Got me thinking about how life might have been different if it was diagnosed while I was a kid. But I can’t blame the doctors. It wasn’t well known back then.

Right now I’m on a very strict no-histamine diet. And I feel better. I am not bloated anymore. My skin doesn’t randomly break out, no more PAIN after eating. I was so used to all this that it’s kinda surreal for me to go days without any issues. 

a/Age - 21 b/Biggest fear - losing my eyesight / limbs c/Current time - 9:06 PM d/Drink you had last - water e/Every day starts with - sleeping past my alarm ;w; g/Ghosts are real? - maybe!! h/Hometown - near Budapest (Hungary) i/In love with - the entirity of VIXX tbh *starts singing Single Ladies* j/Jealous of - Hakyeon for being a prettier girl than I’ll ever be k/Killed someone - NAH l/Last time you cried - hmmm two weeks ago if i remember right m/Middle name - Ildi is my middle name! :3 it’s short for Ildikó n/Number of siblings - 1 o/One wish - To be able to spread positivity to everyone, be it near or far from where I am <3 p/Person you last called/texted - Rica ;w; also my friend Rózsa r/Reasons to smile - clouds, colors, bubbles, cute animals, VIXX, friends, sunrise, sunset, flowers, food, music...... so many things!! s/Song last sang - Fxxk It by BigBang hhhhhhhh u/Underwear colour - purple-gray / dark gray striped! :D v/Vacation destination - Italy (TwT) [i’d say Korea but that’s too obv hhh] w/Worst habit - getting upset over small things T T x/Xrays you’ve had - teeth, chest, ankle, arm?? maybe??, throat y/Your favorite food - fried chicken!! salads!!!! pizza!!!!! z/Zodiac sign - Gemini

I haven’t been very active here lately. Due to my mental health I’ve lost interest in many of the things I used to love. Like Once Upon a Time and Captain Swan, I’ve had a long period when it didn’t interest me at all, but it wasn’t just that, it was all of the shows I’m watching, all the ships and characters that I love in all the fandoms. I’ve fallen out. 

I’ve been stuck with anxiety and I’ve gotten to the point where I’m depressed as well, where I can’t see an end to it and feel hopeless that I’ll ever live a normal life without worrying about everything, sleeping a lot of the time and being tired the rest of the time. Lately I haven’t been to any lectures at uni, I’ve been staying home instead. I tried studying but my head wasn’t in it, I’ve lost all motivation. But then I started rewatching Once Upon a Time. I cried through the sad moments, smiled and laughed through the happy moments, squealed everytime CS has a scene, and it has lit a fire in me again, a good fire. Like hope. I know no one is probably reading this since I’ve lost many of my followers during my time away, and the rest are probably inactive and/or don’t remember me.

I thought that if I logged back into this account I would find it basically dead, but you guys are keeping this blog alive. I honestly am so touched that my art is still circling around and my heart is metaphorically bursting from rainbows!!

I know I’ve been very quiet here and in general, but in fact I’m getting my HiJack inspiration back and am working on some stuff. Very slowly, because my arm is killing me (what’s new really), but nevertheless working. No promises on ‘when’s because those always bit me in the butt in the past, this is more like a head’s up. :>

This is for everyone that liked and reblogged my fanartwork in these past years, months, days. I appreciate every single one of you with all of my soul. You make me want to share my work again and I am so so thankful to you. Thank you. ♥ ♥ ♥

Here is a wip as a chip of my thanks! This is the pose in which I think dreamily about how wonderful you all are.