sorry if publishing this publicly bothers you but i really canât in all good conscience comfortably answer you privately about this. iâm sorry, i am, and i donât do it to spite you or dee so i ask you to please understand that. thank you!
â...she told about what happened within last 12 hours...â
iâm tired of this. i am so, so tired. i can already tell that sheâs lied to you about what happened and painted us as these awful people who do nothing but stalk her and bully her even though itâs not true and you believe her because youâre her boyfriend. have you ever once, whether it be because of curiosity or whatever else, read through my tag for her? read her callouts? anything? have you not seen the horrible, vicious things sheâs said to me and my friends? do you just not care? iâm not telling you to drop her or dump her anything so please donât take away from this that i am. how can you trust that what she told you is accurate when she deleted all the posts? why donât you take a look in my tag for her and read them all so you can see what actually happened?
do you know what happened to us the first time we dropped everything and left her alone? she literally instigated a fight. she came back from alpine and deliberately namedropped me looking to start something. i left her alone for weeks after that and what did she do? vague about us on her blog nonstop. lie about us to people weâve never met. keep in mind that this was a literal year in which we did not speak to her or mention her/vague her, and she immediately came back from alpine looking to start a fight with me and my friends for calling her an abuser in the past.
in doing so, she managed to demonstrate even more abusive behavior, such as: deadnaming a trans person and calling them âitâ even though calling a trans person âitâ unless they use it/itself pronouns is incredibly dehumanizing, when told to stop defended doing so by saying she didnât see said trans person as a human being (yikes!), making fun of a trans personâs identity, talking down to an autistic person and wishing harm on their service animal to deliberately trigger them on top of policing how they choose to cope with their past abuse by comparing them to their sexual abuser, making bestiality jokes about said autistic personâs service animal (and if shadeâs word isnât good enough i saw what peach said as well as madama and danny) on top of various other things!Â
âI ask you, no I BEG you and your friends to stop targeting Peach.â
you talk about us âtargetingâ her like we didnât just leave her alone for a full year and she refused to drop things by repeatedly namedropping us and vaguing us on top of lying about what happened to multiple people? like she didnât just attack shade and make them relapse and self-harm for absolutely no reason? how is that not targeting us? if she wanted this to be over i told her what she had to do and i was super clear, but iâll say it again:
give a real apology to everyone you abused that you actually mean, not just a fake one you give just to get us to stop calling you out
in said apology, own up to the things you did so you can be held accountable for your actions and admit they were wrong genuinely
learn from your actions and this whole scenario.
stop calling us abusers behind our backs to your friends/rp partners just because you think we wonât find out. stop lying about what happened to paint yourself as a victim who did no wrong and us as bad guys. iâm not going to say my friends and i havenât made mistakes in our approach to you and that we did no wrong but lying and saying we abused you despite you having instigated everything is not right.
stop misgendering people, stop wishing death and harm upon people, stop calling people slurs, stop knowingly doing all these bad things (including being ableist and transphobic) and when told you did something wrong refusing to apologize and shrugging off the blame. you need to own up to your mistakes and learn from them to be a better person so they donât keep happening.
thatâs literally all she ever had to do. itâs what iâve been telling her right from the beginning and for almost 3 years now. iâve told her the same thing multiple times and every single time i do she either ignores my post, says âyouâll never be satisfied :// i donât know what you wantâ despite me telling her this multiple times, or gives an apology she doesnât mean and then immediately proves she didnât mean it. which is what she did, by the way: gave incredibly vague apologies to both shade and madama and when the three of us told her that she wasnât really owning up to anything she did she acted like this whole time weâre ânot letting things goâ and âharassing herâ somehow by repeatedly reblogging her posts solely to tell her to stop lying and vaguing about us.Â
â...She is ready to let all the negative matters that have happened to her by anon hate go by without anyone needing to apologise. And I am aware that she has tried to apologise to you and your friends before, but she is no longer able to, since she feels that it would be a wasted effort no matter what. âÂ
yea, of course. you want to know why? because she doesnât want to actually own up to anything sheâs done. she doesnât want to have to give anyone apologies that actually mean something. sheâs never once apologized to any of us and meant it, and we can easily tell when she âapologizesâ and then 10 minutes later starts making posts about how bad we are for âharassingâ her. she apologizes and yet still somehow canât stop lying about what happened on both her blog and to other people on skype. your girlfriend doesnât want to be held accountable for her actions because she doesnât think she did anything wrong - thatâs why sheâs saying she wants this to be over âwithout anyone needing to apologize.â
you want to know how i know, by the way? because sheâs done this whole âgiving a fake apology and not meaning it to get out of the consequencesâ thing before. many, many, many, many, many, many, many, many times. (and those are on top of the two fake ones she gave today that she immediately went back on.)
iâve personally apologized to her many times for multiple things - for the initial callout (and again and again and again) for being too aggressive in my initial handling of the manner (i canât find this one off the top of my head but i know itâs in the gem tag somewhere), on top of other things - for years.
"So, I ask you and all of your friends generously to forget about her, since hasn't she already suffered enough to cover what she had done to you and your friends?âÂ
okay. i...where do i start with this? when has she suffered because of us that she didnât instigate herself? nobody started anything with her until she started vaguing, lying to people to make herself look good and us look like bullies (perhaps consider that sheâs doing this to you as well? just a thought), harassing people for no reason other than to start a fight, on top of all the abusive behavior i linked you to above. thereâs even more i didnât link thatâs just sitting in my tag, waiting to be read. iâll even give you a link to it chronologically so you can read it in the order it happened. weâd all drop things if she just...did as i said above, at the very least stop lying about what happened to call us abusers? but she wonât do that. if we drop things and stop pursuing her sheâs just going to waltz away from this and tell everyone that we stalked her and harassed her and ruined her whole life even when none of that is true - because she thinks that she somehow needs âvengeanceâ for her name being tarnished despite the fact that sheâs been putting us through hell for years. we all just want her to apologize to everyone, mean her apology, stop lying, and leave us alone. thatâs literally all she has to do and all she ever had to do. she chooses not to do so because she doesnât think sheâs done anything wrong and doesnât want to âlower herselfâ to apologize, grow as a person, and stop everything.
âI understand it is a lot to ask from us, but please, try to understand the pain she is going through at this very moment.â
okay, i can understand that...but, uhm, what about the pain that sheâs constantly putting us through? is that not important? iâm not at all trying to say our pain is more important than hers or that hers does not matter, but if weâre to acknowledge how she feels why wonât she acknowledge how we feel as well? what about the fact that she caused shade to relapse and attempt suicide and be wholly miserable? what about the fact that sheâs caused danny so much stress that he constantly has breakdowns and fits of paranoia, on top of physical sickness, chronic pain, and stomach issues? what about the fact that every time she does something like this i get physically sick and unable to eat, on top of it exacerbating my issues with paranoia and depression? thereâs so, so much more for me to add but i donât really know how else shade, danny, and madama are hurting - i can only say what i recall. shade, danny, and i were all in really low points of our lives and recovering from past events unrelated to her when she decided it would be a great time to vague us for attention and start fights. weâre hurting too. again: our pain is not greater than hers but itâs really not at all fair to ask us to somehow absolve her of all the hurt she caused us solely because she is hurting when she isnât willing to acknowledge how badly sheâs hurt us at all?
âI don't care that how will you see me at this moment, but please honor our request. So I beg you to ask your friends and followers to stop this. Thank you.â
while i would completely love to do as you have requested...i cant. sorry. you ask me - you ask all of us, in fact - to completely ignore all the pain and suffering she put us through because sheâs hurting, as if we arenât as well because of her? if she would just do as asked and give a genuine apology and then leave us alone and just stop lying and vaguing and calling us abusers because we had the audacity to call her out for all the vile, abusive stuff sheâs done all of this would be over and nobody would bother her. however, she isnât willing to do that because she doesnât think sheâs done anything wrong. sheâd much rather change her url and remake every so often to avoid the consequences of what sheâs done along with the judgement of others who know what truly happened and not her frequent lies. sheâd much rather continue lying and playing the victim to âget us backâ for...what, exactly? calling her out for abuse? asking her to stop lying to other people? asking her to stop vaguing and namedropping us? asking her to just leave us alone? all of the above?
i donât really think thatâs fair to any of the people sheâs abused and hurt. sorry.
