#personal text posts

Positivity time! This one's for all the ladies out there struggling with their bodies.

Body dysmorphia causes changes to visual areas of the brain. Your brain is literally lying to you. You are hallucinating. No, seriously. This is SO SO IMPORTANT. Look, if you have an ED then chances are, you may very well have legitimate body dysmorphic disorder. Your brain may be warping and distorting the image in the mirror. It's why everyone around you keeps saying how thin you are, but all you can see in the mirror is flab. It's a neurophysiological thing. (Most of the literature on BDD seems to pertain to cases regarding the patient's facial features or similar, rather than in the context of body size in ED patients, though.)

One binge won't undo your progress. Everyone fucks up sometimes. Don't dwell, don't ruminate, just pick yourself up the next day and keep going! This applies to "binges" in the proper clinical sense, as well as 4n4 "binges" that are more aptly described as simply "overeating." I occasionally will give myself a "free day" once a month or so, or if it's a holiday or something.

If you fast and restrict, take a good multivitamin, plus a calcium supplement! I also take thiamine to be safe. Being thin and undereating are associated with osteoporosis risk later in life, so calcium is a must! You need to make sure you're getting all of the critical micronutrients your body needs to function.

Exercise, especially cardio, helps with dopamine regulation. I have industrial strength ADHD-PI, ymmv. I also find that exercise bike, walking, or even pacing constantly = STIMMY STIMMY STIM TIME STIMS, MUST STIM, MORE STIM, CANNOT BE STILL, FUCK YOUR QUIET HANDS. Again, ymmv, fuck quiet hands, all my ND homies hate quiet hands.

Strengthening/resistance exercises help prevent osteoporosis later in life. 20-30 minutes 3-5x/week of yoga or pilates is great for this!

THC gummies are pretty low calorie. Shoutout to drugs other than alcohol for not having calories! (I use cannabis and hallucinogens, not big on hard drugs though.)

If you do drink, there are low cal options, but please moderate and try to follow CDC guidelines and avoid frequent binge drinking!! Guys, susceptibility to addiction runs in families. Also, struggling with impulse control aspects of binging may cooccur sometimes with susceptibility to alcohol abuse and addiction. I like vodka with diet tonic water, gin and tonic with diet tonic water, and vodka cosmos with diet 5 cal cranberrry "juice!" White Claw and similar hard seltzers are also great. Personally, I avoid drinking alone, don't drink all that often, and take care to be responsible and cautious. Ymmv, especially if you're still in early adulthood and just now starting to really experiment with substances!

When you do eat, make sure to get enough protein and fats! Carbs, you can take or leave. No one ever died from lack of carbohydrates, oddly enough. Protein and fat, though? I've had seizures due to low blood protein (combined with an accidental double dose of bupropion, to be fair). Rabbit starvation is a thing. This is especially important to pay attention to if you're vegetarian or vegan! Egg whites, chicken, tuna and other fish, olives, chickpeas, nuts, and beans are all good low calorie sources of protein and fats. (Olives, legumes, and especially nuts are energy dense though, so moderation is key.)

Enjoy the nice, healthy, low calorie foods that you do eat. It's okay to enjoy food, even if it's safe foods like light salads or cauliflower rice with vegetables.

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I think my only complaint is the glasses since the bunker scene in the first movie really made it seem like he can't see very well without them. Everything else, 100% spot-on

OH wow, tHANK YOU, I honestly wasn’t sure if I’d get anyone else agreeing with me on this (aside from my drift partner, @baldwinboy5ive, of course), but of course, that’s silly and hipster of me. 

I know exactly what I want to tell but idk how to start it.......haha.......ok, i just wanna share some things about my “dukun” ( Indonesian word for people who work as shaman, witch, psychic, paranormal ) job. It’s always hard every time i have to bring sex things up with clients. Sex is still consider taboo here, even more taboo for women. Yeah ofc people here often say about gender equality but it’s still not really equal until now. I have experienced some male clients said to me “ hey if you marry me, you don’t have to be dukun anymore “ as if i’m working as “dukun” just because of money. Yes i need money but i can marry a billionaire and still wanna be a “dukun.” And worse, many guys even try to ‘investigate’ if my “dukun” job is actually just a cover up for professional sex worker *facepalm*

It’s not because there are female “dukun” proven to be professional sex workers in disguise, but because people here tend to be negatively suspicious when a woman works by her own, not working in office or become employee. As if women are incapable to work by her own. People will find it ok when it’s male “dukun,” but not the same when it’s female. The struggle is harder for female to prove herself. 

Ok back to the taboo sex things.....since i find it hard to bring it up with clients, so most of the time i just keep silent about it. Like today, i had a male client who asked for divination and then asked for his health. To detect health, i don’t use tarot or crystal ball etc, i check on client’s fingertips with my own fingertips. That way will be more accurate. it’s the technique dad told me. And then i found he was actually in good shape except he probably doesn’t release his sexual needs as much as he should. Wow, even when i typed it, i think it sounded like something i shouldn’t type. So i said ‘ do you often get headache ? it’s just some sort of stress, nothing to be worried about, you’re in good shape.” He said yes he often gets headache and he said he works as ship crew, and months at the ocean could be depressing sometimes.