Have I Secretly Been a Pantser The Whole Time?!?!?
For the first time, in a long time, I have been writing consistently. Where did this come from? Did I have this ability the whole time?
I have had 'writer's block' FOR YEARS!!!! It was really debilitating. It made me feel frustrated, awful, like a loser, like I wasn't actually meant to be an author, which was very crushing because I have stories in my head that WILL NOT SHUT UP!! I thought I'd go insane from my lack of being able to write and the incessant noise of the stories in my head.
Recently, I wrote a 100 word scenario and posted it to a social media I have and one follower that I have been getting close too said they couldn't get the scenario out of their mind and wondered if I would want to continue the story with him. Like, I write one part and then he writes one part.
I was worried obviously because I've had writer's block for so long but I thought, "Fuck it! Let's give it a try."
To my absolute surprise, I was WRITING!!!! Who am I? Since when could I do this? Is it because I have a writing partner? Could it be because someone was waiting on me so that they could continue to write their part? Was it because I got feed back immediately? Is it because I am not planning the story out at all? I just straight up pantsed it! Pantsed! Me, a pantser ?!?!
I don't fucking know. But I'm interested in seeing how this new way of writing will work in my stories. Will it work? Will I choke again?
Regardless, I have agreed to write another story with my social media friend. It's casual, no pressure, just for fun. The best part of the writing that I've recently done is that it's actually good!!
I hope this new writer in me will stick around and I'd actually be able to get these stories out of my head and into the world.
I want to be a published indie author, while also making a living off it. I have so many stories to tell and value to give.
