#pcstwick

hi, there. this is kier ( pcstwick, eternahop, faeriefound, flygontm ). this will be my last post for a very long time, but one that i have increasingly felt the need to make. this is a post addressing and apologising for the behaviour i displayed last may in the pokemon rpc, as it was not - and will never be - acceptable. i fully understand if this apology is not accepted, and i accept full responsibility for how my actions at the time harmed those around me. 

@pcstwick​ asked: ❝ 'han, come here! ❞ the words have an edge to them that is unfamiliar on leon's tongue, almost slurred together as he moves to sling an arm around his lover's shoulder, head shoved into the crook of raihan's neck. around them, the league afterparty bustles on, celebrations in full swing. ❝ it's been a long day after the match, right? attention would be nice. or maybe a kiss. y'want to kiss me, right? ❞ because leon desperately wanted to kiss him.

Seeing his fiance drunk at a league event was not something he had counted on the list of things that could happen tonight. Raihan had been taking a breather out on the empty balcony when his illustrious lover came over to casually talk about kissing. He could already tell that Leon had definitely had a drink or two, though he never knew that he was this much of a light weight. He looked around to make sure that they were actually alone, before gently grabbing Leon’s hand to place a kiss on it. “Of course I wanna kiss you, sweetheart. But y’know we can’t do that out here. Got a secret to keep, yeah?” As much as he hated to admit it, but they still kept their engagement a secret. They couldn’t risk someone finding out at a party full of sponsors of all things.

Well I really don’t know a lot about you yet on a personal level but you seem to have a really good grasp on Leon from what I’ve seen while stalking your blog.

Crimed from: @pcstwick

DEFENSIVE:

ARMS CROSSED ON CHEST / CROSSING LEGS / FIST-LIKE GESTURES / POINTING INDEX FINGER / KARATE CHOPS / STIFFENING OF SHOULDERS / TENSE POSTURE / CURLING OF LIP / BARING OF TEETH

REFELCTIVE:

HAND-TO-FACE GESTURES / HEAD TILTED / STROKING CHIN / PEERING OVER GLASSES / TAKING GLASSES OFF — CLEANING / PUTTING EARPIECE OF GLASSES IN MOUTH / PIPE SMOKER GESTURES / PUTTING HAND TO BRIDGE OF NOSE / PURSED LIPS / KNITTED BROWS

SUSPICION:

ARMS CROSSED / SIDEWAYS GLANCE / TOUCHING OR RUBBING NOSE / RUBBING EYES / HANDS RESTING ON WEAPON / BROW RAISING / LIPS PRESSING INTO A THIN LINE / UNWAVERING EYE CONTACT / WRINKLING OF NOSE

OPENNESS + COOPERATION:

OPEN HANDS / UPPER BODY IN SPRINTER’S POSITION / SITTING ON THE EDGE OF A CHAIR / HAND-TO-FACE GESTURES / UNBUTTONED COAT / TILTED HEAD  / SLACKED SHOULDERS / DROPPY POSTURE / FEET POINTED OUTWARD / PALMS FLAT AND FACING OUTWARD

CONFIDENCE:

HANDS BEHIND BACK / HANDS ON LAPELS OF COAT / STEEPLED HANDS / BARING TEETH IN A GRIN / ROLLING SHOULDERS / TIPPING HEAD BACK BUT MAINTAINING EYE CONTACT / CHEST PUFFED UP / SHOULDERS BACK / ARMS FOLDED JUST ABOVE NAVEL

INSECURITY + ANXIETY:

CHEWING PEN OR PENCIL / RUBBING THUMB OVER OPPOSITE THUMB  / BITING FINGERNAILS TIPS OF DIGITS / HANDS IN POCKETS / ELBOW BENT / CLOSED GESTURES / CLEARING THROAT / “WHEW” SOUND / PICKING OR PINCHING FLESH / FIDGETING IN CHAIR / HAND COVERING MOUTH WHILST SPEAKING / POOR EYE CONTACT / TUGGING AT PANTS WHILST SEATED / JINGLING MONEY IN POCKETS / TUGGING AT EAR / PERSPIRING HANDS / PLAYING WITH HAIR / SWAYING / PLAYING WITH POINTER/MARKER / SMACKING LIPS / SIGHING / ROCKING ON BALLS OF FEET / FLEXING FINGERS SPORADICALLY

FRUSTRATION:

SHORT BREATH VENTS / “TSK“ SOUNDS  / TIGHTLY-CLENCHED HANDS / FIST-LIKE GESTURES / POINTING INDEX FINGER / RUNNING HANDS THROUGH HAIR / RUBBING BACK OF NECK / SNARLING / REVEALING TEETH / GRIMACING / SHARP-EYED GLOWERS WITH NOTABLE TENSION IN THE BROWS / SHOULDERS BACK, HEAD UP - DEFENSIVE POSTURING / CLENCHING OF JAW/GRINDING TEETH / NOSTRILS FLARING / HEAVY EXHALE

Stole from: @pcstwick

“Dang, you’re really aimin’ to hit me hard here, huh?”

Raihan’s silent for a moment- It’s unbecoming of him to confess to either of these sins (Is this... Public?), but maybe it could be kind of cathartic to confess to something he keeps close to himself, right?

“Well, I’ll throw you a bone ‘n tell you something that relates to both of these, how ‘bout that?

Y’know... How that kid- The current champion, yeah- how they beat Leon? I always thought it was gonna be me.”

He pauses to laugh, hollow and dry. Thinking of that day embarrassed him, he’d let his true feelings out for a moment and he regrets it. He’s only glad that neither Leon nor the kid was there to see it.

“Well, when I heard that they’d beat him, I lost track of myself for a moment there. Don’t think the staff appreciated having to clean up after me in the locker room after that.”

Raihan sighs dramatically.