#persehone

She put a finger under my chin forcing me to look up. "First off never apologize for having feelings. You can't control the way you feel and you should never feel bad about that. Having feelings make you human, it makes you real." She wrapped me into a hug, it was comforting. Slowly I was starting to calm down. "You're not weak Eurydice, you never will be. You're one of the strongest people I know. You have been through so much and you are getting so many memories back all at once, it's a lot to take it. You are experiencing so many emotions at one it's overwhelming. When things calm back down you will see that. You're never gonna go back to who you used to be fully. You're gonna come back stronger with a different outlook on life."

Her words were so convincing I felt hope blooming in my chest. I felt this rush of strength come through me. I could do this. I am going to be a better person after that. I am going to be better for him. "I can do this!" She just smiled brightly at me and tapped her finger on my nose. "I think I am ready to tackle tonight's memory. No matter how tough it is I know I am stronger now." She just wrapped me into a tight hug and bid me good luck.

I went and prepared the tea as I hummed the song my poet used to sing. He was the perfect human being truly. I can't wait until I can go home and be wrapped in his arms again. I want to hear him call me beautiful, caress me, and just love me all over again. Everything about him keeps me going. I hope everything with him is going okay up top. I know Persephone told me at the beginning that he wasn't doing too well but she said when she left that he was doing better. I worry for him though. He has such a big heart; I can only imagine what my absence is doing to him.

Orpheus and I were at work. I couldn't be more grateful for Hermes allowing me to work here at the bar. At first, I was really worried he wouldn't allow me to. When I first met him I was terrified of him honestly. He was so full of wisdom and knowledge that I thought I was too inferior to be in his presence. Since I have been with Orpheus, Hermes has become a sort of father figure to me. I could always trust him to give me counsel when I need.

Orpheus has been cleaning tables as I tended the bar. We would always find times to sneak glances at each other. He makes me beyond happy. I hadn't realized that I dazed out until I felt arms wrap around my midsection. He placed a kiss on my cheek and whispered in my ear, "Let's go upstairs."

Looking around I saw that the bar was empty and the lights had been turned off. Nodding my head, I let him lead me upstairs. "Did we close early?" Normally we wouldn't be off for a few more hours but we are done now. Looking out the window I saw dark clouds rolling in.

Orpheus explained that there was a storm rolling in so Hermes decided to close early. I told him that I would prepare us something to eat and he said he was gonna work on the song while he waited. Walking into the kitchen I saw that we were running super low on food. I barely had enough to whip up something small while I listened to him sing. The food we had was only enough for one plate. I should give it to him, he's working so hard to fix things. I brought him the plate and kissed him on the cheek. "Did you already eat? I thought we were going to eat together."

Oh, shoot. I don't eat a lot because he deserves more of our food. He gets suspicions when I only bring him a plate. Normally I am really good at saying that I already ate but for some reason right now it seemed too hard to lie. "Yeah," I rushed out. Before he could respond I cut him off, "I need to run to the market to get us more food. If there is a storm coming on we need to be prepared."

He raised an eyebrow at me as if he knew that I was lying. "Do you want me to go with you?" I just shook my head at him and gave him a quick kiss on the cheek. He grabbed my wrist and pulled me back to him. "You're not leaving without giving me a proper kiss." Smiling at the poet I grabbed his face and gave him a proper kiss. I pulled away and he rested his forehead on mine, "Be careful." His voice was quiet.

I grabbed my coat and waved goodbye to Orpheus. He gave me his award-winning smile before saying goodbye. The wind outside was bitter. It cut through the ratty coat I had like it was nothing. The clouds above were getting darker and darker with each step I took. My body was starting to feel weak but I know I have to keep pushing. Orpheus is depending on me to bring home food.

I had just finished at the market when the snow began to fall. It was falling in heavy blankets making it difficult to see. The wind had picked up making it even colder. It felt like my coat wasn't even on. The lack of food was making me feel like I could pass out at any minute. The only thing keeping me going was the image of my Orpheus.

Suddenly I felt that someone was tugging at my backpack. Behind me, one of the Fates had pulled my backpack away. I yanked it away from her. "Give that back!" She just shot me a sinister smile. I turned to continue going but another Fate ripped the bag right out of my hands. "It's everything we have!" They just laughed at me.

The storm around me had gotten worse. I couldn't see anything anymore the snow was blowing so badly. My sense of direction was gone. I was lost. The fates started pulling at my jacket. "Orpheus!" I screamed out for my poet. I have no clue where I am but I hope he can hear me. They were successful in ripping off my coat and they retreated to the shadows. I screamed his name again but there was nothing.

My body collapsed onto the freezing ground. I was too weak. I wasn't gonna make it home. Orpheus please find me. "Hey, little songbird," a deep voice said from behind me. Turning I saw an older gentleman in a dark suit and dark glasses. He asked me to sing him a song and while I was beyond weak I wanted to do nothing more than do what he asked.

I clutched my flower in my hand as this man offered me a choice. He was offering me food, shelter but it came at a price. Orpheus hasn't found me; he won't find me. This man instilled so many fears about my future with Orpheus that the offer was becoming more and more enticing. He held out two coins, "What is it?" I slowly approached the coins, their shine calling to me.

"Your ticket," he said with a smirk. The coins were dropped into my hand and he disappeared. Was I really considering leaving behind the poet? I don't want to but maybe it's for the better. I am only taking away resources from Orpheus. He'll be better off without me, right?

My stomach grumbled loudly. Hades is offering me food, warmth and right now that sound like a dream Out here in this snowstorm with no food in my stomach, do I have a choice? I started to cry when I realized that I only had once choice. The path to the train station became clear to me in the storm.

"Orpheus, my heart is yours, always was and will be," I mumbled on my way to the platform. Part of me prayed he heard me and is coming to stop me. "Oh my heart it aches to stay but the flesh will have its way. Oh, the way is dark and long. I'm already gone." Hermes stood on the platform with sad eyes. I felt ashamed to be handing him the chips. He just gave me a sad smile and directed me to the train. "I'm gone," I whispered one last time before the doors started to shut. I threw Hermes my flower hoping he gave it to Orpheus.