#eternalobserver

👽 - Abducting my muse.

sorry if publishing this publicly bothers you but i really can’t in all good conscience comfortably answer you privately about this. i’m sorry, i am, and i don’t do it to spite you or dee so i ask you to please understand that. thank you!

“...she told about what happened within last 12 hours...”

i’m tired of this. i am so, so tired. i can already tell that she’s lied to you about what happened and painted us as these awful people who do nothing but stalk her and bully her even though it’s not true and you believe her because you’re her boyfriend. have you ever once, whether it be because of curiosity or whatever else, read through my tag for her? read her callouts? anything? have you not seen the horrible, vicious things she’s said to me and my friends? do you just not care? i’m not telling you to drop her or dump her anything so please don’t take away from this that i am. how can you trust that what she told you is accurate when she deleted all the posts? why don’t you take a look in my tag for her and read them all so you can see what actually happened?

do you know what happened to us the first time we dropped everything and left her alone? she literally instigated a fight. she came back from alpine and deliberately namedropped me looking to start something. i left her alone for weeks after that and what did she do? vague about us on her blog nonstop. lie about us to people we’ve never met. keep in mind that this was a literal year in which we did not speak to her or mention her/vague her, and she immediately came back from alpine looking to start a fight with me and my friends for calling her an abuser in the past.

in doing so, she managed to demonstrate even more abusive behavior, such as: deadnaming a trans person and calling them “it” even though calling a trans person “it” unless they use it/itself pronouns is incredibly dehumanizing, when told to stop defended doing so by saying she didn’t see said trans person as a human being (yikes!), making fun of a trans person’s identity, talking down to an autistic person and wishing harm on their service animal to deliberately trigger them on top of policing how they choose to cope with their past abuse by comparing them to their sexual abuser, making bestiality jokes about said autistic person’s service animal (and if shade’s word isn’t good enough i saw what peach said as well as madama and danny) on top of various other things! 

“I ask you, no I BEG you and your friends to stop targeting Peach.”

you talk about us “targeting” her like we didn’t just leave her alone for a full year and she refused to drop things by repeatedly namedropping us and vaguing us on top of lying about what happened to multiple people? like she didn’t just attack shade and make them relapse and self-harm for absolutely no reason? how is that not targeting us? if she wanted this to be over i told her what she had to do and i was super clear, but i’ll say it again:

give a real apology to everyone you abused that you actually mean, not just a fake one you give just to get us to stop calling you out

in said apology, own up to the things you did so you can be held accountable for your actions and admit they were wrong genuinely

learn from your actions and this whole scenario.

stop calling us abusers behind our backs to your friends/rp partners just because you think we won’t find out. stop lying about what happened to paint yourself as a victim who did no wrong and us as bad guys. i’m not going to say my friends and i haven’t made mistakes in our approach to you and that we did no wrong but lying and saying we abused you despite you having instigated everything is not right.

stop misgendering people, stop wishing death and harm upon people, stop calling people slurs, stop knowingly doing all these bad things (including being ableist and transphobic) and when told you did something wrong refusing to apologize and shrugging off the blame. you need to own up to your mistakes and learn from them to be a better person so they don’t keep happening.

that’s literally all she ever had to do. it’s what i’ve been telling her right from the beginning and for almost 3 years now. i’ve told her the same thing multiple times and every single time i do she either ignores my post, says “you’ll never be satisfied :// i don’t know what you want” despite me telling her this multiple times, or gives an apology she doesn’t mean and then immediately proves she didn’t mean it. which is what she did, by the way: gave incredibly vague apologies to both shade and madama and when the three of us told her that she wasn’t really owning up to anything she did she acted like this whole time we’re “not letting things go” and “harassing her” somehow by repeatedly reblogging her posts solely to tell her to stop lying and vaguing about us. 

“...She is ready to let all the negative matters that have happened to her by anon hate go by without anyone needing to apologise. And I am aware that she has tried to apologise to you and your friends before, but she is no longer able to, since she feels that it would be a wasted effort no matter what. ” 

yea, of course. you want to know why? because she doesn’t want to actually own up to anything she’s done. she doesn’t want to have to give anyone apologies that actually mean something. she’s never once apologized to any of us and meant it, and we can easily tell when she “apologizes” and then 10 minutes later starts making posts about how bad we are for “harassing” her. she apologizes and yet still somehow can’t stop lying about what happened on both her blog and to other people on skype. your girlfriend doesn’t want to be held accountable for her actions because she doesn’t think she did anything wrong - that’s why she’s saying she wants this to be over “without anyone needing to apologize.”

you want to know how i know, by the way? because she’s done this whole “giving a fake apology and not meaning it to get out of the consequences” thing before. many, many, many, many, many, many, many, many times. (and those are on top of the two fake ones she gave today that she immediately went back on.)

i’ve personally apologized to her many times for multiple things - for the initial callout (and again and again and again) for being too aggressive in my initial handling of the manner (i can’t find this one off the top of my head but i know it’s in the gem tag somewhere), on top of other things - for years.

"So, I ask you and all of your friends generously to forget about her, since hasn't she already suffered enough to cover what she had done to you and your friends?” 

okay. i...where do i start with this? when has she suffered because of us that she didn’t instigate herself? nobody started anything with her until she started vaguing, lying to people to make herself look good and us look like bullies (perhaps consider that she’s doing this to you as well? just a thought), harassing people for no reason other than to start a fight, on top of all the abusive behavior i linked you to above. there’s even more i didn’t link that’s just sitting in my tag, waiting to be read. i’ll even give you a link to it chronologically so you can read it in the order it happened. we’d all drop things if she just...did as i said above, at the very least stop lying about what happened to call us abusers? but she won’t do that. if we drop things and stop pursuing her she’s just going to waltz away from this and tell everyone that we stalked her and harassed her and ruined her whole life even when none of that is true - because she thinks that she somehow needs “vengeance” for her name being tarnished despite the fact that she’s been putting us through hell for years. we all just want her to apologize to everyone, mean her apology, stop lying, and leave us alone. that’s literally all she has to do and all she ever had to do. she chooses not to do so because she doesn’t think she’s done anything wrong and doesn’t want to “lower herself” to apologize, grow as a person, and stop everything.

“I understand it is a lot to ask from us, but please, try to understand the pain she is going through at this very moment.”

okay, i can understand that...but, uhm, what about the pain that she’s constantly putting us through? is that not important? i’m not at all trying to say our pain is more important than hers or that hers does not matter, but if we’re to acknowledge how she feels why won’t she acknowledge how we feel as well? what about the fact that she caused shade to relapse and attempt suicide and be wholly miserable? what about the fact that she’s caused danny so much stress that he constantly has breakdowns and fits of paranoia, on top of physical sickness, chronic pain, and stomach issues? what about the fact that every time she does something like this i get physically sick and unable to eat, on top of it exacerbating my issues with paranoia and depression? there’s so, so much more for me to add but i don’t really know how else shade, danny, and madama are hurting - i can only say what i recall. shade, danny, and i were all in really low points of our lives and recovering from past events unrelated to her when she decided it would be a great time to vague us for attention and start fights. we’re hurting too. again: our pain is not greater than hers but it’s really not at all fair to ask us to somehow absolve her of all the hurt she caused us solely because she is hurting when she isn’t willing to acknowledge how badly she’s hurt us at all?

“I don't care that how will you see me at this moment, but please honor our request. So I beg you to ask your friends and followers to stop this. Thank you.”

while i would completely love to do as you have requested...i cant. sorry. you ask me - you ask all of us, in fact - to completely ignore all the pain and suffering she put us through because she’s hurting, as if we aren’t as well because of her? if she would just do as asked and give a genuine apology and then leave us alone and just stop lying and vaguing and calling us abusers because we had the audacity to call her out for all the vile, abusive stuff she’s done all of this would be over and nobody would bother her. however, she isn’t willing to do that because she doesn’t think she’s done anything wrong. she’d much rather change her url and remake every so often to avoid the consequences of what she’s done along with the judgement of others who know what truly happened and not her frequent lies. she’d much rather continue lying and playing the victim to “get us back” for...what, exactly? calling her out for abuse? asking her to stop lying to other people? asking her to stop vaguing and namedropping us? asking her to just leave us alone? all of the above?