#papers rants

We as people move on from a lot, be it traumatizing, upsetting, or just changing something in our lives. We all form and change when we get older. Although, i’ve noticed a lot of people talk about how they miss who they USED to be, how they WERE in the past. And I am one of them.

I’ve told myself most of my life, “It’ll be better, it’ll change”, and it has gotten better, and it did change. But I miss it so desperately. Something once so toxic, so devastating, is on my wish list. And sometimes, I sit back and think “huh, i’m actually crazy for wanting that”, when in actuality, I AM getting better, I AM improving. But it’s different.

It’s not what it used to be. And it never will be.

And that’s something really hard to be able to move past. Hell, i’m still trying to move past, and I have my whole life in front of me.

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And that is okay. Changing and becoming a better person, while still missing that old memory is okay. It doesn’t mean you’ll revert to your old ways, or that all your progress is gone. You’re allowed to want something from your past.

np.

there are spans of days where i just dont feel like working on my projects—lose motivation and dont wanna look at my own work sorta thing. And there are plenty of lyricstucks that I abandoned because of that reason :P 

but to get over those challenging internal conflicts, I ask my friends to keep an eye on my progress and push me, and always try to work at it til the point of no return—meaning you’ve worked so long at it that you might as well get it done, haha.

Focus is important, but it only really comes in short, small bursts. What’s important is the things that you do while you’re not in that focus zone. It’s all about the willpower and patience to push yourself through a long project. Work on it one small step at a time. Certainly we get a blaze of excitement when we first start off, but when you hit a block and run out of energy, it’s time to be wise and start planning more carefully.

I’m not the perfect model for it no, but the important thing is to try. Try your best. Have patience for yourself and your work.

Good luck! ^u^

or maybe it's better if I should just reread the last 5 months. because the somewhat erratically posted upd8s makes it hard to see the full picture. I forget about certain events in the comic even from last week lol (because HS is not the only thing I focus on irl), and when the memory's muddy it becomes difficult to connect things. 

um...hmmm...easily over 35 hours, I think?

planning the whole thing was nearly an hour. Sketching it and adding the tones--around 5 hours. The coloring for the first 25 panels was slow and agonizing (most taking about 1-2 hours) because I was trying to figure out a consistent system. And the last 15 were a breeze (I actually finished them the day of submission lol) because I was finally able to figure out a more efficient coloring system for the work. So for those each took about 30-45 minutes.

ajshdbjahbsdjhb I’m glad you enjoyed it! I always love doing ‘live’ stuff like this because first of all I don’t have to keep opening the chat window to see what you guys are saying. I can look and it’s just right there and I can respond faster.

Also a lot of unexpected things happen and I actually don’t have the time to compose myself and you’ll hear me guffaw and wheeze dying and my lineart gets all messed up when an eyelash gets in my eye and I feel happy laughing right along with ya’ll. :D So really, it was a collective effort here. Everyone made the stream fun and awesome.

this used to be an art only blog ._.

I feel like I'm putting too many text posts in here, but I love talking to you guys.