#personal responses

I dont know enough people, so anyone who wants can reblog with their own answers!

Last Song: Gold, Guns, Girls by METRIC because Nemona my beloved

Favourite colour: Deep Purple or Blue

Latest film / TV show: Been watching Percy Jackson, Master Chef & Dr. Who with dreamsrunfaster

Sweet/Spicy/Savory: Umami is the best flavour, fight me. Like, I have a sweet tooth and my spice tolerance isn't embarrassingly bad, but I go feral for savory goodness.

Last Google: Manual for a vacuum cleaner (my life is extremely exciting).

I don't talk about my own sexuality that much though I also am not ashamed of it or do I hide it. I am personally poly and have in the past wrote several poly fics. Threesomes are not always poly and poly does not always mean multiples in a sexual setting.

When you are in a poly relationship that relationship isn't usually focused on a single person in that relationship. Everyone in that relationship is there for a reason. I hope you can understand where I am coming from with this explanation.

I do not write any of my fics with any intention to suggest they are more than fiction. I write these fics for myself and with the hope that there will be someone you will enjoy reading them. I write not only for afab readers but hoping that something I write might be enjoyed by gn readers and perhaps amab readers depending on the content.

Are you happy?

What is one little thing that brightens your day?

Hey Nonnie!

Thank you for your interesting questions!

To answer your first question, honestly, yeah, I'm very happy. I may not be all day, or like, every day, but generally speaking, I am. Haha, am I getting this question because I write a lot of angst? C'monnn...I always leave off with a happy/hopeful ending! haha. But seriously, I've come a long way in taking care of my mental health and wellbeing, especially with the impact that the lock-ins and isolation had on my anxiety during the peak periods of the pandemic. Also, I recently moved from the UK to the US and things improved dramatically in my personal life. I do miss London, my friends and family out there, but I knew I'd be happier surrounded by my immediate family and people who encourage me to be myself, no matter what mood I'm in, here in the States. I have a lot to be thankful for and I think about that every day. Life is too short for me to be unhappy or be in a position where I feel trapped or lonely, so I'm dedicated to ensuring my happiness in any way possible. This is a privilege I don't take lightly.

And here's a wee big somebody that brightens my day every single day! Here is my gorgeous baby boy and Whippet, Mr Rupert!!! He'll be two years old on 25 September. He is absolute perfection, my pride and joy, my son. I love him very much and he makes my days fun and wonderful.

I didnt dive too deep into those lines, it felt too personal. Like it came from somewhere in his mind I'm not supposed to be seeing. I'd say the entire song feels a bit like that for me, but especially those four lines.

That’s interesting, that you felt discomfort. The song has a starkness to it in its expression of being in a certain place psychologically or spiritually Windowsill sort of provoked the same response in me. It’s really this dark exploration of a toxic relationship sort of disguised as a sex song.

But tell me more about this discomfort, P. 🤔

Thank you!  

Do I like the Warboys more than I like the Vuvalini? No. I like them both.

It's just that the Vuvalini are what I hope to be someday. They are inspirational and aspirational. They aren't what I am now, but what I hope to be: calm, brave, self-possessed, strong alone or in community, supporting one another, defending other women, keepers of memory but not mired in nostalgia, wise, clever, mysterious without being mystifying. They’re like wasteland saints.

They are what I want to be when I grow up.

The Warboys make me remember what it was like to be a kid and a teenager, to go rampaging around with a pack of friends, to scuffle and argue and fight, to dare each other to do dangerous things, to show off, to prove that you were the best and the fastest and the strongest and the bravest, to go fast--so fast, faster than anyone has gone before, just screaming down that hill. That's all still in me. That's still who I am.

I know I'm not "supposed" to like the Warboys--toxic masculinity and white male power and violence and oppression and withholding of resources and deathcults and war and everything else they represent. They’re the villains, after all. I understand that. And I won't argue the symbolism or narrative significance therein for a second.

But right now in my life, I'm balanced between these two points (which are different but not wholly dissimilar). And I'm aspiring towards one, but still close to the other.

It's not that I like one set of characters more than the other.