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I know I talk about home a bit and how I say your house is my home, but I've come to the realisation that isn't true. Whenever I'm with you is when I feel most at home, no matter where we are, you are my home. Your head on my chest is my idea of a comfortable bed and staying up until early hours of the morning just talking about nothing is my idea of a good night sleep. When I'm with you is when I feel most safe. You keep me safe. I need you so very much. I just wish I could be with you all the time. You have shown me what it means to love life. You are my home. You are my everything. I love you.

Please tell me you'll stay because, Jesus Christ, I need to hear it right now, you have no idea how much the fear of losing you terrifies me. I need you. I need you so so very much. You are the best thing I have ever known. You have no fucking clue how much I love you. How much I need you. And the fact that you could just leave whenever you get sick of me scares me to death. I know you say you won't but I feel as though eventually I'll get too much for you and you won't know what to do so you'll just up and leave. And if it ever does come to that I don't know what I'll do. Holy fuck, you're so special to me. I need you to live, to me you are more important than oxygen and I know that is fucking stupid but, that's how I feel. To me, you are more addicting than the nicotine in my cigarettes. I crave your affection, your attention, your very being. I'm so sorry I'm such a jealous cunt. I really am, but you're just so perfect in my eyes and I feel like everyone else is better than me and I don't want you to realise that. That's why I get so jealous when other people talk to you, you have no idea how lovely you really are and that upsets me because you are so fucking perfect, I would kill for you to see that, you don't even know how upset I get when you put yourself down, it actually hurts me to think that someone as wonderful as you could ever think bad of yourself. You are so perfect. So so so perfect, I need you in my life, you keep me sane, if it weren't for you I would've been dead so long ago. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you.