#overthinking life

Why do I do this to myself?

That first time you kiss a guy and think it's pretty weird, but than when you start thinking about it it was pretty nice too...

sigh

I thought after the semester was over I would calm down but clearly I was wrong. I just want to find an apartment that me and my best friend both like. And now I’m paranoid that she’s annoyed because of me and I just don’t want any conflict anymore, especially with the person who’s turned out to be my real best friend through this whole shit show of a year! And what makes it worse is my mom is pressuring me to find another place and not taking into consideration other circumstances and then I'm being pressured from the other side to move into an apartment as soon as possible because it would mean less moving of furniture. I just want to make everyone happy. I wish some things were easy but they never are and I’m constantly freaking out about it all in my head and think everyone hates me all the time. I wish my mind had an off switch.

You must prepare yourself for the impossible, only then everything is possible

I often wonder if someone will ever be able to see the inside of my head in its proper glory.