So like, I have this people-pleasing thing about myself (shocker). I dont want to offend anyone, I want everyone to like me, and there are cool people who follow me that I dont want drive away. So I've been holding back a lot because I'm just overwhelmed. I'm scared to share stuff no one wants, and I'm scared to put off what people DO want. I know it's my blog, but I cant help it.

But I've decided to take a chance and just embrace it. I've kinda realized that the things I'll be sharing are crafted them in a way that makes me super happy and is also really really cute, so I DESPERATELY want to share it! But I also want to be respectful and open to criticism, so feel free to call me out if I get anything wrong!

This year has sucked ass for me personally💩

I really REALLY really wanna come back to this account. The original reason I left was because I got so inspired by that ask about Elk and Caleb (and the certain SOMEONE who shot me with an inspiration beam, they know who they are🫵) that I really did start working on them. No joke, I've been knee deep in their lore since that ask, and that was like 6 months ago! I've made a SHIT ton of OCs and even redid some older ones. But I didnt feel like they were good enough, blah blah, imposter syndrome, blah. And I didnt want to come back empty handed.

Then a whole bunch of stuff happened in my personal life, from a situation that left me deeply anxious with my OCD symptoms shot to hell and back, then needing to be rehoused, and then back in a mental health spiral again. I think about this blog constantly though and how much fun it was to just be myself? As weird as that sounds? And just write stories and interact. Shits still hard though, and even though I know it's not true, it feels like I'll never be stable. Like I'm just doomed to be a fuck-up...