#overwhelmingthoughts

the soul

Currently majoring in existential breakdowns. ✖️✖️✖️ _ These past 2 weeks my anxiety has been alarmingly high. This tends to happen when I feel as though I can’t get a hold of my life, wanting everything to be perfect but yet everything feels out of place and a heavy sense of fear surrounding the outcome if I don’t keep various aspects of my life in control. This plummets my nervous system into a state of panic and an exhausting fight for survival begins in my mind manifesting as an inability to breathe, crying, hysteria and total exhaustion. _ If you also suffer from chronic anxiety some things that may help are: 1. BREATHE: force yourself into taking 5 deep belly breaths 2. SLEEP: when you are sleep deprived you are disadvantaged when it comes to handling even the smallest stressors. 3. ACTION: action breeds confidence and calm in knowing that the you’re getting on top of things instead of just panicking which helps nothing. 4. POSITIVE REINFORCEMENT: “Whatever happens, I’ll handle it” 5. SAY NO: stop committing to things that will overwhelm you and know that it’s okay to be selfish and take time for yourself. 6. SPEAK UP: confide in someone that will help you put things in perspective. 7. MOVE: go for a short run or do a mindful yoga flow to release some nervous energy and get a change of scenery. 8. MEDICATION: this is in the case of emergencies. I used to be anti medication but if your anxiety is lowering your daily quality of life and functionality as a person, all the natural modalities in the world won’t help. 9. LET GO: realise that life and it’s occurrences are not yours to control. 10. CLEAN YOUR ROOM: it sounds odd but when you de-clutter your living space you de-clutter your mental space. I hope this was helpful my loves 💛 . . . . . #helpfulanxietydisordertips#mentalwellness#heretohelp#makeyourbed#healthtips#existentialbreakdowns#anxietyattacks#creatingawareness#findingbalance#livingwithanxiety#followformentalhealth#wellnessblogger#letgo#movesoyoucangrow#empoweryourself#helpfulcontent#blackandwhite#overwhelmingthoughts (at Virgin Active, Menlyn)

Always feeling alone in this huge world. Pick me ups of happiness seem more rare everyday. Questions roll in and out of my insane mind all day long. Will I ever change who I am? Will I ever be comfortable in my own flesh and blood? Will I ever love who I am? Will I ever be happy? I have learned that you can plan out your life all you want to make it "easier" or "better." But that's not true it may help for a little while, but if you like it or not something gut punching or heart breaking will happen you to you and can not control or plan for it. Old memories keep me alive. Things that I would love to relive. Things that made my mind smile, not just my teeth. Life is like a roller coaster, but the trick is can you take control of the tracks?

I think that I imagined us too fast.
I think that I thought of our everyday texts and what I would say down to every.last.word.
I contemplated about our fights those conversations would lead to,
Before these talks ever happened.
I dreamed of long summer nights together,holding hands,kissing your lips,putting my fingers through your hair. 
Even though summer was months away from then.almost half a year. 

I have spent weeks worrying
over things that hadn’t happened yet. Things that have happened. 
Just like every time before, I just 
keep pushing forward and I left you behind. I seem to do that a lot. I try not to but I can't help it. But

I guess I'm a bit too late to go back looking for you all the way back there. 
I was hoping to see you on the sidewalk with your arms out wide, like you were many times before with your eyes on me and the butterflies starting a storm in my stomach as I got closer. 
But you've been found up by someone else,someone who doesn't not look back, 
before I even thought about turning around.