Lost
Mark lately I've been very scared. I've been scared of a disease called P.A.N.D.A.S but it's not very well known or believed in. Basically it's when the strep virus attacks the brain and cause changes to a person overnight. The symptoms can hold me back from being myself and can vary depending on the person some symptoms such as ocd, tics, or needing reassurance are just some of the less severe symptoms but this disease can make you think you did something you know you didn't or think things you don't want to think and the scary part is you have no control over what's happening your just forced to deal with it. I know it can be recurring but I never thought I'd have to go through it again after getting rid of it for over a year thanks to my lovely mother who found a doctor that could help but now I'm afraid it could be returning and I don't know what to do and now I just feel so lost. I'll be graduating next year and don't know anything about what I want to be or how I'm even going to get their. I'm sorry I know none or this is any of your guys business but you and Jack are a big part of my life you guys are always their to help me smile everyday so thank you so much for being their when I feel down or lonly and thank you to the community's as well you all are always very accepting and a great group of people. I think I've rambled on long enouf but thank you guys for just listening and being their it really means a lot. --- Jaiden
