#part13

(It really took me a lot this time to write it, but in my defense I have a lot to do 😅😅 it's really not a super chapter but it has some hints for what will come next...so enjoy ^^)

Hold My Hand - part 13

After the chat with Darkness, MC had paused to reflect on the driveway steps. Everything that person had told her seemed surreal. A cognitive recalibration program? People would do anything for power, even forget the value of human life. At the mere thought of what these people could do with that weapon in hand, she shivered. She had to keep Dedalus safe. Under no circumstances should she have handed it over to Jake and Sarah's kidnappers.

She rubbed her temple slowly. Now she had to rearrange her ideas and try to think about the next move. The most important thing to do at the time was to keep Dedalus under control. Making sure that no one approached the program or Lilly, was a priority.

She sighed looking one last time at the screen of her phone, wondering how Jake was doing. Maybe, she told herself, a stupid question since he's been tortured in a cold and dark dungeon. She returned to the house taking care to lock the front door and at that very moment she heard Dan complaining.

MC: "Everything all right?"

D: "Absolutely."

He was sitting at the table, arms crossed to the chest and a grumpy face on.

MC: "For some reason I don't believe you..."

Dan snored raising his right arm and pointing at Alan's room.

D: "He's injured and wants to play the hero of the situation."

MC: "Looks to me you two are very much alike."

D: "Was that suppose to be a compliment?"

MC: "More like a matter of fact. You did the same back in the days and yet you're surprised there is someone stubborn like you at this world."

D: "Oh, come on! I was totally fine!"

MC: "Totally fine...on an wheelchair. Yup, absolutely."

D: "At least I have been useful. I shot that son of a bitch and...and..."

He knew he had crossed the line. He looked down and closed his eyes, sighing. MC saw the man's face saddened and approached him sitting on the chair right in front of him.

MC: "Okay. Why don't you tell me what's really going on here?"

Dan looked at her for a long moment, then shook his head slightly and smiled sadly at her.

D: "I'm fine. Like always. Don't try to find something that there isn't."

MC: "I'm not."

D: "Then leave it. Just have a moment for yourself and relax. But I'm telling you, if he continues with that attitude I will drag him to the Hospital by his hairs like a caveman."

She smiled at the joke imagining the scene. Then she met Dan's gaze once more, stretched out her arm over the table, and put her hand on the man's arm.

MC: "I see. But I will always have time for a drink, if you'll ever need to."

D: "Yeah. Thanks, MC."

At that moment Lilly entered the salon and MC saw Dan quickly put the small object back in his pants pocket.

L: "Okay, I spoke with Hannah and she told me that everything is fine at the Aurora. Phil told them to stay for as long as they need, but he wants to speak to you."

MC: "Me? Why?"

L: "Don't know but it felt important."

MC: "Then I'll text him now. I wonder what he needs to tell me."

L: "Good, I'll cook something to eat in the meantime. We all need to recharge. Come on Dan, I need a hand."

D: "Oh yes, girl. You choose the fucking God of Food. Be ready to be amazed!"

Lilly made a gesture with her hand as if she was chasing away a fly.

L: "Yeah, sure Dan."

Watching the two of them disappear behind the door of the kitchen she approached the sofa in the living room, sat on the soft cushions and opened the chat with the man.

MC: "Hello stranger."

She didn't need to wait too long for the answer.

P: "Look who's in town. ;)"

MC: "Lilly said you wanted to talk to me. What's up?"

P: "Straight to the point. I see..."

MC: "Sorry. I didn't mean to be rude, but I'm a bit tired. And curious. You wanted to talk to me, why?"

P: "Maybe I just wanted to hear you, see how you're doing. You disappeared for a whole year."

MC: "With good reasons."

P: "I know."

MC: "Wait, you were worried about me?"

P: "..."

He stopped for a few seconds.

P: "No."

MC: ";)"

P: "Would that be a bad thing?"

MC: "Not at all, no."

He stopped again leaving she wondering what was going on.

P: "I wanted to thank you, MC."

MC: "For what?"

P: "For believing in my innocence."

MC: "Well, I couldn't let an innocent man in prison. That's not who I am. Besides, I wasn't the only one. Jessy fought like a lioness for you."

P: "I know. She went to pick me up when they discharged me. We had a long talk after that."

MC: "So now you two are good?"

P: "We still have things to solve, but we are closer than we were. The only one left to thank was you and by the way, don't act like you didn't do anything. I owe you a big one. :)"

MC: "Well...you're welcome. :)"

She smiled at her phone happy for both Jessy and Phil. 

P: "So, since we had this matter covered I should probably tell you the other thing."

She waited while Phil was writing, hearing Lilly and Dan laughing in the kitchen. She smiled as well. Despite what they were going through, those little moments were what they needed.

P: "After Alan discharged me from all the accusations, he kinda became a regular guest at the Aurora. He said he wasn't sure if he could tell the bunch everything, but he needed someone trusted to keep an eye on the group."

MC: "Okay...I guess. So you two became best buddies, that's new."

P: "..."

MC: "Okay, okay. You helped him. Then what?"

P: "She told me about her daughter and that he was desperate. That's why I suggested him ask for your help."

MC: "Wait, what? I thought..."

P: "Don't worry he replied with a big no. He told me you had already done enough, but when your friend got caught he didn't have a choice. Anyway I did what he told me to do and one day a lady came at the Aurora. She didn't say much at first, then she started to flirt with me."

MC: "And that's weird because...?"

P: "I'm not stupid, MC, I know when someone has other intentions. She wasn't flirting with me, she wanted to know about the police's Chief. She wanted to know exactly where she could find him."

MC: "What!?"

P: "You read that right."

MC: "Who was she?"

P: "I don't know, but I haven't told her anything. I just said that was none of her business and that if she wanted to contact him, she could use her leg or the phone. After that she left, but not without giving me a creepy look."

MC: "A woman. Did she tell you something about herself? Something that could help us identify her?"

P: "I'm afraid she didn't. But as she walked out she received a call. I wasn't able to hear much, just a strange name."

MC: "Define strange."

P: " 'Prometheus' . Does that mean something for you?"

MC: "I'm not sure, but I see a certain pattern with the Greek mythology. I can't say it for sure, but you have probably met one of the bad guys."

P: "Hey, if you need I can try to find this woman. I can recognize her in a mile."

MC: "No, please! Stay where you are and keep watching the group."

P: "I can take care of myself MC."

MC: "I know you can...it's just..."

P: "Who's worried now? :)"

MC: "Look, the situation is already bad. I don't want them to have an excuse to hurt someone close to me, again..."

P: "That's why you shouldn't worry. We're not so close MC."

MC: "Phil please, don't do anything stupid. You already have a job okay? You've never did something stupid, don't start now. These people are dangerous."

P: "Fine. But if she shows up again at the Aurora..."

MC: "Then you'll call me. Only me."

P: "..."

MC: "Phil I'm dead serious. We have to work together or we'll never see the end of this situation. Don't you trust me?"

P: "I do trust you."

MC: "Then keep everyone safe and text me if something happens."

P: "...they made it personal, MC."

At that point she realized. He was pissed for what they did at Jessy's. She wasn't sure since he never showed that kind of attachment to the girl or to the group, but it was also true that she never talked to him about his feeling for everything that happened, back in the days.

The Missing Scarf II - part 13 (END Chapter 2)

And that, my friends, is how Chapter II ends (*ﾟ∀ﾟ*)  Coincidentally, it’s pretty similar to yesterday’s ask ahah 

So yeah, I hope you enjoyed this chapter and that you’re hyped for part III !

On that note, I’ll see you when I see you (*´∀｀*)

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“Nooooo, leave me alone!”

“Alex it’s 2pm and I’m not going to let you spend New Year’s Eve in bed. Especially, if you’re that miserable and sulking over your pain in the ass fiancée. This is only going to make it worse.” Allie says, opening the curtains to let the light in.

“Why did I give you a key again?”

“For emergencies and I’m sorry to say that, but honey-“ Allie stops to turn around and look at Alex judgingly.

“-you look like one.” she purses her lips.

“Great, thanks Allie.” Alex whines.

“When I get my hands on Kelley, she’s a dead woman.” Allie spits, pacing through the room. Alex looks at her with puffy eyes. She has been crying herself to sleep and woke up feeling the tears already falling again. She looks miserable, her natural glow gone and replaced by exhaustion.

“Who does she think she is?! Getting into a fight with you and leaving you alone in New York without an apology??”

“If I remember correctly, the last time we talked about it you protected her.” Alex mentions weakly.

“Yeah, well, I changed my mind. She’s awful.” Allie throws her hands up dramatically.

“Where were I? Ah, yes. So, she leaves you without an apology. All alone!! Just before New Year’s Eve! And then she doesn’t even call or text you once and has the balls to call you totally drunk in the middle of the night!!!” Allie says fumingly.

“Al-“ Alex starts, but gets interrupted by Allie’s rant.

“But what’s even worse, now she also flirts and laughs around with some random woman??!?!? Is she insane?! By the way, if it’s any help you are a thousand times more attractive than her!”

“Allie, please-“ Alex says with a small voice, but she gets interrupted again.

“Okay let me summarize that real quick. She calls you, drunk, after being with that woman?! Why is she behaving like such a douchebag?! I swear Alex, if Kelley even-“

“Allie, stop saying her name.” Alex sobs loudly, tears streaming down her face.

“Aww, babe, I’m so sorry.” Allie says, rushing to Alex’s side, pulling her into a hug. They sit there for some time, while Allie tries to calm her down.

“I’ll call Bati and tell him we won’t be going to that party, okay?”

“No, you’ll go and have a good time. Bati already has to spend noon by himself and I know you both really wanted to go.” Alex tries to compose herself, but has a hard time doing it.

“He’ll understand.”

“No, no, please. I’ll be fine.”

Allie looks at her skeptically, but Alex nods at her, giving her a reassuring look.

“Only under one condition. Please turn on your phone when I’m gone. You can block Ke-, eh I mean you know who, but I at least want to be able to call or text you if you’re feeling alone. No more surprises like this morning.”

Allie refers to Alex not opening the door, even though they wanted to have breakfast together and having to let herself in, only to find Alex sobbing into her pillow.

“Okay, but not yet. I can’t even stand to see her name on my phone. I’ll turn it on later, I promise.” Alex says hoarsely.

“That’s okay.”

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In the evening Bati comes over and Allie and him force Alex to at least have some kind of dinner with them. Therefore, dinner ends up consisting of a huge tub of chocolate ice cream to mend Alex’s broken heart. After that, Bati and Allie leave hesitantly and make Alex promise that she will call them, if she’s feeling too bad. They have been gone for a little over 15 minutes, when Alex realizes that she forgot to turn her phone on. She wipes her tears and stops the episode of ‘This Is Us’ to rush up the stairs and search for her phone in the bedroom. When she finds it she turns it on. As soon as she unlocks her phone it blows up. 25 missed calls by Ken, five by an unknown number, but only one by Kelley. Alex’s heart burns in her chest and tears brim in her eyes. She clicks on the texts Ken sent, thinking that maybe she can just text him back, instead of having to call him. Before Alex can read any message though, she feels as if someone is staring at her. Her head shoots up quickly and there is indeed someone standing in the doorway. When Alex sees the silhouette, the tears start falling down her face for the hundredth time today.

“You better have a damn good explanation for all of this.” Alex cries.

“Alex…” Kelley says softly, her voice sounds piteous, but her tone is drenched in love.

“Don’t say my name like that.” she sobs. Kelley’s heart breaks hearing Alex so hurt and broken. The tears start rolling down her eyes silently. She moves her hand, turning on the light of their bedroom and when she sees Alex her heart breaks even more, as does Alex’s when she sees Kelley. The second their gazes connect, Kelley swears she’s free falling and she’s completely helpless.

“What are you doing here?” Alex asks with a poignant voice.

“I won’t let you be alone on New Year’s Eve.” Kelley says hurt, but also sweetly and sincere.

Kelley’s beautiful eyes look at her like a kicked puppy or a child, who has been scolded.

“Stop looking at me like that.” Alex sobs silently, closing her eyes. Her voice is cracking, it is so husky and silent that she fails to continue to speak.

“You know, I’m really trying to hate you right now.” Alex sobs after regaining her voice.

Kelley’s heart shatters. She takes a step towards her, wanting to pull her into an embrace, but Alex holds up her hand.

“Please don’t…” Alex cries from across the room.

“Babe-” Kelley starts hurt, her own voice cracking.

“No, I can’t pretend that everything is okay. I’m not lying to myself.” Alex says, trying to pull herself together, attempting to sound cold. However, Kelley knows her too well. Alex’s voice betrays what she’s really feeling. The distance is affecting her deeply. She’s hurting and Kelley just wants it to stop.

“I’m so so sorry. You have to believe me.”

In that moment, Alex wishes she could turn back time to when they lay in bed that morning after the party, because even though she had a headache it felt like pure happiness. Now, everything feels so wrong and she is stuck in a never-ending vicious circle that enfolds itself in front of her eyes like an unstoppable slow-motion scene in a movie.

“Yeah, well sorry doesn’t undo the things you did.”  

There is no warmth in her voice, she is completely not herself, the façade up again.

“You’re right, it won’t. But you know I would never do anything to harm you willingly.” Kelley tries calmly.

“I don’t know what you would do and what don’t.” Alex sasses.

“Please…don’t act like you don’t know me.” Kelley says softly.

“Oh, do I??? Because the Kelley I saw in that moment and the last few days is new to me!!!” Alex yells aggravatedly.

“Alright Alex, that’s really unfair. I mean, I swear to god, I know what I did and believe me I suffered like a dog because of it. I really really am sorry. But well, newsflash: it wasn’t me intentionally hurting you. I never wanted to yell at you. I really wasn’t in a good mental state and then the adrenalin made me flinch in surprise. And I’m not trying to make up any excuses, because what I did was fucking wrong. But what I can’t understand is that you didn’t even let me apologize and then I had to fly without even saying a word, feeling miserable 24/7.” Kelley reasons, feeling herself getting heated, but calming down quickly, not raising her voice for even a second.

“Are you kidding me?! Is that what you call it??? Feeling ‘miserable’???” Alex yells, holding up her hands to air quote, staring Kelley down fumingly.

“Okay, just so I get this right. First, you lose your temper, yell at me, act like a maniac and leave me here without saying a word. Then, you don’t even message or call me, even though you were the one who needed to apologize. And finally, you call me, absolutely smashed after you flirted with that woman or god knows what you did! You know what? Fuck you!” Alex shouts, tears streaming down her face. She angrily marches towards Kelley, wanting to push past her, but Kelley stops her, holding onto her shoulders, keeping her at bay.

“Woah, woah, woah!!! What in the world are you talking about?! What woman??” Kelley exclaims in bewilderment.

“Don’t play all innocent now! I saw a live video from that party and you did look many things, but trust me, miserable isn’t a word I would use!”  

Kelley roams her mind to make sense out of anything Alex is saying, but nothing clicks.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” Kelley replies confused.

“At least she was pretty with her blonde hair, whispering into your ear and her arm around you.” Alex spits. Alex takes a step back and tries to get past Kelley again, but ultimately fails. Kelley is shielding the door like a guard dog and there is no chance Alex is going to get past. In that moment, Alex asks herself why in the world she had to fall for a converted outside back. She rolls her eyes, crossing her arms in front of her chest and throws Kelley an impatient look. However, in the meantime everything starts making sense for Kelley.

“Oh my god, you mean Linda???” Kelley laughs.

“Kelley, are you fucking serious right now?! I don’t want to hear her name!”

“Alex, Linda is my boss! She’s working for the sponsoring department at BMW and the reason why we talked for a bit was you. She told me to leave the party, so I finally would be able to reach you, which I couldn’t before, because first of all, I completely wrecked my phone here in New York when I threw it in anger. And second of all, because they worked me to the bone and every time I got hold of something resembling a phone the time difference got in the way. I didn’t want to wake you up at 3 am. So, when Ken finally arrived at the party, he gave me a new phone and then I sprinted to my hotel and tried to call you, but you hung up.”

“So, you didn’t flirt with her?” Alex asks with a small voice.

“Oh my god, no! Why would I?? That’s ridiculous. I’m in love with you, why would I flirt with anyone else?! Also, if it gives you any comfort, Linda is straight. She has a husband and two kids.”

“And your phone was broken?”

“Yeah.”

“I feel like a complete idiot.” Alex says embarrassed.

“So, that is what you thought this whole time??” Kelley asks stunned. Alex nods, putting her hand to her forehead to hide her face.

“Dear god, I feel like an idiot as well.” Kelley breathes out.

“Yeah, that’s because you are.” Alex says dead serious. Kelley looks at her perplex.

“Okay, Kelley I’m really relieved to hear that most of this is based on a misunderstanding. However, I still can’t bring myself to even begin to understand, why in the world you lose your temper like that and drink that much! That’s insane! You scared me!!”

Kelley avoids her gaze, shifting uncomfortably. She can feel her eyes brimming with tears. Alex struck a cord.  

“I really do feel like I don’t know you right now and I’m tired of it! I’m so over it, Kelley.”

The tears start falling down Kelley’s face now, but she’s still not looking at Alex.

“What’s happening with you?? You have to talk to me!” Alex exclaims desperately, but Kelley just stands there silently. Alex puts her hands on Kelley’s face.

“Please…please look at me.” she begs. Kelley looks up and Alex’s breath catches at how broken Kelley looks the second their eyes connect.  

“I can’t.”

“You can’t what?” Alex asks worried.

“Be without you. Please don’t leave me.” Kelley begs with a broken voice.

“Kelley, what is going on?” she asks shocked.

“Being without you is my Everest… and right now when you look at me, I fall 29 thousand mistakes deep.” Kelley says meaningfully.

“Babe.” Alex breathes out, this one sentence stabbing her right into her heart.

“I’m a mess, Alex. I’m a mess without you. Yes, I can’t control my temper, but the only thing triggering this kind of emotion is losing you. I’m losing every sense of control without you. I’m not a good person without you. There is no Kelley like you know her without you. I’m not who I want to be without you. So yes, it seems like I’m not myself when someone wants to hurt you or when I had to leave you, because you only know what I’m like with you.”

“Kel-”

“I need you and if that’s unhealthy, then yeah. Yeah, that’s true. Because I get sick without you. It’s like I said, you are my remedy. There is no without you for me anymore and I hate myself for hurting you. I hate myself SO much. And I punch guys, who touch you in front of 7-elevens and I punch walls, because I know I’ll have to disappoint you by telling you that I won’t be there on New Year’s Eve. And then I stop sleeping, stop eating and drink the pain away so I can at least breathe. That’s why I was drunk. Because I couldn’t take it to hurt you like that. So, I sat in my room in LA, holding onto a subjunctive of what I could have done better and it was killing me. I tried to drown this feeling in alcohol and instead I drowned in the feeling.”

Alex listens silently, her face covered in tears.

“I had a nervous breakdown after our call. Ken found me. I woke up in the hospital.”

“Baby-” Alex cries appalled, stroking her cheek.

“I live for your love and I die without your love. Before I knew you, I chose the masses over a single hand. When somebody got too close, I felt threatened. When everything was bright and lit in thousands of lights, just like billboards blinding my eyes, I felt safe. When everything was loud, almost deafening loud, you could find me in the middle of it all, dancing in between the masses, feeling like I was on top of the world. But when everything went quiet, I was completely lost. When it got quiet, I was stuck in the darkness, even though I needed light. And then I met you and ever since it has never been dark again. You taught me how to enjoy the quiet. Because of you I found out that what’s really important, is what you say in the quiet. Alex, before you I didn’t know how to whisper. You became this ever-shining light and yesterday, when I thought I lost you, it got dark again. And to be honest, since then I continued to walk around blindly, everything pitch-black. But you know what’s crazy?”

Kelley makes a pause, closing her eyes, breathing in deeply.

“When you look at me, for just one second…everything turns bright again. Even, if you’re telling me you’re trying to hate me.”

She opens her beautiful eyes and gazes into Alex’s, letting out a deep breath. Through her tears Alex sees Kelley’s eyes light up like they only do for her. However, they’re sparkling with something that resembles a mixture of pure love, hope and fear and it forms a lump in her throat. Fear isn’t something she has ever seen before.

“I know there is something between us that other people can’t even begin to understand. Because of you I am on cloud 9, even though I was afraid of heights. I’m trying, Alex. I’m really trying to become a better person for you every day and I’m sorry that I’m not, because you deserve it.”

Alex looks at her sadly and then leans in to kiss her affectionately.

“I’ll be by yours side, when it’s dark, okay? You hear me? I’m not going to leave you in the dark, Kelley. No matter if I’m in New York, LA or on the other side of the world, you’re never alone. I’m so sorry.” Alex says intently, still holding Kelley’s face between her hands, who nods her head in response and clings onto Alex’s hands.

“Kel, we have too much love to fear. I know we’re going to get through everything. But please, you have to stop thinking you always have to be strong. If you need to talk, I’ll listen. You can lean on me, I can lift you, I promise. I know you want to be strong for me, but there’s nobody in this world who is always strong. That’s going to destroy you. Let yourself fall, I’ll catch you. There is no one and nothing I care about more than you.” Alex says urgently.

“And when you were gone, I asked myself every second where you were. I’m going insane without you, too. Don’t think it wasn’t torture to me. You got me on my knees. I’m just as lost without you. And if you ask yourself, the attempt to hate you hasn’t worked one bit. I’m still madly in love with you and at the end of the day, there is no one in this world, who completes me like you, who touches my soul like you. Hating you is one thing I could never do, okay?”

“Okay.” Kelley whispers, looking into Alex’s eyes deeply.

“If you need to talk to someone about that, we’ll do that. I’ll do anything.” Alex promises.

“Yeah actually, I only was allowed to leave the hospital, because I gave the doctor a promise to talk to somebody about it a few times.”

“That’s good, baby. I’m proud of you.” Alex says, leaning in for a kiss again.

“Thanks.” Kelley smiles.  

“But babe, are you physically okay? Did you hurt yourself?” Alex asks worried.

“I’m fine, are you?”

Alex pulls Kelley in a tight embrace, breathing in her scent, while leaning her head on her shoulder. Kelley puts her arms around her and hugs her just as tightly.

“Now I am.” Alex whispers, closing her eyes and not letting go.

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry I said those horrible things and I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you.” Alex says quietly.

“No, that was my own fault. You don’t need to be sorry.”

“Still, I am.”

“Yeah, I am, too.”

“I know, it’s okay.”

Kelley kisses the top of her head.

“For how long are you here?” Alex asks, pulling away.

“I’m going to have to leave for the airport at 4 am.”

“You’re crazy, you just came to talk to me?”

“Well, yes and so you wouldn’t be alone on New Year’s Eve. I didn’t know for sure, if you’d be home though. I really hoped not to cross ways with Allie.”

“Uhh, true that would have been fatal.”

“I assumed. Is she going to behead me in my sleep?”

What if this actually happen? Part 13!

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Part 13 is here, I’m stuck, I don’t have any idea for part 14...-_- I’ll probably put this on hiatus for awhile until I got a new idea.

Someone suggested this idea, where Honoka point out how Riko resembles Umi x Maki, I kinda see it somehow, XD. I should have keep a tab on everyone’s suggestions D:.