#personalbree

Yesterday marked the day I left the store I've been working at for 12 years. Insane. I'm going to another store to better my options in moving up and proving myself. Leaving that store was sad but such a weight lifted off my shoulders.

Today marks the day I officially went out and did something with my sister since we were kids. She got to meet my other half along the way. It was fun and not nerve wrecking. She's grown up a lot. It is nice to see she's still the same but grown. Today was a great night.

Really? A court trial? I thought I could keep our friendship but once you're gone, I am so done. I have done nothing but be nice and you've done nothing but be a complete prick. You're only nice when you want something. Fuck off.

I have gone through a lot of stress within the last year in a half. I have overcame and failed at things. I have struggled with money so hard, to the point where if I didn't work at McDonald's and got free food (due to the kindness of my employees) I would of starved. I have conquered a lot of drama and bullshit that went around for a few months. Hell, I even lost some friends over the past year. I have learned so much as well. Next month, my life will be changing. A roomate of mine is moving out and a previous roomate of mine is moving back in (claps). I will be manager at McDonald's. I am getting closer to getting my Bachelor's Degree. I plan on getting a car from an actual dealership. I also plan on investing into a cell phone. I have so many things I want to do at once. It's all there in my head but the action is what's hard. I have came to a realization that life won't alter with you, you have to let it flow with you. If not, you overwork yourself, overstress, let too much shit get to your head, and most of all, be too kind when it shouldn't be needed.....I have helped so many of my friends and I'm barley even friends with them anymore, but I've learned it's for the best. It wasn't a waste of time, it was a good deed done and I am okay with that no matter how much the person dosen't appreciate/see what I did for him/her. A lot of the time I stress myself out, a lot, too much. I dislike not having money for emergency purposes and it stresses me out considering I need money to keep a roof over my head. I feel like this last year, I have aged 10 years. I have became wiser with my decisions. friends, work area, and education. I have learned so much, good and bad. And for that, I am thankful. I don't really know what this text post was suppose to be about, just some stuff I wanted to type out.

Because really, how far will a college degree get me in life? How many years of repaying at least 100,000 dollars of debt? It takes at least eight years to become a psychiatrist. With the cost of obtaining just a minor degree and then going to medical school on top of that followed by graduate school, I'll be paying back student loans until I'm sixty. I've just been pondering on that for a while. Does attending and graduating from college play a significant enough role in how successful you will become? 

The one day I didn't cheat on my diet, my dad walks through the door with enough Chinese food to feed a village 😒