Mar 20, 2025
sometimes the doubt creeps in, and it won't let go. i will never understand why PCM sort of... "died." this makes me question myself over and over. the only community i've found is some people here on tumblr. outside of here, i couldn't find anyone else. it seems like everyone else eventually "moves on" to ceremonial magick or something. even the only author on PCM (Taylor Ellwood) seems to have taken a huge step back and doesn't even practice anymore... his focus is Goetia.
i'm afraid there's a reason for that. i'm afraid i don't want to let go of PCM because it's my spark of life. but why would 99,9% of PCM/PCP eventually abandon the ship? i don't get it. unless... i'm delusional, and they're right.
i feel so sad.
