#personal ish?

I don’t want to read ANY SJM.

*this is going to be a long, honest post. i only ask that you read through it all, and try to put yourself in my shoes before you respond to it.

with so much news of recent plagiarism and being stolen from myself, i’m honestly now apprehensive to put anything on this blog that i might potentially want to turn into something more than just a fanfic. NO ONE SHOULD BE REPOSTING MY FICS AT ALL, REGARDLESS OF CREDIT, but as of right now, there are no tangible consequences for this thievery, especially not on websites that are more likely FLOODED with stolen works, like Wattpad. not to mention, chaptered pieces are HARD for me to write. i work full time, most of the time more than 40 hours a week, and i’m consistently on call until 2-3 in the morning, every. single. night. 

if i’m going to be killing myself to create something so dear and important to me, i don’t want it being ripped off.

i’m also a little disappointed in the amount of feedback i’ve gotten recently. let me explain this really quick.

i do not write to get notes. i write because i love to write, and if i didn’t, i wouldn’t do it. writing and maintaining this blog, as well as my patreon now, takes up a huge chunk of my time and my personal and social life suffer dearly in result. i write at work, i write at home, there isn’t a time i’m not working on SOMETHING. but, usually i don’t mind at all. i live inside the worlds i create in my mind and express via these stories and i enjoy them. i do this because i love to. i don’t want a ton of likes and reblogs, and i won’t stop writing even if i don’t get them. this is not me begging for notes. this is not me scolding my readers for not giving me notes. notes do not equal happiness to me.

reblogs are loved, because it helps to reach other people with similar interests to my readers that may not follow me, but i do know and respect that there are plenty of users on tumblr who don’t reblog fanfiction to their account, and i cannot blame you for that at all. it’s your blog, and you reblog whatever you want. i appreciate every single reblog i get, because it opens up another door to more audiences, so thank you to all my readers that reblog my works!!

however, if you read my pieces, feedback is so important to me. beyond likes, beyond reblogs, feedback is key. a reply to the fic or even in my ask, i don’t mind if it’s anonymous or not. when writers don’t get feedback, they begin to lose confidence in their writing, at least i do, and ever since feedback has drastically dropped on this account, i’ve been feeling more and more down about my writing and the quality of it.

if you like something about the piece, tell me! even if it’s a keyboard smash or a reaction gif, i still love to see how my writing made you feel. you don’t have to go into a three paragraph essay about it, i’m content with very simple feedback as well as complex. i love it all.

that was only a very short segment of this post. i really wanted to talk about my chaptered fics. mostly, WET, Bullets for Bucky, and To the Death.

i’m going to be moving these pieces to my patreon, as well as any other pieces longer than 5 parts. i know this is going to upset plenty of people, because so many of you love some of these titles, and i love you for loving them! upsetting you or taking these works away from you is not my intention. i don’t want you to feel like i’m being unfair, or hate me for moving them somewhere a bit more secure. having them as patreon exclusives does give me a bit of relief knowing that not any random person can copy and paste them into their own accounts. these are my stories, with worlds i’ve created, and i don’t want to lose them. however, i’ve given it A LOT of thought, and i think that this blog should be one shots/mini series only. let’s not forget about my requests list, that is at least 2 miles long.

i pour my heart into writing chaptered works, and they are exhausting to do, especially when i am constantly working as well. 

the mentioned works will be continued, but they will patreon exclusives. i did make another tier in my patreon specifically for chaptered fics, for $5 a month. which, by all accounts, is a completely fair rate in my opinion. if anything, it’s cheap considering how much effort i put into these pieces. 

i know not everyone has the financial stability to pledge, and trust me, i get it. i love you all anyways, and i hope you can understand why i’m doing this as well. if you pledge, thank you so much and i hope to bring you not only conclusions to the pieces you pledge for, but brand new, exciting works in the future that will make you happy that you decided to support me. 

if you cannot pledge, then your support via reading my free pieces on tumblr is still very much loved and appreciated! <3