#overyou

Naked 35 – 26

So yeah it was a summer love kinda thing for me. It was very special to me. I still cherish each and every moment I spent with him. I still remember the way he looked at me. His eyes and everything. It turned out that he didn't love me as much as I did. It that's what he said to my friend. But true love only grows. He was scared that he might hurt me if he didn't grow any more feelings for me. It's totally fine with me. It was his call. Can't blame him for his feelings, right?

I'm in college right now. And it's not like I didn't had any relationship after him. I have been in one relationship after him and been with a lot of guys in a flirty way. But whenever I was with those guys all I could think about was him.

I spent time with those boys to forget about him but it wasn't helping.

Hey have you heard the song - back to you by selena gomez.

If yes, that song is totally my life. And if not, please do give it a hear. Each and every word of that song describes my life, describes my story with him.

Yes, I still love him. I couldn't get over him. While breaking up with me, he said - "hey, you will get over me eventually." Guess I never did. I never got over him.

Sometimes I think yeah it's better that we aren't together cuz yeah I can't make anyone love me. If he doesn't love me it's totally fine with me. I dont have any problem in the part "He doesn't love me anymore". But still it hurts I don't know why.

Getting over and moving on are two different situations. I have moved on from that situation. But I'm not over him. Not yet. I feel there's something left between us.

I’m soaring above the flowered pasture, flying higher than you ever took me.

Drifting in and out of the dream, a picture of rainbows,

That we were,

Highlighted in glorious LED bulbs,

An illumination of what we were.

I have painted my love and affection across the blank slate from the beginning,

The whole canvas is full but you can’t see it.

A bluejay told me I would regret allowing you to raise me up,

Blue feathers flying, sprouting in warning to how you carried me in your arms,

A weak-kneed effort, struggling with every step, calling all to your attention so you could display how big a burden I’ve been on you.

A dark time in the saga of my life, we were.

The more I think about it, the angrier I am,

All the lies you told, the lack of care after I turned out to not be perfect?

All swirling into a larger picture of how damaged we were.

I love you,

I’ve loved you since the days of old, a time where there was nothing but forests,

Where there was just us, two souls plucking apples from the trees,

Where we were the magic that ignited the world,

A time when we could be anyone,

And we were everyone,

We were someone.

Now I’m here, in place of where we were,

Blowing smoke in place of where you were.

I’m higher than you ever took me,

I’m reclaiming the color strands of time that you stole so much of,

I’m riding on the current of the independant sky that was once a blue of you,

I gave so much, took so little, so now I am reclaiming it all back.

I can be what I was before we were.