"Generational Trauma"

Cue someone spending half an hour obsessively listing parts and the tarot cards that would best represent them and leaving me with a migraine from other parts getting sick over the idea of sensing that and/or the use of tarot cards as a system

Some parts are grumpy and/or embarrassed to be sitting here holding the plush because of bullying and abuse surrounding us having plushies at an older than "acceptable" age.

But the kids are happy.

Did someone text the wrong number or have I just forgotten them because "I" never met them?

And when the skill loss is combined with a job AND someone's special interest to the point that it's basically Their Thing? It's so incredibly frustrating.

We are a professional dog trainer. Dog Training and animal behavior is someone's special interest. But we don't know who's specifically and whoever it is they don't seem to fully front or if they do it isn't often. But we didn't begin to realize it was someone specific in the system until a month or so ago. And we didn't want to accept that was the case but clearly it is.

Without them around whoever is at front has much more basic knowledge. There's no emotional connection to dog training as a job. Even reading the training plans isn't helpful because whoever is trying to do the training has no connection to the training plan. It just doesn't work. We don't really want to listen to their favorite dog training podcasts because no one else has that connection. We even forget there's a freaking business to keep up because it's not ours it's theirs. But they aren't around and we don't know who it is. This is so incredibly frustrating.