'good bye'
send ‘ good bye ‘ to hear my muse’s voicemail to yours before they die. | status: accepting
❛ hi RED! it’s been a r e a l long time, huh? ages, right? don’t think i’ve seen you in about.. a couple of months of so! it’s pretty crazy how f a s t time can go &. you sorta just.. lose track of it pretty quickly. but HEY! that’s life ‘n you gotta pretty much take it by the horns if you wanna keep going! that’s what my mom always said.. or ‘ DAD ‘ have you seen him lately..? i know you’re bury &. that’s a reason i didn’t come too! wouldn’t wanna bother ya when you’re doing all your f a n c y things in kanto.. I REALLY MISS YOU. you don’t visit j o h t o much, do ya? well you should! it’s real pretty this time around when all the leaves are crunchy &. falling &. you can pretty much just .. hear them crack under your foot!
it’s.. it’s really l o n e l y here too.. if i’m being honest with you, i haven’t been HOME in awhile.. sure i see my ma but -- that’s it. i’m actually staying in the hospital! scary, huh? but the people in here sure are n i c e but i guess that’s cause they know .. ... ... they KNOW who i am, y’know? but that’s alright! food’s kinda g r o s s in here but.. it’s alright. gotta keep to a STRICT DIET now, haha !! i wish they told me what’s wrong but i guess you could just leave it to a doctor to tell you what’d happen to ya. i don’t wanna bother anyone.. it’s hitting my ma a little too hard.. but the DOCTORS! they said i’d be okay! .. sometimes.. maybe...
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WHERE ARE YOU?
i miss you &. -- &. they say that it doesn’t get better. but they don’t think its IMPOSSIBLE! maybe if i see my ‘ big bro ‘ everything... .... .... sorry ... .... ... EVERYTHING would get better! we could talk &. stuff &. catch up &. you could tell me all your adventures up in k a n t o . i haven’t been there in ages &. i’m sure it’s still as pretty as always! all g r e e n &. stuff.. hope the sky’s still BLUE! it feels like i haven’t seen it in so long -- haven’t really been outside in awhile. doctors say it’d be too ‘ dangerous ‘ in my... in my condition. they’re just making a MOUNTAIN OUTTA A MOLE HILL! nothing too serious i promise! ...
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I MISS YOU.
i’ve been in here for w e e k s , red.. &. - &. i don’t think i’m getting out soon. i’m SCARED. i’m gonna die, red -- i heard them TALK ABOUT IT! they think i can’t hear them but gosh.. is it normal for doctors to speak so l o u d . i’m not deaf after all! ... .... ... they think i have a few weeks left. just a few ‘n maybe if i’m LUCKY just a bit more -- ... i’m s c a r e d . i -- i don’t wanna die.. i DON’T. i don’t wanna GO. &. - &. I KNOW I’M NOT THE BEST! &. you deserve a lot better of a sister than me - but can you p l e a s e come? i’m scared red &. alone &. my ma’s been crying in her sleep &. i don’t know what to do anymore god i’m gonna die &. i’m SORRY i wasn’t the best sister or friend or anything &. you don’t have to come, K A Y ? life must be pretty busy &. .... .... .... i’ll -- -- i’ll get BETTER so you don’t have to worry ‘bout me ! it was just a bunch of nonsense -- must be something in the water. i’m fine, alright! i was - i was just being ME. lil old lyra with big words .. i’ll catch you later, ya? as soon as i get out, you ‘n me are gonna have some BONDING time! bye red! -- ... love you lots... ❜
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