#owchie...

what   color   does   your   love   feel   like   ?   dark,    stormy   blue.      sinking   ships,   raging   seas   and   tumultuous   hearts,   love   isn't   easy   for   you.   it's   a   struggle,   a   constant   inner   fight   of   should   i?   can   i?   do   i?   feelings   are   hard   and   they   rumble   inside   you   in   a   dissatisfied   mess   that   begs   to   be   let   out.   your   heart   screams   and   cries   inside   you   and   you...   you   can't,   you   won't.   you're   scared.   and   love   is   scary,   it's   hard   and   sometimes   it   just   doesn't   work   out.   people   leave,   people   hurt,   people   change   their   minds.   and   you   and   your     cold   stormy   heart     yearn   for   the   calmness,   for   the   distance,   to   be   allowed   and   able   to   simply   not   feel.   and   yet,   you   do.   it   rages,   it   fights   and   storms   inside   you   and   you   try   to   keep   it   down,   keep   it   quiet,   to   feel   pretending   not   to.   it's   the   burn   of   childhood   friends   growing   apart,   of   parents   that   aren't   quite   there,   of   relationships   that   burn   out.   so   you   snuff   it   down   with   water,   cold   and   calming   and   blue,   blue,   blue.   but   being     loved   by   you     is   blue   too,   just   not   in   that   way.   it's   the   soothing,   embracing   feeling   of   floating,   the   moment   when   you   sink   down   bellow   the   waves   and   become   one   with   the   water,   with   everything.   it's   the   balance,   the   dramatic   yet   calming   sound   of   waves   that   crash   against   a   rocky   shore.   you're   the   good   and   the   bad,   the   violence   of   the   storm   and   the   watery   peace   right   after.   you're   the   blue,   blue   feeling   and     loving   you   is   watery   tears,   yelled   confessions   that   no   one   will   hear   and   burying   your   feelings   in   a   deep   watery   grave   never   to   be   found   out   about.     your   love   is   dark   stormy   blue,   it's   vast   and   deep   and   all   encompassing,   it's   safety   in   the   surface   of   danger,   it's   trusting   the   unruly   abyss   and   yet   i'd   gladly   risk   drowning   just   to   feel   what   it's   like   being   loved   by   you.

*cry baby* ;3;