interview.

spaces are first come, first served - when you send me a signed consent form, I send you the link to sign up for an interview time.

interviews are text based, take one hour, and usually take place over tumblr chat, but if tumblr chat is super glitchy for you, I have also done interviews on discord.

the links to the consent form seem to break every now and again. if the link is broken, DM me!

I am going to keep accepting consent forms! the more interviews, the happier I am! I do feel bad that y'all are excited and then I'm like "cool sit on your hands until July" but I am only one person doing her best to juggle a job, hobbies, 4 pets, and a PhD.

other stuff below the cut

IT IS JUNE 18th