Yesterday had been hard, very hard for me. The beloved store director for my #pestmart location passed away in the night last night. Just out of no where a man I respected and considered a friend was gone. Not since the loss of my Grandmother or my previous pet, Bookem, have I felt such a tearing of my emotions. For three hours straight I was purely in a rage. #depression pushing my feelings to the height of burning wrath, denial and more. I demanded of the gods, why did you take him?! WHY?! WHY NOW?! Why was fate so cruel? I was happier earlier yesterday, I had met my new #endocronologist and he had approved a doubling of my #estrogenpills. It was a big step toward a greater #selfesteem level in my #selfimage to further my self state = #transisbeautiful. Then the loss of my friend hits me. I scream internally asking the gods new and ancient why this happened. Why someone who made my job a #safespace for me to be #outandtrans was now gone. I luckily have a wonderful #workfamily who will be helping with the chaotic transition of the future. Right now, I am reading #queercomics and trying to get myself together. I've joined a few more dating apps to get to know more people. That end of my discovery has been a bit blah. It's annoying but that is where things are right now.. I have been talking to a few people and they seem very promising. They live pretty far north, so I need to set aside some time to attend some events in the future. Today is 342 of my #transition. #transisbeautiful #translesbian #scifilesbian #fantasylesbian #allthelesbians #gaygirl #girlslikeus #geekgay #diaryofatrsnsgirl (at Mount Vernon, Washington)
