i feel like this week i am just going to need time to lose my shit. i want to keep myself busy and scheduled and functioning but everything has been feeling really amplified lately, and i think i've been ignoring some of my emotions while i've been focused on trying do well in managing my emotions instead of feeling them.
maybe with the time off i can do some painting, i did some drawing earlier today with a friend and that was nice.
i've been so focused on making it through the day for so much of my time lately that i've really really been disconnected from myself. the problem is i don't know how much i can address (feelings-wise) before i begin to spiral, which is always in the back of my mind when shelving anything away.
this is why my therapist shouldnt go on vacation lmfao
