#pastispresent

Isn't it funny how perspective changes over time? This is the first painting I did. I had been working with cante on canvas but decided to try using oil paint over top of cante and pastel. This was the result. I called it Diesel. My boyfriend at the time took it from me and I dumped him soon afterwards (you can read all about that in my memoir Little Yellow Magnet). For years, I've lamented the loss of this painting, believing it to have been the best I've ever done and have actually considered calling him so that I could get it back. Don't worry, I won't ever open that door. However looking at it now, it seems lifeless and I know that the art I create now is far more beautiful, more full of life. So I will let this painting go, but I will remember the joy of creation that I felt the first time I picked up a paint brush. No one can take that away from me. #perspective #tarotreadersofinstagram #oilpaint #pastispresent https://www.instagram.com/p/CGF9e2yH59Q/?igshid=7gmyxdmmdven

History is significant. It holds who we are and has the potential to change who we become. *. *. * It comes with people, places, moments, and emotions. It’s not good or bad, it just is or was. *. *. *. The thing I’m surprised about is how unexpected pieces come back into my life. Like bokeh those pieces were once just blurry specks of light in the background. Then suddenly they come into focus. *. *. *. #memories #pastispresent #jsydquotes (at Mississippi) https://www.instagram.com/p/CFEJTnNBY02/?igshid=iun74ebh8lmi

This morning, I asked the cards "How do I celebrate today?" I drew the 8 of Swords and the 6 of Cups. 💫 The 8 of Swords has a butterfly hanging from a Sword and surrounded by 7 more. This card is telling me not to be afraid, to spread my wings and fly away from fear. Only when I fly away from negative thoughts will i truly be free. 💫 The 6 of Cups symbolizes my past. It tells me that everything I learned, everything I know of strength and stability, I learned in my past. Its reminding me that I already possess multitudes of paths within me and I have only to follow one. 💫 Awesome! 💫 #tarotreadersofinstagram #tarottribe #the_wild_unknown #pastispresent #presentispast https://www.instagram.com/p/BsVMUc7HjL8/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1olqkef3v2z29

Snapshot_Ravensbrück c. 1944 and 1998

Past. Present. Me 1980 at the bunkers in Marin Headlands. Paid my way through Art school by making debutante gowns, for which I could not relate. Subsequently working on social/political art-to-wear pieces. 37 years later. #pastispresent (at Marin Headlands)

Janushoved. 

Weil ich dich einfach nie vergessen kann. Immer noch verliebt in die Vergangenheit, in die Person, die du einmal warst und nie wieder sein wirst.