#panik attacks

Nothing is more painful than the suffering I inflict on myself

I remember when I first told my parents about the panic attacks I had in the past. I still remember their look on their face when I told them. Confusion. Anger. And in the end they just said that I should stop pretending to have them just because everyone thinks they’re so cool. They told me I’m childish..  Today, when I’m having panic attacks, I don’t tell them anymore. And when they’re over, my parents just say that there is no reason to be in such a shitty mood.. or that I sleep the whole day, that I’m a lazy bum. 

This anxiety and panik attack shit is literally killing me from inside out. I sometimes can't even handle it anymore I just don't want it to be like that. Sometimes you want to end this but you can't find an end because it's like a circle it has no ends...I just want to go somewhere and never come back. Have a new start and do everything that I want to do !

Wow having Panik Attacks because of body issues is awsome. I'm so fat.