16.6.2026
Survived to the other side of 4 days of work in a row! I'm doing surprisingly well but the studying hasn't been done really.. but i have the next 5 days off so it's research mayhem now. Also i've written during the past nights so i should've 'got my fix' on that so i can likely concentrate on just article-making.
Since I can't multitask AT ALL i've made some new guidelines...
one thing at a time seriously! 'days off' for studying only
the children's lit gothic -article is More Urgent than course essay -> that's my focus for the next 5 days (i'll set 30.6 as my personal DL (real 1.8) so i can get it done with and move onto the course essay (DL 31.7). That's sad since i have more interest towards the essay but the article might get into a publication so..
i'm not running out of time. I'm not. That's my brain lying to me
I know i'm at my damn limit when after work it takes 3-4h for my resting pulse to calm down from 90-100.. i perhaps should try to find a job that is not a sensory hellhole. Echoes, loud tiktok music, bright lights, too many people, hot enough for the HR to be concerned (AC doesn't work), beeping, 'the smell of people' which i can't explain but if you know you know, interruptions, loud advertising... Then again i've just managed to start surviving there and get to know everyone and i don't do well with change and jobs are impossible to find atm and.. aaaahhh












